heatherlyne90
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this is my story and i just feel like i need someone to talk to who will understand or just to vent about how heart broken i am after almost 4 years.
when i was 17 i got pregnant and even though i was scared to death i was very greatful because i had been told that i was unable to concieve, after 15 weeks of getting to know and build a relationship with my little Camden Andrew i began to feel severe pain that lasted for hours! I lost him on August 12th 2008 at 5am... my heart was shattered and ive never been the same, i find myself thinking about him all of the time wondering who he would be and who he would look like, if he would be a comedian like his dad or if life would just kind of happen to him like me (clumsy and it being funny) I miss him so much and it still feels like apart of my heart is missing, i hate it!
I am now 21 and ready to try and start a family but nothing is happening... my fiance and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost 4 months now and every month it turns out that im not pregnant... im so scared that Cam was my only chance to be a mother and I often find myself asking God why he would take my little peanut away from me. On another angle of the situation i am not sure i even want another baby, im scared that i will forget him! even though my body has been screaming at me to try again... can anyone relate? please im not sure how to handle this
when i was 17 i got pregnant and even though i was scared to death i was very greatful because i had been told that i was unable to concieve, after 15 weeks of getting to know and build a relationship with my little Camden Andrew i began to feel severe pain that lasted for hours! I lost him on August 12th 2008 at 5am... my heart was shattered and ive never been the same, i find myself thinking about him all of the time wondering who he would be and who he would look like, if he would be a comedian like his dad or if life would just kind of happen to him like me (clumsy and it being funny) I miss him so much and it still feels like apart of my heart is missing, i hate it!
I am now 21 and ready to try and start a family but nothing is happening... my fiance and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost 4 months now and every month it turns out that im not pregnant... im so scared that Cam was my only chance to be a mother and I often find myself asking God why he would take my little peanut away from me. On another angle of the situation i am not sure i even want another baby, im scared that i will forget him! even though my body has been screaming at me to try again... can anyone relate? please im not sure how to handle this