IVF until we all get our bfp! 2012-present *13 w/twins & 1 w/triplets!*

[BabyOnMyOwn]

That's really nice. We decided, well I decided family names are out. My husband has lost his birth mom and adopted mom and he wanted me to use their names, Lynette Louise. I hate it, feel bad about that but I do. Might use one as a middle name but it would have to be Louise since she raised him. His birth mom was an alcoholic and drug abuser and he was taken away from her at 3 months. I just can't use her name even though they mended their relationship. It was 30 years later and to me it was too late. Yeah I hold grudges.

My two grandma's were Mildred and Virginia so I didn't want to do those, but Kathleen and Elizabeth are both family names on my mom's side. If I was married and had a boy I would love to do the name Walker for my dad (it's my last name). I find that because I'm a teacher I have a harder time with names, I've had so many kids over the years that I have tried t o come up with names that I haven't seen a lot of. Now, I just have to get pregnant and have the babies to go with the names. )

I can completely understand not wanting to use your husband's birth mom's name.

 

[TwoRdue]

Jenn. It was just going to be Charlie Paige as I hate it for a boy but live it for a girl but then someone suggested that we have a more grown up name for when she is older for jobs ect so Charlotte was of cause the pick.... we will probably end up with a boy I feel though lol

 

[BabyOnMyOwn]

How is everyone doing today? It is super quiet in here. ) I hope everyone has had a good start to their week!

 

[notoptimistic]

babyonmyown-Just trying to keep busy at work and avoid symptom spotting. I had my FET 5 days ago and I go in for the blood test next Monday. Don't plan on testing before then.

 

[BabyOnMyOwn]

That's fantastic! It's so hard not to SS!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Had my doctors appt. this morning it was GRUELING....I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life.....The nurse and tech came and gave me my scan....I still had 6 mature follicles on the right side. 1-20mm, 2-19mm, and 3-18mm.....they said let us talk to the doctor which last time I had 8 follicles like 3 on left and 5 on right...this time they were all on the right side.....so anyways I went and ate lunch the doc was in a consult with a new patient and he would be an hour...so I went got me a salad from McD's and then went back to wait on the phone call...just sat in the parking lot since its an hour from home I didn't wana drive all the way home because my DH won't trigger shot me regardless he's scared of needles an I can't reach my rear end LOL...

Anyways while just pulling back in the parking lot I got a phone call "Andrea where are you"...."I'm sitting outside the office" "Please come back inside the doctor wants to talk to you" ....so as I knew the risks of everything....etc.....he said "Its up to you....but if you get more than 2 we want selective reduction".....so here I am 6 mature follicles later and my trigger shot OMG I can't believe I just lept out like that.....but the tech and nurse said just with all our factors its not likely to get more than 2 really to fertalize...so I would LIKE A TON OF PRAYERS I'm beside myself on this choice it was the HARDEST decision I've EVER made.....so if any babies I want 1 or 2...no more because I don't wanna know how hard it would be to go to the geneticist an let them pick which babies are healthy and which are not and have to end the ones that aren't....so just praying we get 1 really but I'll be glad with whatever God blesses us with if ANY...I really have give up on the faith of getting pregnant soooo anyways thats how my day has been...and since then I can't stop crying and praying.....I pray to GOD I didn't make the wrong decision but I prayed before and after and I feel God is watching over us and wouldn't give us more than we could bare.....God bless everyone.....this journey is sooooo hard.

 

[Pink gerbera]

Andrea I'm sorry you've had a rough day. I think you sound positive and like you've done the right thing. I'm confident you have. Like you say - have faith that the right thing for you and your family is around the corner. I have everything crossed for you. xx

 

[BabyOnMyOwn]

Andrea, I'm so sorry your day has been so stressful. I think you did the right thing.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Thanks ladies I just was scared of what others would think since we took this HUGE leap of faith....I've never prayed so much in my life...prayed all last night, this morning (was up at 4 am with my little guy he's almost 4 he has this mysterious rash keeps coming and going and they said it was a bacterial infection....he woke up this morning at 4 complaining of belly pain but since I gave him Tylenol he's been okay)....I prayed on the way to docs appt. while waiting on the nurse and tech, and then prayed even harder when I got the news I had to wait to see what the doctor said. Anyways he said this was the LAST time we got to try those cycles as I produce too many follicles that mature nicely he said we know what the protocol is for IVF don't we! LOL....I'm nervous because we cant afford the IVF just yet I have other things I really should be paying off first....so this was a leap of FAITH and our last attempt "naturally medicated cycle"....

I was worried about how others would take it that we lept so far....meaning the 6 follicles....but with his low morph. and low motility and my messed up left tube....this was a risk I just felt compelled to take.

I really appreciate the support....I am truly scared for once!

 

[Stinas]

Hi ladies!!!
Sorry I have been MIA. I have had no power for 6 days and worked like a maniac the past few days.
Dont have time for personals, but I hope everyone is well!

My FET was a bust..BFN as kind of expected. IVF #2 will be sometime next year. Most likely DH will go on clomid and have another TESE done. I dont really want to use anymore of the frozen sperm we do have left if it is going to result in another BFN. I have to make an apt to see my doc to discuss it further. Not really in the mood at the moment. I just want some time off from TTC. This month will be 2yrs TTC and im at my wits end right now. In full bitch mode today, waiting for AF. Just really tired of all this BFN crap. Like give me a damn break already. I feel awful complaining especially since sooooo many people around me right now are suffering, but I am miserable lol
I have decided I am going to try to eat a bit better and try to get into my skinny jeans again and pretend im in a normal situation until I get back on the TTC crazy train.
Ill still be routing you all on and popping in and out. Just because I am frustrated with my situation right now does not mean I am not happy to see all you ladies getting your BFP's! I enjoy every moment seeing people in similar situations get their blessings! So keep them coming ladies!

Congrats on all the BFP's I missed.....and for all those BFN's....dont worry ladies...just because we have to work a little harder does not mean it wont come to us. It will soon!
xoxo

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Stinas omgosh hunny I am so so very sorry.....bless your heart. I'll be praying that whenever you do your FET cycle next that everything will work out just fine and be the biggest blessing ever. I want this so bad for you this breaks my heart to.... soooooo tightly...wish I could give ya a real one instead of a stupid cyber one.....Its just been a rough day for a lot of us it seems

 

[Stinas]

Andrea - Thank you very much! I know its hard, but I do have faith our time will come!

 

[BabyOnMyOwn]

Stinas. . . I am SO sorry! This is such a hard thing to be going through. It is so frustrating and hard to understand. I have also decided to spend the next bit of time getting back in my skinny pants since I don't think I will be doing my next cycle until late January or early February.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Me too sweetheart me to....I know God will shine through I just feel my own patience is running out..... lots of hugs your way and praying for a sunshiny day

 

[Stinas]

Yeah, my patience is running out to, but what helps is imagining what my baby will look like and I imagine those big eyes looking back at me. That helps me when I am down. Its like I know exactly what he/she will look like....its weird. So deep down, I know it will happen. Might shed a few extra tears getting there, but it will happen. We have to have some sort of faith and hope. Quitters never prosper. I refuse to quit, even though there are many times I want to.

 

[AndreaFlorida]

Awww I agree with you 1000000%!!!!!! We will get it, just will take us longer. I had a friend try for 8 years and FINALLY she got her just recently I'm sooooo over the moon for her!! I can't wait til we all have our success stories

Thanks for your encouragement You are an amazing woman

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

Hi ladies!!!
Sorry I have been MIA. I have had no power for 6 days and worked like a maniac the past few days.
Dont have time for personals, but I hope everyone is well!

My FET was a bust..BFN as kind of expected. IVF #2 will be sometime next year. Most likely DH will go on clomid and have another TESE done. I dont really want to use anymore of the frozen sperm we do have left if it is going to result in another BFN. I have to make an apt to see my doc to discuss it further. Not really in the mood at the moment. I just want some time off from TTC. This month will be 2yrs TTC and im at my wits end right now. In full bitch mode today, waiting for AF. Just really tired of all this BFN crap. Like give me a damn break already. I feel awful complaining especially since sooooo many people around me right now are suffering, but I am miserable lol
I have decided I am going to try to eat a bit better and try to get into my skinny jeans again and pretend im in a normal situation until I get back on the TTC crazy train.
Ill still be routing you all on and popping in and out. Just because I am frustrated with my situation right now does not mean I am not happy to see all you ladies getting your BFP's! I enjoy every moment seeing people in similar situations get their blessings! So keep them coming ladies!

Congrats on all the BFP's I missed.....and for all those BFN's....dont worry ladies...just because we have to work a little harder does not mean it wont come to us. It will soon!
xoxo

I am so sorry to hear that Stinas....as always you are in my prayers and my fingers are crossed for you.....huge for you.

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

Had my doctors appt. this morning it was GRUELING....I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life.....The nurse and tech came and gave me my scan....I still had 6 mature follicles on the right side. 1-20mm, 2-19mm, and 3-18mm.....they said let us talk to the doctor which last time I had 8 follicles like 3 on left and 5 on right...this time they were all on the right side.....so anyways I went and ate lunch the doc was in a consult with a new patient and he would be an hour...so I went got me a salad from McD's and then went back to wait on the phone call...just sat in the parking lot since its an hour from home I didn't wana drive all the way home because my DH won't trigger shot me regardless he's scared of needles an I can't reach my rear end LOL...

Anyways while just pulling back in the parking lot I got a phone call "Andrea where are you"...."I'm sitting outside the office" "Please come back inside the doctor wants to talk to you" ....so as I knew the risks of everything....etc.....he said "Its up to you....but if you get more than 2 we want selective reduction".....so here I am 6 mature follicles later and my trigger shot OMG I can't believe I just lept out like that.....but the tech and nurse said just with all our factors its not likely to get more than 2 really to fertalize...so I would LIKE A TON OF PRAYERS I'm beside myself on this choice it was the HARDEST decision I've EVER made.....so if any babies I want 1 or 2...no more because I don't wanna know how hard it would be to go to the geneticist an let them pick which babies are healthy and which are not and have to end the ones that aren't....so just praying we get 1 really but I'll be glad with whatever God blesses us with if ANY...I really have give up on the faith of getting pregnant soooo anyways thats how my day has been...and since then I can't stop crying and praying.....I pray to GOD I didn't make the wrong decision but I prayed before and after and I feel God is watching over us and wouldn't give us more than we could bare.....God bless everyone.....this journey is sooooo hard.

Andrea...I'm sorry sweetie that you had a rough day....you will be in my prayers.

 

[Jenn76]

Almost: Sounds like you will have a beautiful nursery. I'm waiting to find out the genders to pick a theme.

Prayin: I moved two years ago and had what will be the nursery painted back then in hopes it would be used soon. I hope you get to set yours up soon.

BOMO: My cousin named her son after her maiden name, Spencer. She is also a teacher and struggled as well. I can imagine it must be hard.

Two: I feel the same, my DH wants use to use the name we intend on calling them by as the birth name but I want the full name. He wants Chris and I want Christopher, or he wants Abbey and I want Abigail. Stupid thing to fight over but we do. Lol!

Notopt: I admire you for not testing, it's so hard not to. I hope you get good news on Monday.

Andrea: Sounds like a hard decision, but I think you are making a good decision. I really hope you don't get put in the position of reduction, but I agree that it is unlikely. FX for you, you will be in my prayers.

Stinas: I'm so sorry to hear this. A couple months break will probably do you some good. We tried for 3 years before we got our BFP, so I completely know your frustration. It will happen for you too one day. Sounds like you have a good plan for next cycle.

 

[MrsC8776]

Had my doctors appt. this morning it was GRUELING....I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life.....The nurse and tech came and gave me my scan....I still had 6 mature follicles on the right side. 1-20mm, 2-19mm, and 3-18mm.....they said let us talk to the doctor which last time I had 8 follicles like 3 on left and 5 on right...this time they were all on the right side.....so anyways I went and ate lunch the doc was in a consult with a new patient and he would be an hour...so I went got me a salad from McD's and then went back to wait on the phone call...just sat in the parking lot since its an hour from home I didn't wana drive all the way home because my DH won't trigger shot me regardless he's scared of needles an I can't reach my rear end LOL...

Anyways while just pulling back in the parking lot I got a phone call "Andrea where are you"...."I'm sitting outside the office" "Please come back inside the doctor wants to talk to you" ....so as I knew the risks of everything....etc.....he said "Its up to you....but if you get more than 2 we want selective reduction".....so here I am 6 mature follicles later and my trigger shot OMG I can't believe I just lept out like that.....but the tech and nurse said just with all our factors its not likely to get more than 2 really to fertalize...so I would LIKE A TON OF PRAYERS I'm beside myself on this choice it was the HARDEST decision I've EVER made.....so if any babies I want 1 or 2...no more because I don't wanna know how hard it would be to go to the geneticist an let them pick which babies are healthy and which are not and have to end the ones that aren't....so just praying we get 1 really but I'll be glad with whatever God blesses us with if ANY...I really have give up on the faith of getting pregnant soooo anyways thats how my day has been...and since then I can't stop crying and praying.....I pray to GOD I didn't make the wrong decision but I prayed before and after and I feel God is watching over us and wouldn't give us more than we could bare.....God bless everyone.....this journey is sooooo hard.

Fx for you! I hope this is it.

Hi ladies!!!
Sorry I have been MIA. I have had no power for 6 days and worked like a maniac the past few days.
Dont have time for personals, but I hope everyone is well!

My FET was a bust..BFN as kind of expected. IVF #2 will be sometime next year. Most likely DH will go on clomid and have another TESE done. I dont really want to use anymore of the frozen sperm we do have left if it is going to result in another BFN. I have to make an apt to see my doc to discuss it further. Not really in the mood at the moment. I just want some time off from TTC. This month will be 2yrs TTC and im at my wits end right now. In full bitch mode today, waiting for AF. Just really tired of all this BFN crap. Like give me a damn break already. I feel awful complaining especially since sooooo many people around me right now are suffering, but I am miserable lol
I have decided I am going to try to eat a bit better and try to get into my skinny jeans again and pretend im in a normal situation until I get back on the TTC crazy train.
Ill still be routing you all on and popping in and out. Just because I am frustrated with my situation right now does not mean I am not happy to see all you ladies getting your BFP's! I enjoy every moment seeing people in similar situations get their blessings! So keep them coming ladies!

Congrats on all the BFP's I missed.....and for all those BFN's....dont worry ladies...just because we have to work a little harder does not mean it wont come to us. It will soon!
xoxo

I have been worried about you. I'm so sorry you got a bfn. I really hope that when you do try again that it will be the cycle for you. This azoo crap is so hard and just adds to the cost. I'll be thinking of you and hoping that you continue to come on here. You have every right to be down, bitchy, sad or anything you want to be. We all understand and are here to support you.