Jealousy...

[Mina246]

My fiance and I started to actively try for a baby around July 2014. For I think two months I planned according to cycle when we BD, then for a couple of months we weren't protecting just enjoying ourselves, but not at the right time of my cycle unfortunately. This last month we just so happened to hit that fertile window a good 6 times luckily, and I'm due to start today. I've taken so many tests before and seen negative that I refuse to buy a test anymore. I was cramping yesterday too so I'm not optimistic. I hate how I feel jealous towards people who fall pregnant easily. I watch a daily vlog couple online and they tried one month after she had a corrective surgery and she's pregnant already. I've wanted a child for so long and not knowing if we can or can't is driving me nuts. I wish I just knew so I could have some hope... anyone else feel this way?

 

[firsttimer123]

Hey mIna, I feel the same! I so want to be a mum! I see so many people get pregnant and have sticky beans and I just had my first mc! I just hope I get my turn soon

 

[Mina246]

I'm so sorry to hear that, I'm sure you'll have it very soon!!!!!!! At least you know it's possible for you. I hope that doesn't sound rude... wishing you luck!

 

[writingislove]

I can unfortunately relate. We've been trying since August last year, and I just started spotting today so AF will be coming tomorrow. I've lost count of how many of my friends are pregnant, and while I truly am happy for them all, they are also making me so depressed.

I don't know what I would do without this site. It's so hard feeling so alone in all of this!

 

[Mina246]

omg I know, I'm going on 27 and practically everyone from high school is on their second kid. I've wanted a baby since 8th grade when I took home Baby Think it Over. I loved it. i had a bad first marriage and thankfully didn't have children with him, but he's remarried with two kids now. Everyone has one but me haha. I hate feeling like that but it's so depressing. I only have one friend really but she's been so distant lately and wouldn't agree with the choice to have a baby right now anyways and my mom doesn't want to hear about it really, so you guys are the only ones I can talk to besides my fiance, which bless his heart, he cares but he's a male if you know what I mean haha

 

[Pruili01]

I can't help but join in on this forum because I completely know what you are saying! I work in an office full of pregnant women. As a joke, they call it the maternity ward. DH and I have technically been trying for 6 months, but I found out 3 months in that I don't ovulate (probably never have and probably never will according to the fertility specialist) and I have low estrogen levels for unknown reasons. I am 26 yrs old so to be told by the specialist that I will likely never conceive on my own was heartbreaking. I took clomid for 2 rounds, but it stopped responding after the first round bc of my low estrogen. I've taken femara once and ovulated, but did not get pregnant so I'm on my second round of femara now and worried that it will stop working like clomid.

It's so hard not to feel judgmental toward some women that get pregnant easily. I don't want to be that way, but one of my coworkers found out a little over a year ago that her husband cheated on her over 70 times. Like 3 or 4 months after finding that out, she decided that they were ready for a baby and got pregnant really easily. So all day long at work, I hear about baby stuff and how awful her marriage is. It's soo hard to hear about!!!

Alright that's enough venting for now

 

[Mina246]

Pru I can't even imagine being told that I'm so sorry. That's one of my worst fears, not even being able to naturally. Not knowing is the worst, because neither me or my fiance have been checked. I'm sure it'll work out for you though! Have to stay positive sometimes haha. I'm glad I'm not the only one, I feel like a bad person when I get upset finding out someone is pregnant again. I'm like taht Dane Cook Skit- Why not meeeee?! lol

 

[Pruili01]

Yeah it was really hard to hear that, but I'm hopeful that I will get pregnant somehow!

I think it's probably natural to feel some jealousy and frustration by people that get pregnant very easily or 'accidentally.' I mean it's not their faults that it happened easily, but it is still difficult to see so many pregnancy/baby announcements all the time!

 

[Mina246]

Definitely. People are like ooops I'm pregnant and I'm over here like, I need to order opks and start charting this laid back shit isn't working haha

 

[ksquared726]

Oh boy, you guys, I can relate! I've been TTC since July 2014 too, Mina246. It all feels so hopeless most of the time. I just finally accepted today that I didn't ovulate this cycle, because I went on a cross-country business trip right before O was due and messed it up. So now I don't know when to expect AF or when our next opportunity will be. My best friend already has one baby and in the fall she told me they were going to try for #2 in the spring. Well it's almost spring and I just expect she'll be pregnant again before I even get my first BFP. My other friend is waiting to try but also said she would try this spring. I guess its still possible I will ovulate this cycle, but I wonder if I mess up my body when it's gearing up to O if that throws off the whole cycle. I don't know if I have PCOS but I suspect it's likely.

Thanks for listening.

 

[Mina246]

oh ksquared i'm sorry! ya if i end up starting my period- I still have a 10% hope in me since i am four days late- i'm ordering opks because idk if i even ovulate. it's all so confusing and depressing. my one friend is getting married in september and she has an implant and they're probably going to try soon after. i just think if she gets pregnant before me... it's so bad i hate that i think that way. also my older sister is bi and she's just now having her first relationship with a guy, she's 29, and i told her she better use protection because SHE DOES NOT WANT KIDS. and she told me if she got pregnant she'd abort... broke my heart to hear that. i'm like if she got pregnant and didn't even want kids and just started to have sex i would be heartbroken. i know i shouldn't think that way but man, it's hard not to...

 

[Pruili01]

Oh boy, you guys, I can relate! I've been TTC since July 2014 too, Mina246. It all feels so hopeless most of the time. I just finally accepted today that I didn't ovulate this cycle, because I went on a cross-country business trip right before O was due and messed it up. So now I don't know when to expect AF or when our next opportunity will be. My best friend already has one baby and in the fall she told me they were going to try for #2 in the spring. Well it's almost spring and I just expect she'll be pregnant again before I even get my first BFP. My other friend is waiting to try but also said she would try this spring. I guess its still possible I will ovulate this cycle, but I wonder if I mess up my body when it's gearing up to O if that throws off the whole cycle. I don't know if I have PCOS but I suspect it's likely.

Thanks for listening.

Not ovulating is the worst! It sucks knowing that there is no possible way to be pregnant if you don't ovulate.

 

[Pruili01]

oh ksquared i'm sorry! ya if i end up starting my period- I still have a 10% hope in me since i am four days late- i'm ordering opks because idk if i even ovulate. it's all so confusing and depressing. my one friend is getting married in september and she has an implant and they're probably going to try soon after. i just think if she gets pregnant before me... it's so bad i hate that i think that way. also my older sister is bi and she's just now having her first relationship with a guy, she's 29, and i told her she better use protection because SHE DOES NOT WANT KIDS. and she told me if she got pregnant she'd abort... broke my heart to hear that. i'm like if she got pregnant and didn't even want kids and just started to have sex i would be heartbroken. i know i shouldn't think that way but man, it's hard not to...

Yeah, that would be hard to hear from your sister!