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When I had my first midwife appointment I told her how anxious I was so she arranged for me to have an early reassurance scan at the epu. I was booked in on a Monday, but the Friday before I had really bad cramping and I broke down because I was convinced the baby must have died with the pain I was in. I called the epu and they had me straight in and baby was measuring 7 weeks with a little heartbeat. It was such a relief to see but unfortunately it didn’t reassure me as the baby i lost passed away at 8+3 weeks so I was still terrified. It was hard to believe it wasn’t going to happen again. With that pregnancy tho, straight from my bfp I just had such a bad feeling something felt wrong. The day baby passed I woke that morning and it was like someone had turned my symptoms off with a switch. Everything was gone. Morning sickness just vanished and I just had such a bad feeling. I tried over and over to contact my midwife team but it constantly went to answer machine. I sent an email to them like it said in the message and I never received an answer. 3 days later I had my first midwife appointment and told her that my symptoms had gone and that my morning sickness never ends this early and that I just had a bad feeling something was wrong but she just brushed off my concerns and said my hormones were probably settling and that I was probably lucky it was stopping early. I tried over and over from 9 weeks to find a heartbeat with my Doppler and never could so by the time I had my 12 weeks scan i knew in my heart baby was gone. I said to dh in the waiting room I was absolutely dreading going into that scan. Was still devastating to have it confirmed and when she said baby measured 8+3, the exact day my symptoms stopped I was just so hurt that no one bothered to contact me back when I voiced my concerns and that the midwife I’d seen had brushed me off. When I first tried using my Doppler at 9 weeks this time I was so nervous and to have found baby’s heartbeat I burst into tears, I was so relieved. So to be able to still hear it is so reassuring. I’m slowly starting to believe I’m really having this baby and I’m starting to get a little excited now. More nervous still but the excitement is starting to hit now. I can’t wait for Wednesday. Baby was a tiny little blob with a heartbeat last time we see them so will be amazing to see an actual little baby.
I'm sorry you were ignored. That's awful
