Long term TTC buddy wanted!!~UPDATED~Most of us did it!! ~

[obe]

Well im out this month, AF got me good! Ive felt sooo ill today with it, I went into Asda this aft and thought I was going to pass out or throw up. Every possible person who could get in my way did. The first day is always the worst for me, im just glad im not at work. My OH has looked after me though, bless him.
So now all I have to do is wait for the next AF to start in March and I will be on my way with ICSI!!!
How is everyone, having a good weekend? xx

 

[sparkle83]

*hugs* sorry sweets, she's such a twat. at least you werent kept waiting too much. just one cycle to go eh? thats good though. what happens then?

 

[obe]

Well I should be starting the drugs on my next cycle. We will find out all the facts when we go back in two weeks.
Im feeling ok now, just want to get on with it!!
xx

 

[cazd]

*hugs* sorry sweets, she's such a twat. at least you werent kept waiting too much. just one cycle to go eh? thats good though. what happens then?

Sparkle - you made me laugh with that - YES - that slag bag is a twat!

Obe - sorry chick xxx

Inching closer to ICSI though... I'm looking forward to hearing all about it.
We're still waiting for our referral to come through. Hospital said they sent it Jan 12th... ICSI clinic haven't received it... boooo.

 

[obe]

Cazd, where have you been!!! Hows things going???
Whats going on with your referral then? I would chase then, it took way too long for ours to come through, all because they hadnt logged us onto the their system!!!! We are nearly there now tho
xx

 

[sparkle83]

cazd~ yup, give them a kick up the arse, I hate it when these places cant get basic stuff sorted!

Will be testing in the am, and I'm certain it'll be neg, and then starting provera for a month of bcp. My next appt will come around at the beginning of the experiment cycle.

 

[obe]

Anyone around??
Hows things going?
Nothing much happening for me, just waiting for the next hospital appointment now.
x

 

[sparkle83]

I'm here, started the provera to start af before bcp

 

[obe]

Oooooh exciting!!! Keeping my fingers crossed for you hun and your experiment does the trick!
xx

 

[sparkle83]

still around, ish. I'm really struggling again, just seem to be surrounded by people either pg or with babies (I work in a shopping mall, so see tons of them!). It's getting harder and harder to cope again. I've also gained back 5lbs in a week!

I'm just useless

 

[obe]

Or sparkle, your not useless! Sounds like your feeling down though hun. I know its hard when it seems like every women around you is expecting and you just feel like screaming!!!! I often have those moments. Just found out my OH mates wife is expecting, they have only been trying for f**king 5 mins! ARRRRRR!
Things will get better! xx

 

[sparkle83]

thing is, I'm trying to tell myself that, but each time I come back to 'well, it hasnt got any better in ten years, its not liikely to now'.
I'm gonna give it til after AF, incase its in part from the provera, and then I'll have to go back on anti-depressants. I am really not coping, I'm constantly on the edge of not keeping my temper and holding my tongue. I can't do this much longer. I've been waiting ten years for my life to properly start. what if it never does, what if I never, ever get there?

 

[subaru555]

You will get there sweetheart, You will, have hope, stay strong xx

 

[obe]

Or sparkle, you will get there!!! You must been felling very low hun, but dont give up, keep your self going. Easier said then done, I know
Have you spoken to your doctor about how your feeling? Have you thought about doing something like reflexology or accupuncture?
Hey Subaru, hows things going?
xx

 

[sparkle83]

I can't afford to do either, unfortunately. Its not quite so bad today, but I just feel like theres no hope any more. rapidly coming up to our ten yr ttc date, and it's 4 yrs ago this month that I last got pg, and havent had a natural af in years.

 

[obe]

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better! You will get through this hun. Stay positive and focused.
Are you able to talk to your OH about how your feeling?
xx

 

[sparkle83]

he listens and understands, but gets frustrated and annoyed that he can't do anything to fix it

 

[cazd]

oh sparkle - I know just how you feel... like lifes on hold - forever!

 

[sparkle83]

yep, I was saying to DH last night that I feel like I'm waiting for our lives to begin.

getting spotting, so possibly AF will arrive tonight/tomorrow, and then its bcp for a month. not quite so bad today

 

[obe]

How you feeling today Sparkle? Hope your ok
xx