Losing serious hope with ttc..

[Khearts]

I have been ttc #1 for four years. Last year I finally sat down with a doctor who was sympathetic and has been trying to help me. We found out, due to weight ( 27, 280lbs 5' 0) and pcos that I was not ovulating at all. I had been suffering long 3 month periods and constant ER trips for hemorrhaging. I finally ovulated on 150mg clomid and 200mg metformin. Alas, here I am four months and nothing. I feel like I'm doing everything I can but I'm losing hope as I only have two rounds of clomid left.

As a little background, 9 months ago my bmi was a whopping 54.7 and I have brought it down to 34.6 with constant dieting and excersize. It has been so hard. All of my friends are pregnant or have kids and I'm the last female in my family to not have one. I get the constant questions as to why we haven't had a baby yet and I just don't know what to say. It kills me every day. I can't go to baby showers or be supportive for my friends anymore. Sadly it keeps ending friendships.

Sorry for the long post but I had to get it all out there. Please if anyone has any advice or encouragement, I could use it.

 

[krissie328]

I was in a very similar spot as you. I spent 8 years ttc. I have pcos and am overweight. We found out after 6 years dh also has low motility. Has your dh been checked?

Well we started down fertility treatments and finally got our miracle after 8 very long painful years. One thing I found comforting at the end when I was reaching my breaking point was sharing our infertility story. I had to accept it wasn't anything to be ashamed of and it helped me get support. Dh tried but he didn't really understand.

I highly suggest getting support. Maybe seek counseling as ltttc is very emotional and draining.

Congrats on your weightloss so far. If you haven't tried a low carb diet I would suggest it. I tend to ovulate when I stick with it. I have read tons of success stories of infertile women getting pregnant after a month or two.

 

[Khearts]

Thank you so much for your response. I'm happy that time worked in your favor! I am trying to stay positive but it certainly is a lot to bear.

DH was checked two years ago and everything was fine. However, his diet was not. He drank an insane amount of sodas and ate very poorly. Since then he has changed his diet to match mine, and is taking vitamins daily. I think the worst pain from all of this is knowing I can't give him what we have dreamed about for so long.

And thank you! I haven't tried low carb yet but I'll definitely look into it. I've been mostly following a very strict calorie count and spending a few hours in the gym a few days a week. But, it's certainly slowed down, I think I've hit my plateau.

 

[KatO79]

I have been ttc #1 for four years. Last year I finally sat down with a doctor who was sympathetic and has been trying to help me. We found out, due to weight ( 27, 280lbs 5' 0) and pcos that I was not ovulating at all. I had been suffering long 3 month periods and constant ER trips for hemorrhaging. I finally ovulated on 150mg clomid and 200mg metformin. Alas, here I am four months and nothing. I feel like I'm doing everything I can but I'm losing hope as I only have two rounds of clomid left.

As a little background, 9 months ago my bmi was a whopping 54.7 and I have brought it down to 34.6 with constant dieting and excersize. It has been so hard. All of my friends are pregnant or have kids and I'm the last female in my family to not have one. I get the constant questions as to why we haven't had a baby yet and I just don't know what to say. It kills me every day. I can't go to baby showers or be supportive for my friends anymore. Sadly it keeps ending friendships.

Sorry for the long post but I had to get it all out there. Please if anyone has any advice or encouragement, I could use it.

So sorry I've "only" been TTCing for a little over 2 years and feel like that's already pretty bad - I can't imagine 4 years.

I don't know what your economy is like but have you considered looking into IUI/IVF? You could maybe also take the hormones for IUI but do natural BDing instead to save some money?

As for your friends, have you told them about your infertility? Otherwise they probably totally misunderstand your reluctance to go and see it as you being uninterested in their baby/pregnancy which would understandably be hurtful from their point of view. If you told them about it and tried to explain what you're going through and your feelings, they may understand it a bit better and not see it in as negative a light as they're doing now. I'd say only go to baby showers if it's close friends or relatives, everyone else you can politely decline but say you want to take them out to a e.g. a nice dinner to celebrate the occasion.