kind of scary... got so upset today i could barely breathe

[Lues]

So it was a stupid argument with the husband. And I will not say that the argument happened BECAUSE of my pregnancy hormones. It was stupid, but the normal, there's-something-valid-in-there type of stupid.

But when he said something directly mean and hurtful, I lost my mind.

And by that I mean: i... LOST... my... MIND.

I was so mad, so upset, I could barely breathe. I didn't realize it at first, but there were barely even words coming out of my mouth, just noise, because I was so out of breathe from being upset.

When i realized it and stopped, and walked away to calm down, my heart rate was ridiculous. I got that under control with deep breathes, which worked well.

But then I found myself outrageously hysterically crying. Not as ANGRY now, so not the blood boiling, shaking anger I had before. But HYSTERICAL crying. We're talking bawling like a child. It was horrible.

I was aware at this point that my reaction was over the line and no longer about our argument... but this did NOT help. In fact, it made me feel worse and I got more upset.

It took me almost an entire half hour to get myself under control. And honestly, that was this morning, and I still feel like I could break out into tears at any moment.

This is really REALLY difficult for me. I'm NOT a particularly emotional person. I do not usually get upset about things at all.

Could someone just tell me that I'm not loosing my mind, but that sometimes it happens?

I want to laugh at this... (as I'm sure any fly on the wall would have) but it has me overwhelemed and almost sort of fearful at the moment.

Thanks for listening.

 

[Nadja86]

My husband and I hardly ever argue, but the last two nights we fought, and last night almost the exact same thing happened to me. He got really upset too. It was horrible, and I'm still feeling emotional about it today. I am an emotional (and anxious) person, but not normally like this. My pregnancy has been a roller coaster.

You're not alone xoxox

 

[AngelofTroy]

I felt like this after a big argument a few weeks ago. I also remember it happened twice when I was pregnant with my son, one time my heart rate was still up the next morning, and he was and is totally fine. Horrible feeling though.

 

[Lues]

Thanks. It's nice to know I'm not alone.

I decided to take it easy the rest of the day as much as possible. Warm shower. Hot chocolate. I'm feeling a bit more human again.

 

[wannabemomy37]

Unfortunately OH and I have been arguing quite a bit the last few weeks especially, to the point I hyperventilate and just fear for my baby's wellbeing honestly. It's such an awful feeling. Granted, I feel I had good reasons to get upset, but I do think hormones exaggerated my anger/sadness and it becomes quite extreme.
Hugs.
You're not alone!

 

[Misscalais]

Oh dear. Unfortunately I've had one of these moments this pregnancy, my husband looked at me like i had two heads. I absolutely lost my shit and just could not get it together.
You're not insane lol

 

[Lues]

Yes, I think that's a good way to put it.

I don't think the hormones are what made me upset. But I think that when I got upset, they threw me over the edge into the "bad place" LOL.

I'm actually STILL exhausted from it today. But I'm feeling better.

I'm actually hoping that if it happens again I can recognize it a bit sooner, and perhaps at least get to the deep breaths part quicker. The yelling just made me physically feel worse.