irish_cob
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When I met my partner he already had 3 girls with his first wife - all teenagers by the time I met him. When we decided to ttc it took us 18 months, but eventually I was pregnant, and I was really hoping for a boy - he already had 3 girls, I wanted something different from what he had had with his ex wife. But no, she was a girl.
Fast forward 21 months, and I'm pregnant again - this time it was much easier - pregnant after only 2 months. Again I want a boy. But I keep telling myself there's no hope, it'll be another girl, my partner only makes girls. And yes, it is another girl.
I'm absolutely gutted. I spent most of the night in tears. My partner won't have any more kids, he will have 5 girls when this baby is born, and he's done. To make matters worse, one of his daughters had a baby last year and that's a boy. I feel terrible but I don't want another girl. I'm also really upset that this is my last baby, my partner simply will not budge on that, so I'll never ever have a son. I'm just so gutted and upset, and my partner is now telling me I'm upsetting his self esteem by crying.
I've totally lost interest in this pregnancy now, I just don't care. I know I should be happy and appreciative of the fact I've got another healthy baby on the way, I know other women who can't conceive would be snatching my arm off for a healthy baby girl etc etc etc. I know all that but it doesn't stop the tears falling and my heart aching for the son I will now never have.
And it doesn't help that every other person seems to be having boys - the other girl at work who is pregnant is having a boy, the last lady who just went on maternity leave had a boy. It's just me who can't have a boy it seems. Don't know what to do. Sitting crying at my desk is not getting me anywhere.
Fast forward 21 months, and I'm pregnant again - this time it was much easier - pregnant after only 2 months. Again I want a boy. But I keep telling myself there's no hope, it'll be another girl, my partner only makes girls. And yes, it is another girl.
I'm absolutely gutted. I spent most of the night in tears. My partner won't have any more kids, he will have 5 girls when this baby is born, and he's done. To make matters worse, one of his daughters had a baby last year and that's a boy. I feel terrible but I don't want another girl. I'm also really upset that this is my last baby, my partner simply will not budge on that, so I'll never ever have a son. I'm just so gutted and upset, and my partner is now telling me I'm upsetting his self esteem by crying.
I've totally lost interest in this pregnancy now, I just don't care. I know I should be happy and appreciative of the fact I've got another healthy baby on the way, I know other women who can't conceive would be snatching my arm off for a healthy baby girl etc etc etc. I know all that but it doesn't stop the tears falling and my heart aching for the son I will now never have.
And it doesn't help that every other person seems to be having boys - the other girl at work who is pregnant is having a boy, the last lady who just went on maternity leave had a boy. It's just me who can't have a boy it seems. Don't know what to do. Sitting crying at my desk is not getting me anywhere.