IVF until we all get our bfp! 2012-present *13 w/twins & 1 w/triplets!*

[Stinas]

BOMO - Just remember, no one understands unless they are going through this. Ignorant comments will always be there because they have no clue what hurt we feel on a daily basis. Its a shame, but we need to learn how to not let them bother us. We will get our babies no matter which way we decide to have them....no one can hold us back from that. Never give up. F all the morons that say give up. Infertility may make us go crazy, but in ways it makes us much stronger than others....we dont give up.

A few days ago I realized this Thanksgiving I will be TTC'ing for 2yrs. Kind of sad....I am not a fan of Thanksgiving, but this will probably make it worse. Bring on the wine! lol I plan on getting a bit tipsy that day. I know it will take a while because I also plan on stuffing my face lol

 

[MrsC8776]

MrsC - I am hoping the swimmers will come out in a SA, but not holding my breath.....I think they are just hoping it will kick start his production of swimmers to find in TESE. We dont know why he didnt have loads of them in last TESE...there is pretty much no reason what so ever...except for that V vein which could be making the balls too hot and killing the swimmers, BUT we would have found some dead swimmers in last TESE, which we didn't....so who knows whats wrong. All his bloods came out totally normal, no surgeries as a child which could have caused anything, his balls are normal size, hanging normal.....so all of this is just confusing and flat out annoying lol

Honey - I am hoping 2013 is our year!!!

Michele - Yayy!

DrSquid - OMG! My heart goes out to that girl! How horrible!

Andrea -

Mo - YAYYY for PUPO!!!!!! FX!! We need another azoo baby!!!!!!

Lindsay & Pink - Happy 16 weeks!!!

BOMO - Dont get discouraged! DE cycles are successful....everyones bodies are different. Keep your head up, it will work! Plus you have all of us cheering you on!


Thank you all for your support! I love you ladies! I have been busy with work lately so I have not been on much. Plus im in the Christmas spirit and trying to get some of my decorations out when I have some time. Being a busy bee helps me not remember all the TTC crap. Its nice lol
I pray to god this clomid works. I keep dreaming his swimmers will come out normal.....who said we cant dream? lol

I'll keep you in my thoughts about the clomid and swimmers. That would be the best news ever if they came out in a SA. If not then at least you guys now you tried it and move back to the TESE with the next cycle. I'm sure the clomid will help with the amount even if they don't come out on their own. On another note. Yay for Christmas stuff!! My favorite time of year (for the most part).

I have done the package program. . . I get three "fresh" cycles with the DE and unlimited frozen embryos with any that come from the DE cycles. I'm just feeling discouraged. . . I know it will pass. Thank you all for the positive words and encouragement. I had someone I work with ask when I'm going to "call it quits and decide it just isn't going to happen" I know she didn't mean it to be hurtful but I couldn't help but take it that way. I can't give up on something that isn't just something I want or a dream I have. Being a mom is this unexplainable need. I wish I could explain it better, but I can't.

First of all why would someone say that!?!? That makes me angry for you. Yes, I'm sure she didn't mean for it to hurt your feelings but as a woman how can you say that to another woman. I understand how you feel and I think everyone else does as well. No need to try and explain the want/need/dream for a child. I'm glad you got the package deal. You will only need the first try though. I'm excited for you to get started! Did I miss the AF update or has she still not shown? How long will you be on BC before you start the next step?

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

Ladies transfer was great!!! Embryo looked like it had never been frozen and was perfect!! And it started to hatch after thaw!!!! It had hatched more from the time the embryologist talked to me to when they transferred it (about 30 min time frame).. My dr was great and we all were joking around before the transfer and talking about thanksgiving.... I'm leaving here in about 30mins.. Pic of baby later.... Dr also said I could go back to normal activities when I leave here if I wanted to. He said they only restrict activities due to ovarian enlargement and since I didn't stim there is no risk. But I'm going to take it easy and lie around all weekend and not do much. I'm excited! He said implantation should start by tomorrow b/c it's hatched!!!!!!

Congrats sweetie.....

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

Hello All! Sorry for the lack of responses lately, I have been crazy busy trying to get report cards done, figuring out financing, and having meetings EVERY day this week. I’m so ready for a short week next week for Thanksgiving! I hope everyone is doing well.

Mo. . . yay, so glad it went well!!

Andrea. . . just like everyone else has said, don’t count yourself out yet!

Azlissie. . . how are you feeling?

Pink and Lindsay. . . Happy week 16!

Broody. . . yay for getting in! GL at your scan!

Drs. . . I’m sorry you aren’t feeling it today.

Michelle. . . wow, 20 is great! FX your numbers keep rising!

Jenn. . .how are you doing?

Almost. . . I just went to look at your bump picture. . . .SO sweet!

Want. . . yay for gender scan!!

Honey. . . thinking of you and hoping 2013 is your year!

Prayin. . . I’m sorry if I missed it, but did you find out if you have a cyst or if everything is clear to go ahead?

Polly. . . I am SO sorry! Have you looked into donor eggs?

Stinas. . . I literally LOL with your bra comment! I’m so excited for you to get started again. FX the clomid does its job!

MrsC. . . I saw on your journal that hubby is going into work there now. How is that going?

I am REALLY sorry if I missed anyone. I’m trying to get all caught up. ) AFM, I am still trying to figure out the finance piece of my DE cycle. I have a whole new appreciation for the phrase beg, borrow, and steal! I am refinancing my house and applying for a loan for part of it and I think borrowing money from my mom for the other part. I have been pushed back a week which at first disappointed me, but that gives me another week to come up with money so I am ok with it. I started another thread about using donor eggs which is nice, but two of the women on there just had cycles with DE and they both got BFN. Hearing that completely upset me. I think I keep thinking that if I’m not using my crappy eggs it’s going to work. That was a reality check that there is no guaranteeing it will.

Hi Bomo....I have to go back again on Tuesday for another ultrasound and blood work....but it doesnt look good....she said that im ovulating on my own...she said she wasnt sure if it was a cyst or follicle to which i said so why the hell did i do an uktrasound for...wasnt it to determine if it was in fact a cyst....i felt as though she was giving me the runaround because she said maybe it was his or it could have been that.......and when i ask her a question she seems (nurse) as though she is annoyed...im just really upset about the whole thing...i told her that i had my period last week and she refused to believe me ....stating maybe its leftover from the miscarriage....Feeling a bit down..but i will get over it....

 

[MrsC8776]

Prayin~ I'm so sorry they are giving you the runaround. They should be able to tell if it is a cyst or not. I hope Tuesday goes better for you at the appointment. Can you see someone else in the office?

 

[almosthere]

Yay mobaby-what an amazing picture!!! i bet this is it for you yayy!!! GL with your TWW!!!

Thanks BOMO! And keep positive hunny!!!!

HAppy 16 weeks Pink & Lindsay

To everyone who I missed-Hope you are all doing well!!! Babydust to all others in the tww....you find out soon andrea, so excited for you!

 

[almosthere]

Oh Dr. rib pain sounds no fun at all!!! Hope it subsides!!!

 

[azlissie]

Mo congrats on a great fet!! The pic is very cool.

Praying sorry that nurse is so horrible. Is there someone else you can see instead?

Bomo I'm sorry about the delay but it sounds like you've got the financing all figured out so that's great! So sorry your co-worker was so rude - why would she think this was something you could just forget about? A friend of mine had two unplanned pregnancies & hates her life so whenever I bring up my plans she tells me not to have kids because I'll regret it.

Michelle I hope that estrogen level rises soon!

AFM, got my prog results and it's 35.3 so that's reassuring. No real symptoms yet but I'm feeling pretty positive about this cycle.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!

 

[PollyJo]

Azlissie- GL …the progesterone levels are high!
-My e2 levels were hovering somewhere between 956-1013 the lat 3 days, and one of follies was 18.5 while the other way 17.6
BOMO- I hope everything works out well for you though. Fx and lots of good luck your way.
-My dh isn’t into DE. I asked him because I don’t mind it. He’s pretty cool with not having kids at all.
-Honestly, people who have had babies quite easily have no clue what we go through… One of my friends was rather hard on her own sister who’s ttc for 10 yrs, and she didn’t mean harm. I have had people ask me about babies all the time, until I simply told them that we are trying but it ain’t happening. (so back off )
Michelle- Your E2 levels will catch up.… it seems they do once the follicles start to mature and produce estrogen, read in an ivf text book from the library…. Fx for you.
Mo- awww that’s a lovely baby … hope it grows and grows ….congrats
Praying- I am sorry sweetie… big hug, and hope it resolves quickly whatever it is… it’s a pain in the wrong place.
Stinas- cracking up about the bras….wishing you lots and lots of luck, and baby dust your way. Yes, I know about Thanksgiving, and feel for you. The hardest time is Christmas for me, because it's so kid-centric.

MrsC- DrSquid - awww, take care ladies; I’d love to be able to place my hand on our bellies, if I may say so. I didn’t get a chance with sister’s two preggos, a bummer…. I bet you talk to your babies… it apparently calms them down or so my mother would say.
Andrea- hope it’s bfp cramps!!! Fx
Want- Almost- apparently it’s possible to say the sex just from the way you look …but it’s too early for the belly to show I guess
Everyone – take care
Afm, haven’t gone for a follow up yet. I guess the doc’s explanation was poor ovarian response. The doc was preparing me for it, even before the ER. It is possible that they didn’t manage to retrieve eggs because there were only 2, but this is a good technical team. But it seems to me that they will not want to start another cycle. Now am worried about all the extra bills that come in the post

 

[MoBaby]

Az that's a great progesterone!!! Fx for you!!!!

Getting: my PTD is next week sometime.... Wed is 5dpt.... Maybe then?? Idk... I'm nervous to test! Since I have none here I'd have to make a trip to the store which makes it a little easier!

 

[Lindsay18]

Mo- congrats!!! So awesome that you had an amazing ET!!!

BOMO- I'm so sorry for the speed bump. Hopefully things will be smooth sailing for you soon!! Unfortunately not everyone is positive for other people. It's pretty sad actually to think people can be so insensitive. Makes you feel bad for them doesn't it? Chin up love!! Of COURSE you're not giving up

Kath- I'm so sorry!! Text me tomorrow. I can't believ she's being like that. It's awful!!

 

[wantbabysoon]

Mo - Yay for being PUPO!! I would say just take it easy this weekend and do something fun with DH!! movie at home snuggled on the couch maybe The pic of the embie is adorable!

Michelle - I hope the E2 levels rise.

Andrea - I have my fingers crossed for your BFP! Cramping is a good sign..

Getting - Yay for getting in early

BOMO - I hope everything falls in place finance wise and you get your BFP real soon!! Some people have no idea what we ladies go through so just ignore them - I know easier said than done.

Praying - I hope next week brings better news

Lindsay and Pink - Yay Avacado week!!

Stinas - Hope clomid does the trick for your hubby!

AZ - your levels look good.

Sorry if I missed anyone... this thread grows very rapidly each day..

AFM, I had my appointment with the Diabetes specialist today (more details in my journal if anyone is interested) and the bottom line is I have to start insulin. For now its twice a day and monitoring the blood sugar levels after every meal.. I thought the process of poking myself was over... oh well!!

 

[PRAYIN4BABIES]

Prayin~ I'm so sorry they are giving you the runaround. They should be able to tell if it is a cyst or not. I hope Tuesday goes better for you at the appointment. Can you see someone else in the office?

I think Im going to request a different nurse...I feel bad because I dont want her to get in any trouble but Im so done with her

 

[drsquid]

bomo- my AUNT said that about me.. sigh. people can suck.. oh and once i got pregnant apparently made some sorta comment to my cousins wife about whether or not she thought it was a good idea (ie implying it wasnt). and my cousins wife was like... of course. it is wonderful.. love her

polly- oddly i dont.. well other than to tell the boy to stop when he crams his head into my ribs. i am a radiologist so i spend all day dictating. figure they hear my voice all day... sorry you arent nearer... id totally get you to feel the boogers. ive made people at work.. downside to not having a partner..

 

[Pink gerbera]

Morning ladies!

Want have you been diagnosed with gestational diabetes?

BOMO - I really hope you get your finances sorted. I feel positive for you with a DE. I've had many comments similar to you over the past 3 years. They do really hurt but unfortunately it is just people's ignorance. You don't need to try and explain to us about the want or need for a baby I'm sure your bfp is just round the corner!

Polly - I hope you're doing ok?

Prayin - big hugs for you that everything can get sorted out ASAP. Sometimes you just catch a nurse on a bad day!

Andrea - did you do the FRER? I'm still keeping everything crossed!

Hope you other ladies have a great weekend!

Pink xx

 

[wantbabysoon]

Pink - Yes gestational diabetes

 

[AndreaFlorida]

I did one but not sure there is much there...the one I did last night was CLEAR when I shone a light through...this one maybe has a hint of pink...but I truly am cramping so bad I think is gonna show soon an the stupid headache that comes along with her....I duno maybe I'm wrong....but I don't wanna get my hopes up!

FX for all of you ladies Getting really exciting in here

 

[Jenn76]

Mobaby: Congrats on being PUPO! So happy to hear your FET was so promising. Sounds like a BFP is in your future. Love the pic!

MrsC: Glad to hear your hubby is able to work until things get worked out.

BOMO: Sorry to hear the finances are so complicated, it really sucks to be in this position. I truly believe this will work for you. It's great that you get multiple tries and I hope you can use them to conceive your second child. It will all be worth it when you have your beautiful baby in your arms. I'm so excited for you to get started. And totally that woman had no business saying that!!!! Why should anyone that wants to be a mom not have that opportunity. I would never give up, and neither should you!

Stinas: Many dreams come true! I'm sure the doctor knows what they are doing and I pray it makes a difference.

Kathy: I feel your frustration, the same thing happened to me. I had to go for an MRI before I could start IVF to determine if they were cysts. It delayed me 4 months and in the end we went forward without surgery. Felt like I wasted four months, but I have to believe the timing was right when I finally got to start. It all worked out after all. I guess it is better to be safe then sorry. I hope you don't get delayed long and they figure out what it is.

Azlissie: I hate it when people warn you off about having kids, just because they didn't/don't want them has nothing to do with anyone else. I'm glad your results came back good, FX this I your time!

Polly: I hope your follow up brings you some hope. I worried I'd have the same thing happen and I wondered if I had tried another month would there have been more follies? If it didn't work out I would have tried again to see if really was my poor reserves or just a bad month. I would have always wondered. I really hope here is some hope.

Want: Sorry to hear you have to go on insulin, after all the meds and needles it sucks to have to take more. My test is in a few weeks and my OB warned me that gestational diabetes is common with carrying twins. Good news is once you have the baby you most likely won't have to continue on insulin.

DrSquid: I wish I could feel a kick or even a flutter. I'd even take a head in my ribs just to feel reassured that everything is ok. I was sleeping last night and felt a flutter and got all excited to then find out it was my kitten sleeping on my tummy. Sorry to hear about the Braxton hicks, I'm glad everything is ok.

Andrea: I hope things work out. Maybe your trigger really stuck with ou and it's too early for a BFP.

 

[michelle01]

Hope everyeone is having a great weekend! Just a quick update....I have 25 follicles now and my e2 went to 1447 My ER is going to be Wednesday and follow-up Monday morning!

 

[almosthere]

yay michelle you can rest up for thanksgiving!!