Just came over to LTTTC & feeling really lonely,anyone want to be my friend?

[shellie31]

ladies.
I'm 33 & DH is 47.
We have been TTC our 1st baby together since April 2008 when i had my sterilisation reversed which a HSG a year later showed my tubes were clear since then i feel like we've been on a constant rollercoaster . DH has a low sperm count & i have a low AMH (4.2) what a pair eh lol . I only just recently moved from TTC to LTTTC which was sad but i didn't really fit in there anymore . We refuse to give up on our dreams & i truly believe that one day we'll get our miracle BFP .
I've been feeling a bit lonely over here & am hoping to make some LTTTC friends who know how soul destroying it is getting BFN's every cycle & understand how emotionally hard it is . I can't talk to my RL friends or family about our struggle & i'm hoping some of you will take me in & be my friend . I know it sounds desperate(i am lol ) but i know some of you will understand how i'm feeling & how hard this all is.

 

[LizMcD]

We definitely understand and you'll get lots of support here.

Welcome!
xx

 

[shellie31]

Thank you Liz, was starting to feel like a billy no mates lol

 

[_Nell]

Hi Shellie,

I think you'll feel much better posting in here, I find the TTC section so stressful (first cycle BFP's and the like) I don't even browse there anymore.

Are you in the UK? Are you seeing anyone specialist wise yet for possible treatment/ medicated support?

 

[purplesparkle]

hi Shellie welcome to lttc

 

[shellie31]

Thanks for the welcomes girls ,it means alot to me not to feel so alone.

Nell. I think i'll feel much better posting over here too cos i understand what you mean about the first cycle BFP's & you're still there when they're announcing baby no2.I wish them all the happiness but at the same time feel sad & a bit angry that it wasn't my turn(i sound so selfish lol ) but honestly i'm not. B&B moved my TTC journal over to LTTTC journals & i've felt lost since(think i didn't want to admit i was LTTTC )

Yeah we're in Scotland hun & believe me we've been down every avenue & had countless tests. We can't afford IVF & i can't egg share cos of my AMH result being crap(4.2) DH has low sperm count . He's got an appointment with the urologist next monday so FX that finds out something we don't know.
How are you?

Purple Thank you.

 

[_Nell]

cos i understand what you mean about the first cycle BFP's & you're still there when they're announcing baby no2.I wish them all the happiness but at the same time feel sad & a bit angry that it wasn't my turn(i sound so selfish lol ) but honestly i'm not. B&B moved my TTC journal over to LTTTC journals & i've felt lost since(think i didn't want to admit i was LTTTC )

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None of us are selfish, we're just a bit battered and bruised by this and somedays we can be strong and other days it hurts.
That's harsh that your journal was moved when you weren't ready

Good Luck at your DH's urologist appointment, I hope you can get some help

 

[No Doubt]

Welcome Shellie! We're all here and we understand. I know what you mean about ttc. Started off there to but I like it better over here too. Everything will work out. I know it doesn't seem like it but just when you least expect it, it will happen.

 

[shellie31]

Nell ,your spot on about being battered & bruised some days & stronger & more positive the next . Thanks for the good luck ,i'm hoping it's good news.

No doubt. Thanks for the welcome & your kind words,they mean alot & i'm a true believer in miracles ,i've just been over to your journal lol .