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mammy to kaylen 4/10/10
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hey guys I havnt posted in ages on this,hope I am still welcome!.......Myself and fob split when i was 8months preg....it was very tough.im cryin almost a year ............my beautiful lil boy is 9 months now...anyway he was at the birth etc,bu ther was SOOOOOOOOOO much grief between us....court,his imature partyin....goin off with girls and postin the pics online to hurt me,pissin off to another country to a girl etc etc etc.......his family are not in support of me AT ALL! if anything his mam made sure she encouraged him to distance himself from me and the baby.during my pregnancy resented me for"disrupting" her sons college education.......
we were together 4.5years.......she marched him down to the courts to file for this that and the other with me 4 my son etc.POISON...
...........anyway,hard as is has been for me,between that,my mam been extraemly ill and suicidal,picking up the pieces left right and centre and trying to manage on little or no money,i have picked myself up time and time and time again...........I have found a lovely home 4 me and lo and am renting etc and starting a beauty course in october.(im only 21)..........and in the past 2months fob has came back,he says hes missed me and we have talked thru everything etc and he apologised.......we are sleeping together the past 2 months now.....MY HEAD IS WRECKED! he is terrified of his mam and siblings finding out,and the imature"lads" friends of his that were so cruel wen i was pregnant............he wants to "see how things go"with just US TWO first,and doesnt know if he wants a relationship and is "scared"and worried bou every1..he calls me "babe" and says "know1 knows about "us" as if we are a couple and isn't seen other people.........but I cant go on like this....I dont know what to do!!!!! im lost and sad and lonely and miserable with or without him.......he cant have his cake and eat it....i wont be a play toy 1 r 2 evenings a week..........do i sit it out and not put pressure on because hel runa mile and is young and scared too? or do I tell him "man up or F*ck off!" 
i cant cope with everything much longer......
we were together 4.5years.......she marched him down to the courts to file for this that and the other with me 4 my son etc.POISON..............anyway,hard as is has been for me,between that,my mam been extraemly ill and suicidal,picking up the pieces left right and centre and trying to manage on little or no money,i have picked myself up time and time and time again...........I have found a lovely home 4 me and lo and am renting etc and starting a beauty course in october.(im only 21)..........and in the past 2months fob has came back,he says hes missed me and we have talked thru everything etc and he apologised.......we are sleeping together the past 2 months now.....MY HEAD IS WRECKED! he is terrified of his mam and siblings finding out,and the imature"lads" friends of his that were so cruel wen i was pregnant............he wants to "see how things go"with just US TWO first,and doesnt know if he wants a relationship and is "scared"and worried bou every1..he calls me "babe" and says "know1 knows about "us" as if we are a couple and isn't seen other people.........but I cant go on like this....I dont know what to do!!!!! im lost and sad and lonely and miserable with or without him.......he cant have his cake and eat it....i wont be a play toy 1 r 2 evenings a week..........do i sit it out and not put pressure on because hel runa mile and is young and scared too? or do I tell him "man up or F*ck off!" i cant cope with everything much longer......
last monday I was "with him" again for him to TELL ME that he was "just kissin" other girls at the weekend...youl be MEGA PROUD! 
