Losing my mind with worry :-(

[shirlls]

I've already posted this in first trimester but I am really struggling to cope, PAL is stressful enough without any added worries and I am starting to lose the plot and feel annoyed that nothing can ever be easy for me. I don't mean to sound dramatic but it's how I feel at the moment and I can't help it

So after a worrying start to this pregnancy with bleeding and cramping, I got a scan at 6 weeks a few days ago. It showed twins, in their own sacs, one had a heartbeat and measured up to date however the other sac had a baby which was much smaller and had no visible heartbeat. They did say there is a possibility with me only being 6 weeks that it might be a bit behind and too early to show a heartbeat and will catch up however they did say the size difference is causing concern and to 'keep an open mind'.

I was told as they had their own sacs there is still hope for one that was showing to be ok even if I lose the other one. I have to go back in a fortnight to be scanned again and see what the situation is. It's going to be a long two weeks ahead!

I am all over the place and going through every emotion possible: happy that one baby seems to be ok so far, worried for the other one, sad that if my pregnancy continued with just the one, how it would be a mixture of happiness and sadness, hopeful that the baby without a heartbeat was just a bit behind; worry for both but mainly one baby who was fine as I am under no illusions, it is still very early days and I lost my last one through mmc after the 6 week point so I know anything could still happen to either of them. I've never had a loss after seeing a heartbeat before.


I am just so scared!

 

[Kasey84]

I'm sorry your going through this worry and uncertainty. Your absolutely right that PAL is tough and the waiting is so hard! I had an early scan at 8 weeks this pregnancy due to my previous loss. Even though all was well, I still worried because my previous loss was a mmc at 14 weeks. I didn't get another scan until 20 weeks, so needless to say the first half of this pregnancy was very worrisome.

My only advice is to take things one day at a time and talk to your support people about how your feeling. I found this PAL forum to be really helpful.

Hang in there and don't lose hope. I hope your next scan shows two healthy little ones. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way! xo

 

[Smiler79]

Hi shirks. Just been reading your story. How are things?

 

[shirlls]

Hi, I have had spotting and severe cramping for past 48 hours and I am having the scan brought forward until tomorrow morning. I am so nervous as just don't know what to think. Obviously I want both babies to be ok but I just want there to be at least one healthy baby in there at the very least. xx

 

[amazingLife]

I've already posted this in first trimester but I am really struggling to cope, PAL is stressful enough without any added worries and I am starting to lose the plot and feel annoyed that nothing can ever be easy for me. I don't mean to sound dramatic but it's how I feel at the moment and I can't help it

So after a worrying start to this pregnancy with bleeding and cramping, I got a scan at 6 weeks a few days ago. It showed twins, in their own sacs, one had a heartbeat and measured up to date however the other sac had a baby which was much smaller and had no visible heartbeat. They did say there is a possibility with me only being 6 weeks that it might be a bit behind and too early to show a heartbeat and will catch up however they did say the size difference is causing concern and to 'keep an open mind'.

I was told as they had their own sacs there is still hope for one that was showing to be ok even if I lose the other one. I have to go back in a fortnight to be scanned again and see what the situation is. It's going to be a long two weeks ahead!

I am all over the place and going through every emotion possible: happy that one baby seems to be ok so far, worried for the other one, sad that if my pregnancy continued with just the one, how it would be a mixture of happiness and sadness, hopeful that the baby without a heartbeat was just a bit behind; worry for both but mainly one baby who was fine as I am under no illusions, it is still very early days and I lost my last one through mmc after the 6 week point so I know anything could still happen to either of them. I've never had a loss after seeing a heartbeat before.


I am just so scared!

I wish you. Have both twins safe and healhty..i know its hard not to worry but please try to be calm.