Just when I was beginning to feel upbeat ..

[FunnyBunny]

Ok so been about 6 weeks since m/c and this week I would have been due to have a 12 week scan this week but was feeling not so bad as yesterday and today as it looks like might make a show this week and I can start my first round of clomid. So was beginning to feel abit optimistic then someone at my work announces today that she is pregnant. I was trying so hard to congratulate her and try to hold back the tears when all time I was thinking it should be me announcing my pregancy this week. By the time I got home i was buckets.

I feel so bad for being jealous but it really is the worst feeling in the world when someone tells you they are pregnant and you wish it was you. Anyone else think so?

 

[butterflies]

Although i haven't been through wwhat you have, i fully understand t5he feeling you can get when a pregnancy is announced when this is all you want. Since TTC (7months), 7 of our close friends have announced pregnancies. As happy for them as i am, it hurts that its not me.

I desperately want to be a mummy and to make my DH a daddy, it is very hard to remain up beat at times for you, we will all get there one day x

 

[funkym]

Ok so been about 6 weeks since m/c and this week I would have been due to have a 12 week scan this week but was feeling not so bad as yesterday and today as it looks like might make a show this week and I can start my first round of clomid. So was beginning to feel abit optimistic then someone at my work announces today that she is pregnant. I was trying so hard to congratulate her and try to hold back the tears when all time I was thinking it should be me announcing my pregancy this week. By the time I got home i was buckets.

I feel so bad for being jealous but it really is the worst feeling in the world when someone tells you they are pregnant and you wish it was you. Anyone else think so?

Hi hun, I totally understand what you are going through, it makes you feel awful that someone announces their pregnancy etc..but one friend said to me "its not their baby that you want, you want your own baby", I found this quite comforting and she is so right! Hope you're ok xxx

 

[Simon'sMum]

My heart goes out to you. It's certainly difficult not to be jealous, but I think it's perfectly normal. Especially since you hadn't told your collegues... They can't know to be delicate about it in this situation. A coworker had recently been through his wife's miscarriage when I became pregnant. I made sure to speak with him personnaly so he wouldn't feel so hurt but don't know if it made a difference... I wish you a BFP soon. Don't give up and come back and share your feelings. Don't keep it all to yourself.

 

[FunnyBunny]

Thanks for the replies, trying to think good thoughts but feeling really low at the moment. AF doesn't look promising anymore, need to have a proper bleed to start clomid and all I'm getting is spotting when wiping (sorry TMI).

Think I need to make myself a challenge or something I can look forward to, to try and get my mind off ttc.

Thanks again
X

 

[Faerie]

I totally understand, and had the same feelings when my sister and cousin announced their pregnancies, even though I was happy for them I just couldn't help it... I think it's a natural reaction after what you've been through, let it out, cry as much as you like, but try not to let it consume you. Hope AF starts soon xxx