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When I had my first midwife appointment I told her how anxious I was so she arranged for me to have an early reassurance scan at the epu. I was booked in on a Monday, but the Friday before I had really bad cramping and I broke down because I was convinced the baby must have died with the pain I was in. I called the epu and they had me straight in and baby was measuring 7 weeks with a little heartbeat. It was such a relief to see but unfortunately it didn’t reassure me as the baby i lost passed away at 8+3 weeks so I was still terrified. It was hard to believe it wasn’t going to happen again. With that pregnancy tho, straight from my bfp I just had such a bad feeling something felt wrong. The day baby passed I woke that morning and it was like someone had turned my symptoms off with a switch. Everything was gone. Morning sickness just vanished and I just had such a bad feeling. I tried over and over to contact my midwife team but it constantly went to answer machine. I sent an email to them like it said in the message and I never received an answer. 3 days later I had my first midwife appointment and told her that my symptoms had gone and that my morning sickness never ends this early and that I just had a bad feeling something was wrong but she just brushed off my concerns and said my hormones were probably settling and that I was probably lucky it was stopping early. I tried over and over from 9 weeks to find a heartbeat with my Doppler and never could so by the time I had my 12 weeks scan i knew in my heart baby was gone. I said to dh in the waiting room I was absolutely dreading going into that scan. Was still devastating to have it confirmed and when she said baby measured 8+3, the exact day my symptoms stopped I was just so hurt that no one bothered to contact me back when I voiced my concerns and that the midwife I’d seen had brushed me off. When I first tried using my Doppler at 9 weeks this time I was so nervous and to have found baby’s heartbeat I burst into tears, I was so relieved. So to be able to still hear it is so reassuring. I’m slowly starting to believe I’m really having this baby and I’m starting to get a little excited now. More nervous still but the excitement is starting to hit now. I can’t wait for Wednesday. Baby was a tiny little blob with a heartbeat last time we see them so will be amazing to see an actual little baby.
I'm sorry you were ignored. That's awful I'm glad you're starting to get excited about this baby