k550
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So, Kida just feeling like blah. "M/S" (morning my ass!!!) Hits me about 9pm-10pm and refuses to leave untill i pass out... My uterus is hard when I'm lying down now (Y) Tried consantly, strange taste in mouth, thristy and dry mouth but drool while I sleep (erugh) Gas is easing up, the peeing every 30mins... getting steadly worse. Just genraly feeling in a dream like state, and yeah, strange pains in my hips and pulling on and around my belly boutton... Headache and My ears feel sore/sensitve. I'm like the walking undead. So yeah, thats the jist of my symptoms as off today~
Now onto the FOB, I. Hate. You. I went up last night to see him, He was drunk and stoned as usual, celebrating getting kicked out of sixth form for abuse to fellow classmates and being inapropriate around teachers. Lovely. He was telling me all aout his sexual exploits as usual. I regret the day I met him, And i regret the day I had sex with him. Wich is a long story, basicly I wasn't in the right mind to consent, but whatever, My fault for trusting him. Least his family has money... alot of money, so Bubs will have anything she needs, but honestly, health and love is all a child needs. Yeah, I hate you so much.
How everyone will react to me having a child, well, they will try to tell me I cannot do this, Because I'm a teenager, and yes, I have been very i'll the past 6 years, With anorexia and bulimia, depression and self harm, I was in hospital for heart failure and a few weeks after i was discharged I attempted suicide. I've been trying to turn my life around, recover, and I have made such amazing head way! Gained weight I'm not 150lbs up from 113lbs wich at 5'9 is a really healthy weight now! , stoped self harming and abusing prescription drugs, I'm trying my best to get some GCSE's because i didn't get to attend 5th form and only got 2. But yes I am i'll, But finding out about bubs has giving me a reson to live... before i found out, I really saw no forseable future for myself, I was planning on moving away and offing myself. I live with an abusive parent, so yea, this gives me a chance to move out and start a life were she isn't the main part, and I'm not living in constant fear. I guess, bubs really is a Present from heaven, for adges i've prayed every night for God to give me somthing to live for, for a way out of this mess, and yes, it probly isn't the most ideal, but god dose everything for a reason... I'm really going of on a tangent here, but all I'm trying to say is, yes i am young but i am in no way stupid or immature, yes i may not have alot of money, but I have love and a pair of open arms willing to give my all for this child and make sure it recives everything it deserves.
I know people will stare and give me bad looks and comment and think that i am a bad person, but i am not. I am strong, I am doing what is best, and i am folowing the plan the universe has set out for me. And if you want to e rude, I just hope for your sake that one of your prefect children dosn't die from the coke shes sniffing. I realize that may seem harsh, but its most likely true. Accidents happen, condoms break, contraception fails, and rape happens, people get pregnant, it's nothing to do with us as a human being.
so yeah, I'm going to stop ranting, I'm just angry at people in general for being so crule to young moms.
Life is hard, but we are strong people! We can and will do this, together apart, one big heart. I've only been here a while, but you ladies are amazing wonderfull mothers and mothers to be. Enjoy every little moment with your bubba, the time flys so quickly.
Now onto the FOB, I. Hate. You. I went up last night to see him, He was drunk and stoned as usual, celebrating getting kicked out of sixth form for abuse to fellow classmates and being inapropriate around teachers. Lovely. He was telling me all aout his sexual exploits as usual. I regret the day I met him, And i regret the day I had sex with him. Wich is a long story, basicly I wasn't in the right mind to consent, but whatever, My fault for trusting him. Least his family has money... alot of money, so Bubs will have anything she needs, but honestly, health and love is all a child needs. Yeah, I hate you so much.
How everyone will react to me having a child, well, they will try to tell me I cannot do this, Because I'm a teenager, and yes, I have been very i'll the past 6 years, With anorexia and bulimia, depression and self harm, I was in hospital for heart failure and a few weeks after i was discharged I attempted suicide. I've been trying to turn my life around, recover, and I have made such amazing head way! Gained weight I'm not 150lbs up from 113lbs wich at 5'9 is a really healthy weight now! , stoped self harming and abusing prescription drugs, I'm trying my best to get some GCSE's because i didn't get to attend 5th form and only got 2. But yes I am i'll, But finding out about bubs has giving me a reson to live... before i found out, I really saw no forseable future for myself, I was planning on moving away and offing myself. I live with an abusive parent, so yea, this gives me a chance to move out and start a life were she isn't the main part, and I'm not living in constant fear. I guess, bubs really is a Present from heaven, for adges i've prayed every night for God to give me somthing to live for, for a way out of this mess, and yes, it probly isn't the most ideal, but god dose everything for a reason... I'm really going of on a tangent here, but all I'm trying to say is, yes i am young but i am in no way stupid or immature, yes i may not have alot of money, but I have love and a pair of open arms willing to give my all for this child and make sure it recives everything it deserves.
I know people will stare and give me bad looks and comment and think that i am a bad person, but i am not. I am strong, I am doing what is best, and i am folowing the plan the universe has set out for me. And if you want to e rude, I just hope for your sake that one of your prefect children dosn't die from the coke shes sniffing. I realize that may seem harsh, but its most likely true. Accidents happen, condoms break, contraception fails, and rape happens, people get pregnant, it's nothing to do with us as a human being.
so yeah, I'm going to stop ranting, I'm just angry at people in general for being so crule to young moms.
Life is hard, but we are strong people! We can and will do this, together apart, one big heart. I've only been here a while, but you ladies are amazing wonderfull mothers and mothers to be. Enjoy every little moment with your bubba, the time flys so quickly.
