pink_phoenix
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i dont really know where to start and i hope what i have to say doesnt offend or upset anyone, i will try my best to take everyone into concideration as i type.
at the moment im just over 10 weeks pregnant and feeling very lost and alone. Me and FOB have a very strained relationship at the moment as he wont accept im carrying his child no matter what i say or do. in my mind there isnt anyone else and the baby is 100% his but its tearing me up to have to keep telling him and i just dont want to be doing it for the next 6 months! i must admit i very briefely concidered termination but was so annoyed with my self afterwards i cried for days. For me this is NOT an option altho im not against it i just think the things ive been thru over the past few years and the things i have experienced to do that would be more damaging to my own health. Ive suffered with depression for the best part of 10 years but only sice losing a baby 2 years ago was it bad enough to be medicated and also recently sought counceling.
some days im over the moon and all i can think about is the baby and others i just cant bring myself to talk to anyone and spend all day in bed.
ive been thinking and reading alot of post on this site and have started to concider adoption. i know that my feeling could change once the baby arrives and i know for some people it looks like the cowards way out but i just dont feel i am emotionaly stable to bring a child into the world. i have great suport at home and with friends even tho i think some may be dissapointed in me if i do decide adoption is the path i want to follow. i think for once in my life i need to think of the bigger picture!! would it be worng of me to deny other loving couples the right to have a baby if i dont think i can provide?? would people think bad of me if i was to give my baby to someone i belive will give him/her a better quality of life than i can???
my head is all over the place and was just wondering if any other people that have experience adoption either adopting or giving there baby for adoption could give me a little advice or maybe even point me in the right direction of proffesionals that could help me. im by no means going to rush into anything and really want to take my time in deciding what will be right for me and the baby.
i have also read posts where some pretty horrendous things have been requestd so im asking you please respect me and my baby and dont send any private message requesting the baby as you will more than likley get a very horrible and rude message in return aswell as being blocked and reported to the admin.
i also appreciate that different people will have different opinions on the subject and also request that my opionion and wanting to do right by the baby is respected and that only people with possitive comments post as i do not wish to be filtering thru lots of mean and hurtful posts when all i want is a little help.
as i said earlier i have tried my best to not offend anyone in this post but if i have i am very sorry it was not my intention so please accept me sincerest appolagies
bec x
at the moment im just over 10 weeks pregnant and feeling very lost and alone. Me and FOB have a very strained relationship at the moment as he wont accept im carrying his child no matter what i say or do. in my mind there isnt anyone else and the baby is 100% his but its tearing me up to have to keep telling him and i just dont want to be doing it for the next 6 months! i must admit i very briefely concidered termination but was so annoyed with my self afterwards i cried for days. For me this is NOT an option altho im not against it i just think the things ive been thru over the past few years and the things i have experienced to do that would be more damaging to my own health. Ive suffered with depression for the best part of 10 years but only sice losing a baby 2 years ago was it bad enough to be medicated and also recently sought counceling.
some days im over the moon and all i can think about is the baby and others i just cant bring myself to talk to anyone and spend all day in bed.
ive been thinking and reading alot of post on this site and have started to concider adoption. i know that my feeling could change once the baby arrives and i know for some people it looks like the cowards way out but i just dont feel i am emotionaly stable to bring a child into the world. i have great suport at home and with friends even tho i think some may be dissapointed in me if i do decide adoption is the path i want to follow. i think for once in my life i need to think of the bigger picture!! would it be worng of me to deny other loving couples the right to have a baby if i dont think i can provide?? would people think bad of me if i was to give my baby to someone i belive will give him/her a better quality of life than i can???
my head is all over the place and was just wondering if any other people that have experience adoption either adopting or giving there baby for adoption could give me a little advice or maybe even point me in the right direction of proffesionals that could help me. im by no means going to rush into anything and really want to take my time in deciding what will be right for me and the baby.
i have also read posts where some pretty horrendous things have been requestd so im asking you please respect me and my baby and dont send any private message requesting the baby as you will more than likley get a very horrible and rude message in return aswell as being blocked and reported to the admin.
i also appreciate that different people will have different opinions on the subject and also request that my opionion and wanting to do right by the baby is respected and that only people with possitive comments post as i do not wish to be filtering thru lots of mean and hurtful posts when all i want is a little help.
as i said earlier i have tried my best to not offend anyone in this post but if i have i am very sorry it was not my intention so please accept me sincerest appolagies
bec x