IVF May/June/July 2015, Lets Get Ready!

[myonechance]

Hi all I know it's been a while...time I have needed. Unfortunately my beta was 6 on the 5th. so Chemical Pregnancy for me. all the HPT I took were lovely positives so when I started bleeding I knew in my heart things did not look good. I wish you all the best and lots of baby dust. As for me...I am not sure what I am going to do. DH asked if I thought about one more time...but...I am 42 this year, i only got 3 eggs this time, and we are paying out of pocket so i really have to think about things and I feel like I need more time to grieve. This was harder on me than I thought it would be. I may stalk every now and again just to keep up with ya'll!!

 

[ttcbaby117]

My one so sorry Hun I was shattered as well from my bfn which caused me to take a long break from Ttc. Time heals, it is a true statement. Take care of yourself and know that you will get through this. Just be gentle with yourself and grieve for your loss. Huge cyber hug.

Please let us know what we can do.

 

[Kat_F]

Big hugs to you myone x there is nothing fun about any of this. Here to cheer you on whatever you decide is right for you in the future. I too am having a hiatus and getting mentally strong again to see if it is another try for me.

 

[Hopethisyear]

Myone, Im so sorry hun Chemicals are hard so take some time for yourself.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Im so sorry Myonechance - I kind of guessed from your absence it hadn't worked out well... Look after yourself, be good to yourself and as the other girls said take your time to grieve and work out what is best for you. It is a horribly cruel journey and only you can know what is best for you. I remember how gutted I was after our 2nd IUI didn't work and it took me by surprise cause deep down I knew it hadn't worked but yet the confirmation was still horrible...

Like you we are paying out of pocket for IVF and I haven't even got to the stage of mentally preparing myself if it doesn't work cause I know how horrible it will be and I am scared of how emotionally difficult it will be. Just remember we are all here if you want to talk - on the thread or by private message if that's easier. Look after yourself and just remember you aren't alone.... Sending big hugs

 

[beneathmywing]

So sorry, myonechance!!

 

[bettybee1]

Hope - that's really good news about your follicles starting to grow let's hope your ec is next Thursday ek!!!


MYo- sorry to hear about your cycle! It's really defeating when you have a mc or get bfn I think the only think that helped me through my bfn cycles was forward planning trying to be positive and seeing what I could do better for the next cycle xx

 

[SarahC14]

Hi everyone. Well, I had my baseline bw/us yesterday, and they said everything looked good to start swimming that night. But when I called in after lunch for my dosage, they said my fish was too high (15.5 and they want it under 13) so I'm back on bcp. The good news is I only have to take them for 2.5 weeks, not a month like last time. They told me to take 75mg of dhea from now until my next beta in hopes of bringing my fsh levels down. I was so upset yesterday, but am feeling a little better now. I was worried I wouldn't be a candidate for ivf if my levels stayed over 13, which is there cut off, but the nurse said if they were still high next month I would do the patch protocol which is still effective. I have a meeting with her on the 24th to discuss that, just in case.
Sooooo...have any of you taken dhea or done the patch protocol? I don't really know much about either of them.
My new schedule is bcp until the 28th, then baseline bw/us on July 3 and hopefully my fsh will behave itself this time!

 

[bettybee1]

Sarah - really sorry to hear about yor fsh am glad to see you still been positive though

I haven't heard too much about the patch but am sure you have it on aswell as taking fsh & or growth hormone ? That's what I've seen on other threads before hopefully you will get your cycle up and running soon hun xx

 

[MrsL4]

myonechance - im so sorry to hear that....take as much time as you need and take care of yourself.....sometimes time can give us clarity and lead us to the next adventure in life

sarah - sry i don't really know much ab the patch protocol, but hopefully a few more weeks of bcp will fix things for you!


had our transfer this am, our clinic graded it as an AA and things went well! now just resting on the couch and gonna watch a movie

 

[bettybee1]

Mrs- congrats on been pupo!!!! How exiting ?

Was day 5? Was it a full blast you transferred one or two? You get any to go in the freezer ? Xxx

 

[beneathmywing]

Mrs - Congrats on being PUPO!

 

[waitingongod1]

Sarah- bummer about putting it off, I know I started planning IVF in March and every time I went in for the green light to start something would come up and it would be postponed. I always felt so let down, but now that I am doing it. It is just perfect timing for me and my life to be doing it now! So it is worth the wait!

MrsL- Yah! Was it painful>? How was your experience?

 

[waitingongod1]

On day 4 of stims, I am already tired of these shots and am wondering to myself what did I get myself into? I just feel so sore in my hips and now stomach. Anyone else feel like this when they were stimming, or do I just need to suck it up? : /

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Yay MrsL - hope your are relaxing and that the next 2 weeks (or slightly less!) go by quickly for you!!

Waiting - I remember feeling exactly the same around about the same time.... fed up, a bit sorry for myself and wondering why I was doing this but then after 1 more day and round of shots I was ok again and you will too! I think it's totally natural. The thing is before you know it you'll be done with them.... It already seems like such a distant memory for me!! I can't believe that it's almost a month since my ET! Stay strong - not much longer to go!!

 

[MrsL4]

thank you everyone! well movie time turned into nap time! hahah
my clinic gives you a xanax to help relax and decreased uterine cramps and i think it just made me sleepy!!

yes it was a 5 day blast and it was so BEAUTIFUL! I have a little print out of the picture and i just love looking at it!! I always thought that was the craziest thing when i read IVF blogs and whatnot, but now i totally get it! we work so hard for that little embie to grow and its just a miracle its made it this far. I keep thinking, this may have been the most pregnant we have ever been! (we are unexplained)

they are watching 4 more embies to see if they are good enough to freeze (this afternoon and tmw am) --- they said all 4 probably wouldn't make it, but i am hopeful for maybe 1-2 to freeze. they said they would contact me early next week and let me know.

procedure went fine! same room as retrieval, and DH was able to go in with me. my bladder was SO FULL that they thankfully were able to drain it before we left that room, because they wanted me to lay flat for 30 minutes and honestly i thought i was going to explode during the whole time.......each time the ultrasound came out, my poor bladder was like noooo!!!

but thats it, nothing different than IUI really. i always feel like my lower abd feels funny after IUI, and thats the same today. and my ovaries are still a touch tender from retrieval.

i know there isn't much i can do to influence the next two weeks, aside from eating healthy and getting plenty of rest, but i am nervous to do some things (like yard work out in the hot sun). I know thats just silly of me and I will probably get over that in a few days.......

PUPO!! can't believe it!!! it is just a miracle we made it this far!!

 

[waitingongod1]

White- Thanks for the encouragement, how many day did you do stims before you did your trigger shot? After your trigger shot were you done with injections?

 

[MrsL4]

waiting - i think we all have our moments throughout the process where we are tired of things......its easy to get overwhelmed when this is a process that has taken weeks, months, years....

i found it helpful to focus on small goals
(maybe that is just checking off the box each night....maybe its until your next ultrasound.....or maybe you can have a project that keeps you occupied)


i did 8 days of stims, then triggered, and that was the last injection (they save the tender one for last ) ----- after retrieval, started all the pills

i set them by my sink every night because i am paranoid i will forget to take one

hope you are doing better today, it isn't easy and i found that i overdid it towards the end of stims and retrieval.....so just be easy on yourself those days, maybe rent a movie or two that you've been wanting to see. i felt so bloated and heavy i just didn't want to move....oh! and a heating pad helps too

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Waiting I did stims for 11 days before doing my trigger.... 6 days of 2 shots at night then 5 days of 3 shots at night. Once I was done the 11 days I did the trigger on day 12. I know it seems tiring and hard but you can do it....I had good days and bad. Good days were when the injections didn't hurt.. bad days were when they did!!!! The best thing is to look after yourself and treat yourself in any way that you can to make you feel better. You have to take it slowly and just remind yourself of what you are doing and take it easy.

MrsL - that is so awesome! I am so excited for you!!!

AFM: well 2 weeks and counting til AF is due! I think I ovulated on Thur night as had horrendous ovulation pain and nothing since. DH and I DTD last night.... the clinic didn't say not to so I hope it was ok? Not that I can expect anything after 3 1/2 years! It was spontaneous not planned which was lovely..... I just so want to get back into the treatment cycle.... DH's bestfriend's girlfriend had a baby yesterday.... They have been together little over a year and between them this is baby #4 (other children from previous marriage/relationships). I am happy for them but seeing the pics of a perfect little newborn girl made me cry especially since they pretty much got pregnant the moment they tried!!

Anyway hope you are all ok x

 

[222excited]

Waiting, I stimmed for 9 days and it was painful just for few hours after the shot. I am in TWW and on PIO which are most painful ones I have ever had. Hope it gets easier for you with stims as you progress.
Mrs.L, hows the tww going? Do you plan to test early? When is your OTD?
White, hope these 2 weeks pass quickly for you or better hope you get surprise bfp!