n8 - I'm sorry you are experiencing this but you have a great attitude. as many girls have said, and you have said, it isn't the end. we will ALL be mothers at some point....it is the journey to get there that we can't predict. being a mother is in your heart, and i have no doubt it will happen. just have faith and continue doing the best you can
waiting - thats awesome, i hope it keeps getting darker! ahhh what if it is triplets?!