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[Mom 2B]

Grrrrrr! Not a happy bunny this morning. Have dragged myself out of bed after another crappy nights sleep interrupted by baby wriggling, BHs and OH snoring! I have however come up with an ingenious way of stopping him snoring and benefiting myself at the same time. I have to keep him on his side coz he snores if he rolls onto his back so I just use him as a pillow behind my back which also stops me rolling into an uncomfy position and also gives me loads of room for pillows between my knees and under my bump. Result!!!

Well after dragging myself downstairs I find he has used the rest of the milk so no cup of tea for me

Feel very hormonal, weepy and tired today. Might just curl up on the sofa and watch junk on tv.....

I'm looking forward to my appointment with the consultant and scan on wednesday though. Will be nice to see baby bump again and put my mind at rest that everything is ok still.

Have a good day everyone xxxxx

My OH is the same way if he sleeps on his back! LOL
I had some great sleep last night for a change. Only woke up once at 5am to pee and my 2 yr old slept til 9am. That 1 hour of extra sleep is a god send sometimes!!!!!!! I didn't even hear OH get up this morning so he must have been extra careful not to wake us up today! yay.

I have my growth u/s in 3 weeks! I wish it were today as im still quite a bit concerned about my weight gain and having IUGR again. But according to belly pics im getting big, im even bigger than i was when I had my 2 yr old so hope that means my little boy is growing good. but there isn't anything i can do about it anyways if he does decided to be like his sister and stop growing after 28 ish weeks.

Hope everyones appts go good this week!!! and try to nap ladies

 

[abstersmum]

i am still having weekly blood tests and consultant appointments but they now think the problem with my liver is linked to antibiotics i had, hopefully i can stop the blood tests soon and can go back to being normal. going to try and find a decent supportive nursing bra at some point this week as my boobs are now huge

 

[millward329]

Ooh let me know if you find any in H cup abstersmum....Lancaster is rubbish

Had antenatal class this afternoon and feeling quite weepy because the health visitor was talking about how hard it will be but everyone else had support with them and it really brought it home to me that I'm going to be on my own. I'm also embarrased because I asked the contraception lady about getting an STD test having found out that the Dad had slept around before me. I was a virgin and feel really upset about having to do that kind of test because I never thought I would have to. Sorry to offload on you ladies but somehow I thought you might cheer me up : (

 

[smiffy85]

Woke up at 6am after not getting to sleep until after half 1. Off to work an a literacy meeting tonight. The problem with joining additional activities at work is it's like the flamin' mafia - you just can't get out once you're in. Going to speak to my head of dept and see if I can take a sabbatical from the literacy working group until after mat leave. However, in the classic style of the woman who has had such gems to share as 'you'll have plenty of time to sleep when you're on leave' and 'can I have an additional 20 page report from you by December 6th' I'm thinking this will just be a further exercise in futility. Wish me luck (and patience).

I know you have found out you can leave it but I sympathise totally with what you put! I got to work this morning and the foundation stage leader came to see me. She asked if I was ok and I said 'not really' and explained about my lack of sleep over the weekend. She then glossed over that and decided to tell me how her OH kept her awake last night snoring! I just can't talk to her about the pregnancy and how tired I am! Whenever we have met after school to discuss stuff about the classes and children, if I'm uncomfortable or tired and stuff she just doesn't seem to realise. I don't think it's because she doesn't care, just that she doesn't know how to deal with it so ignores it and moves on. In staff meeting tonight I was sat with her and we do get on well but she could see how tired I was and then preceded to ask me to stay after school tomorrow night for a planning meeting! Grrrr!

Sorry I'm having a rant lol! Part of me wants to throw the towel in now and say enough is enough cos I'm knackered. The other part of me is telling me 'its only 9 days, you can make it'. OH is keen for me to get signed off if I need to. Was teary this morning but don't think monday morning blues helped cos I wasn't too bad once the day got going. I hate feeling like I'm letting people down, especially my teaching assistant who's been so amazing and picking up my slack and also the children. I love being their teacher and they are a lovely class but so demanding! You can't really turn round to a bunch of 4 yr olds and say 'I'm really really tired so can you all just shut up for a bit so I don't have to shout'. Trust me I've tried that and they just don't get it!!!!

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[Jolene]

Good for you Millward! It's nothing to be ashamed of if it was your ex that was the scumbag. All you're doing is looking after yourself and baby and that's what matters right now. Who are you having as your birth partner?

 

[LittleMrs]

awwww millward

I've had STD tests and I've never really slept around - just unlucky in love and (until my lovely husband) never really found anyone who could keep it in their pants (before me or when they were with me to be honest). The fact is that most people who have the tests are responsible people who haven't really put themselves at risk - those people who are irresponsible and probably SHOULD have the tests usually don't think to.

You can also rest easy on a few accounts - in the UK they test you for certain STDs in your blood tests that you have at your booking in appointment (I know this because they phoned me and told me I had syphillis then phoned again half an hour later to say they were mistaken). I'm fairly certain they test for HIV, syphillis and chlamydia (spelt wrongly). Those are the baddies anyway so you can feel a bit reassured, hopefully.

You mentioned before that you're going to have the baby on the island your family live on - do you have a sister or your mum who can go to classes with you? My mother would rip my arm off for a chance to get into an antenatal appointment or into the delivery room (and to be fair I think she may be more use in the delivery room than my OH - I love him dearly but he hates to see me in pain and will probably spend the whole labour in tears- wuss). You aren't alone - you may be a 'single parent' but you have a family who care about you and friends and soon you'll have another person who loves you more than anything in the world. You will be fine and a wonderful mummy.

 

[LittleMrs]

Woke up at 6am after not getting to sleep until after half 1. Off to work an a literacy meeting tonight. The problem with joining additional activities at work is it's like the flamin' mafia - you just can't get out once you're in. Going to speak to my head of dept and see if I can take a sabbatical from the literacy working group until after mat leave. However, in the classic style of the woman who has had such gems to share as 'you'll have plenty of time to sleep when you're on leave' and 'can I have an additional 20 page report from you by December 6th' I'm thinking this will just be a further exercise in futility. Wish me luck (and patience).

I know you have found out you can leave it but I sympathise totally with what you put! I got to work this morning and the foundation stage leader came to see me. She asked if I was ok and I said 'not really' and explained about my lack of sleep over the weekend. She then glossed over that and decided to tell me how her OH kept her awake last night snoring! I just can't talk to her about the pregnancy and how tired I am! Whenever we have met after school to discuss stuff about the classes and children, if I'm uncomfortable or tired and stuff she just doesn't seem to realise. I don't think it's because she doesn't care, just that she doesn't know how to deal with it so ignores it and moves on. In staff meeting tonight I was sat with her and we do get on well but she could see how tired I was and then preceded to ask me to stay after school tomorrow night for a planning meeting! Grrrr!

Sorry I'm having a rant lol! Part of me wants to throw the towel in now and say enough is enough cos I'm knackered. The other part of me is telling me 'its only 9 days, you can make it'. OH is keen for me to get signed off if I need to. Was teary this morning but don't think monday morning blues helped cos I wasn't too bad once the day got going. I hate feeling like I'm letting people down, especially my teaching assistant who's been so amazing and picking up my slack and also the children. I love being their teacher and they are a lovely class but so demanding! You can't really turn round to a bunch of 4 yr olds and say 'I'm really really tired so can you all just shut up for a bit so I don't have to shout'. Trust me I've tried that and they just don't get it!!!!

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That totally sucks - don't they just totally take the .......... biscuit? My head of dept wants me to stay on Thurs and talk about what I want my classes to do while I'm off. Willing to bet cash that she asks me to plan the lessons. I know full well that I'm not being replaced, it'll just be a supply who comes in and basically sits with the class so someone will have to do the planning for it but she can take a running jump if she thinks I'm spening my mat leave planning lessons and e-mailing them in. Then again she probably thinks that's all I'll have to do on my 'extended xmas break'. How can two people who work with children be so lacking in empathy and general people skills. I keep getting given extra work too - ever just think 'I can barely walk across a room without needing a lie down - stop giving m extra work!!' ?


Just remember - not long now. Have you got two weeks left or are you staying till xmas? I'm not finishing until 17th Dec. 19 more school get ups and counting. someone please save us from those dedicated women who don't understand how some women can want a job AND a family.

 

[smiffy85]

Woke up at 6am after not getting to sleep until after half 1. Off to work an a literacy meeting tonight. The problem with joining additional activities at work is it's like the flamin' mafia - you just can't get out once you're in. Going to speak to my head of dept and see if I can take a sabbatical from the literacy working group until after mat leave. However, in the classic style of the woman who has had such gems to share as 'you'll have plenty of time to sleep when you're on leave' and 'can I have an additional 20 page report from you by December 6th' I'm thinking this will just be a further exercise in futility. Wish me luck (and patience).

I know you have found out you can leave it but I sympathise totally with what you put! I got to work this morning and the foundation stage leader came to see me. She asked if I was ok and I said 'not really' and explained about my lack of sleep over the weekend. She then glossed over that and decided to tell me how her OH kept her awake last night snoring! I just can't talk to her about the pregnancy and how tired I am! Whenever we have met after school to discuss stuff about the classes and children, if I'm uncomfortable or tired and stuff she just doesn't seem to realise. I don't think it's because she doesn't care, just that she doesn't know how to deal with it so ignores it and moves on. In staff meeting tonight I was sat with her and we do get on well but she could see how tired I was and then preceded to ask me to stay after school tomorrow night for a planning meeting! Grrrr!

Sorry I'm having a rant lol! Part of me wants to throw the towel in now and say enough is enough cos I'm knackered. The other part of me is telling me 'its only 9 days, you can make it'. OH is keen for me to get signed off if I need to. Was teary this morning but don't think monday morning blues helped cos I wasn't too bad once the day got going. I hate feeling like I'm letting people down, especially my teaching assistant who's been so amazing and picking up my slack and also the children. I love being their teacher and they are a lovely class but so demanding! You can't really turn round to a bunch of 4 yr olds and say 'I'm really really tired so can you all just shut up for a bit so I don't have to shout'. Trust me I've tried that and they just don't get it!!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxx

That totally sucks - don't they just totally take the .......... biscuit? My head of dept wants me to stay on Thurs and talk about what I want my classes to do while I'm off. Willing to bet cash that she asks me to plan the lessons. I know full well that I'm not being replaced, it'll just be a supply who comes in and basically sits with the class so someone will have to do the planning for it but she can take a running jump if she thinks I'm spening my mat leave planning lessons and e-mailing them in. Then again she probably thinks that's all I'll have to do on my 'extended xmas break'. How can two people who work with children be so lacking in empathy and general people skills. I keep getting given extra work too - ever just think 'I can barely walk across a room without needing a lie down - stop giving m extra work!!' ?


Just remember - not long now. Have you got two weeks left or are you staying till xmas? I'm not finishing until 17th Dec. 19 more school get ups and counting. someone please save us from those dedicated women who don't understand how some women can want a job AND a family.

I finish next friday. And yeah the walking across the room thing I have to stay seated most of the day. Luckily like I said my TA is awesome even though shes a lot older than me and has back trouble. She has carried me these last few weeks bless her. Gonna get her a big bunch of flowers when I finish.

Is 17th your school closing day? Ours doesn't finish till 23rd!!! Crazy times and I'm just glad I'll be out of there by then!!!!!

xxxxxx

 

[millward329]

Thanks Jolene and Tracy, that is reassuring to me. I'm thinking of asking a friend to come to the next antenatal as they'll be all done by the time I go home. My foster-mum is going to come and labour with me and she'll be great. It's more thinking about no sleep and feeding through the night on my own and that when I get back there will be no-one to give the baby to when he is crying and I'm frazzled.

Leanne sorry you are finding it hard.....totally understand and think your line manager is being unfair. I guess you are the only one who knows if you can keep going for 9 more days or not, but you are right the children are relentless. It will be fine for them if you have to go off sick and I'm sure your lovely TA would encourage you to do that if she knew how much you were struggling. Is there any way you can tell your line manager that you need her support if she wants you there till next week Friday? It may get her to ease off on the demands at least. Good luck and do give your health and wellbeing some careful thought x

 

[smiffy85]

Thanks Jolene and Tracy, that is reassuring to me. I'm thinking of asking a friend to come to the next antenatal as they'll be all done by the time I go home. My foster-mum is going to come and labour with me and she'll be great. It's more thinking about no sleep and feeding through the night on my own and that when I get back there will be no-one to give the baby to when he is crying and I'm frazzled.

Leanne sorry you are finding it hard.....totally understand and think your line manager is being unfair. I guess you are the only one who knows if you can keep going for 9 more days or not, but you are right the children are relentless. It will be fine for them if you have to go off sick and I'm sure your lovely TA would encourage you to do that if she knew how much you were struggling. Is there any way you can tell your line manager that you need her support if she wants you there till next week Friday? It may get her to ease off on the demands at least. Good luck and do give your health and wellbeing some careful thought x

Aww thanks for the support hun. I so want to make it in a way lol which is stupid but I think I'm gonna see how I feel after tomorrow. OH is keen for me to ring in sick on wednesday - he has a plan lol - and then see if I feel any better after a day off and take it from there. If I don't then I would book to see the dr on thurs and hoepfully be signed off. My problem is I try and cover up how I feel at work and just keep going so don't want people to think she was ok yesterday, why is she signed off sick now?!? I just worry too much about what other people think!!!

On a lighter note I've been doing some lurking lol. Had a peep at dec dreamers and they have got babies already which means its our turn soon!!! Also had a sneak into the july beach bumps lol! Babies due in JULY!!!!! Doesn't seem like 2 mins since I announced my pregnancy. On their front page they have their real names next to their screen name and due date which is good I thought. But don't want naomi to have all that to do now lol! I've been thinking for a while we could do with a post where everyone puts their names on as I always forget who is who!

I'm gonna start one off in another post and I thought if you just quote after a person does their name then we will have them all in one place?!? Might be a tad messy but hey hum.....

 

[smiffy85]

Smiffy85 = Leanne from Nottingham

 

[mum2be2011]

Thanks Jolene and Tracy, that is reassuring to me. I'm thinking of asking a friend to come to the next antenatal as they'll be all done by the time I go home. My foster-mum is going to come and labour with me and she'll be great. It's more thinking about no sleep and feeding through the night on my own and that when I get back there will be no-one to give the baby to when he is crying and I'm frazzled.

Glad to hear you have someone that you can ask to go to next class. It must be awful going when you are on your own. Glad you are close to your foster mum and that she will be with you through labour and delivery. Have you got anyone that can come and help you out after baby is home? Even if it is just for an hour or two to watch baby whilst you get your head down for a bit.

Your situation makes me feel so lucky to have OH with me, you must be a very strong lady to be going through all this alone. Susie

 

[LittleMrs]

Smiffy85 = Leanne from Nottingham

Little Mrs = Tracy from Chesterfield in Derbyshire (classy town - lol)

 

[millward329]

Smiffy85 = Leanne from Nottingham

Millward329 = Susie from Lancaster

 

[abstersmum]

Millward I have found a shop in Blackpool that is supposed to be fab for bigger bras I'm going to check it out this week and will report back x

 

[Mom 2B]

Mom 2B- Laura from Ontario, Canada. I also posted my name in my signature a while back. Thought it would be easier that way

 

[LittleMrs]

Marks and spencer - I'm wearing a 36H bra as we speak. Or type.

Susie - I'm sure you'll be a great mum and you'll get through somehow. I have so much respect for you. It's always a difficult decision to end a relationship and you had the guts to do it at a difficult time - sometimes people forget that even when you're the one to end a relationship and even when you're sure it's the right thng to do, you still grieve for the end of it. So because you need them at the moment. Just remember how strong you are and how proud your LO is going to be to have such a strong mummy.

 

[jojo-m]

gosh lots to catch up on but bit short of time so have to be a quickie! hugs to those that need it and jms sorry to hear of your loss.

I feel for all of you that are working full time, I had a nice cushy job managing a vets when I was pg with ds, this time I'm a student nurse so my the moment is at university in theory time, its fell quite nice and think last lecture is dec 14th, it would be hard to imagine working at the moment, seem to only just get by as it is so hope you not got long left ladies!

I'm Jo from Sheffield
x

 

[hodbert]

Hi Girls

Quick post as I am shattered! Didnt sleep til 1.30am in the end and was then woken up by the fire alarm going off throughout the whole building at 4.30am and had to go stand outside for an hour with OH and the dog (who hates alarms of any kind and just kept yapping) until they let us back in. Then upstairs' children were awake so they were running about and banging above our heads until 7am. Not good!

I am Lisa, from Wigan in UK, but living in San Jose, California. My name is in my siggy too as thought it wld be easier that way.

Got our antenatal class tonight although am far too tired for it and then doc appointment in morning. Wonder if baby has engaged yet? Sure feels like it, am getting loads of cramps and heavy pulling feelings down that way now.

Sorry you're feeling low Millward, but like the other ladies have said you do have people who care and soon you will have the greatest gift of all, full of love

 

[Fraggles]

gosh lots to catch up on but bit short of time so have to be a quickie! hugs to those that need it and jms sorry to hear of your loss.

I feel for all of you that are working full time, I had a nice cushy job managing a vets when I was pg with ds, this time I'm a student nurse so my the moment is at university in theory time, its fell quite nice and think last lecture is dec 14th, it would be hard to imagine working at the moment, seem to only just get by as it is so hope you not got long left ladies!

I'm Jo from Sheffield
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