...katie...????????????????????

[ashiozz]

I have already vented to him, and told him he doesnt understand and it frustrates me, he asked what i wanted him to do to fix it, i told him I wanted him to understand and not act like its wrong for me to want to have a break and be a normal person even if it is just for a few days just ONCE this year because I havent had it in so long. He told me it isnt wrong and then felt bad because he did promise me, so he asked how much money we would need. I Did the female thing and told him to forget about it, and that I should just go back to work and make the money for myself to go do whatever I want like Im used to. Thats when he told me he'd rather me be with Tyler.. so I basically got nothing out of the conversation other than "I know you'd like a break and I know you wish you could feel normal, but it's not going to happen"...

...I did tell him I was also jealous that his life hasn't changed, and this is the reason he doesnt quite understand. He acts like I get a billion naps a day- I definitely dont, I live on 4 hours of sleep because Tyler is on the sun schedule -- He woke up at 3:45 for food , I got him passed out by 4:15-- but like clockwork EVERY DAY he was up at 5 and not going back to sleep, so we're awake.

His only nap he takes is usually around 9 or 10

then he goes back to sleep about 6pm and wakes up only for food between then and 5am, the issue with that is im not tired til 11pm.. If I could pass out about 9.. it'd be all gravy, Im going to work on that.

Mitch did offer to take the night shift on weekends, AND offered to leave the room like I have to, but I told him that's not necessary since it isnt like Im getting up to go to work.

 

[ashiozz]

I think mostly the only way I could get him to understand how I feel or what Im going through would be to get him pregnant, let him do all the things for that kid that Im doing alone for Tyler while my life stays how it was, and then ask him what its like. Hes not the type who can put himself in someone elses shoes.. i think I just need to take the time to make myself feel better, and confide in someone other than him, because telling him how I feel only makes him feel like I'm unhappy being a mom and thats not the situation... ive explained it tons of different ways but he still doesnt understand - sooo Im letting it go fir now and hopefully it gets better on the inside for me.

 

[gigglebox]

i'm so sorry well we're all here if you ever need to vent to a few ladies that DO understand!

i think what helped hubs "get it" a little better was when a coworker friend of his explained it to him. maybe mitch needs to hear it from another dude?

totally off topic, have any of you seen that pampers commercial with all the babies? "whether she's planned...or not." and so on? i love that commercial! so cute. that is all.

 

[ashiozz]

I saw that one!! I thought it was really cute too

My Tyler has a concrete sleep schedule that is kind of irritating. lol I got him to sleep at 4 and thought "SWEET, He needs no food til 8 he'll be asleep til then..."

Uh no, Like everyday, hes up at 5am.. now its 7 and hes still awake..

-.- no nap for me til probably around 11, s'okay, hes a good baby, least hes quietly awake.

Hows Des doing today??

 

[gigglebox]

he's doing ok. we are transitioning to the sensitive formula so i hope we see some improvement with his fussiness. you're right about the foam! my goodness there's a ton! i actually opened the bottle and had a taste yesterday hoping it wasn't soap bubbles!

anyway..he really enjoys sitting up. sometimes it's the only thing that chills him out. i'm currently having trouble with this flat head thing i'm trying to get him to lay on the other side but he hates it!

 

[..katie..]

I love you too, I don't resent anyone. I was just proud of myself for being so calm this week and just needed an outburst last night.

I just ate dodgy chinese chicken from the hospital canteen - only time will tell if that was a catastrophic mistake lol. In my defence, I was really hungry.
What dodgy shit have you eaten? I want an example of during pregnancy and non-pregnancy

i eat dodgy everything, generally. if its in someone else's fridge, i'll eat it.

 

[..katie..]

Laura, I switched Tyler because he literally would not be awake without screaming and I was at my end, so I tried to orange sensetive semilac, he's doing a lot better, its always worth a try.

That and we tried gripe water too but that didnt go over well.

i switched because patrick would clench up, scream in obvious pain, and fart and seem better. also, he had terrible explosive runny poo that stunk awfully.

 

[gigglebox]

poor gassy babies how long did it take you guys to see a difference in the babies?

picking up a jogging stroller today $50 for the stroller + infant seat...also has a plug for an ipod to play from speakers in the stroller! thanks craigslist!

 

[..katie..]

wow-went and took a nap. naps rock.

Very near instant change...similac orange owns my life, if they'd like it.

 

[ashiozz]

Same as KAtie, almost instantly he was less fussy. Hes doing really great on it

 

[ashiozz]

haha, I just realized my last comment called him less fussy, so what does he do today? Spend an hour yelling at me, So finally and even though hes eaten an hour before screaming at me, I went to make him a bottle, I came back, and hes asleep! WTF? Imma scream at mommy til she walks away, then, Imma sleep.

-.- Boys...

 

[Emerald87]

Katie, how are you lovely?

I demand old man squee

 

[Emerald87]

I took the day off. I didn't tell anyone. I'm a rebel.

 

[ashiozz]

muahahaha. yes, you tell the man to stuff it Im proud Emerald!

I think we do need Patrick squee, esp since hes starting to smile, just sayin.

 

[gigglebox]

ash--des did that to me night before last at 3am

em--what will you do while playing hooky today?

 

[ashiozz]

haha Laura, Jules told me cassie does that a lot too.
I sent a pic of him asleep to his daddy with a txt saying "This is your son after screaming at mommy for an hour, for god knows what reason.."

lmao, He sent back "isn't he just so cute?!" -.- yes, when his face is red and hes SCREAMING at me and looks like a demon from hell, my first thought is "omg, he's so damn cute!"

-.- but now that he did it, it is a little cute lmao

 

[ashiozz]

Emerald, I had a dream you got a facebook 0.o it was weird.. why must you invade my dreams?

Lmao, in other news, SARAH posted a pic of her baby with a bow in her hair! Lizzie looks adorable, I told her she must get back online and share here for you too

Last I heard they were weaning her off of the ventilator again =) She seems to be doing pretty good, little fighter chick

 

[Emerald87]

She's a strong little 'un isn't she?

I'm going to sit around, try to study, talk to you guys, do some washing and pack to go interstate this arvo. I also may sleep, as I'm still very tired. Either way most of the day will involve my feet up.

Oh Ash, was your dream a hint? Couldn't I be in your dream attending our kids' wedding

 

[ashiozz]

Haha that'd be a cute dream!! They will be married by 5 yrs old 0.o lmao just like wayyy back in the day.

Their children better have aussie accents.

 

[Emerald87]

Hrm... maybe we should give them a different accent all together. I like the Irish accent. Or an upper class pommy (English) accent would be amusing.
You don't want them to have an Aussie accent... mate.