lorraine137
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Its my first time posting here, and I have never felt so sad in all my life.
Its been 3 weeks since I miscarried, and I feel so confused. On the 4th March during the night,I remember getting a cramp like feeling but it wasn't painful just uncomfortable(like a stomach ache). I put it down to ligaments stretching, but thought to be on the safe side I would go to the hospital for a check up to see if everything was okay.
Roll around Saturday afternoon and I took myself off to the hospital. I was in there for a few hours and the registrar scanned me and the last image I saw of my baby was him looking comfortable and his little hands behind his ears. The registrar even used the instrument to check my cervix and concluded that everything looked fine. She did notice that I had a fibroid which was 7cm and said that I was to come back i a few days to get it checked out on another repeat scan. At the end she told me to go home and take a paracetomal and the pain should subside.
Fast forward in the early hours of Monday morning(2am) The pain was still very uncomfortable and I had a sudden urge to go to the toilet. All I felt was a big splash and my waters had suddenly broken. I thought that I had imagined it and the surreal thing was that the pain that I had felt automatically stopped. I hopped back into bed and suddenly felt a trickle and realised that I was bleeding. I was crying and immediately called the ambulance. As I got there a nurse came with the instrument and said that I was going to be having a miscarriage. I couldn't believe what was going on, and had never felt so lonely in all my life.
I got scanned again and the worst thing was that the baby's heart was still beating. I had a glimmer of hope thinking something could be done to save him, but they said there was nothing they could do as the placenta, cord and the membrane had come apart, and that the baby was surrounded with only a little fluid. They took me back to the ward where I had to wait for a few hours to get rescanned, and this time they said baby had died. It was then planned that I would have to go into labour(even typing this seems so unreal).
3 weeks on and I am experiencing emotions that I have never felt. I feel that I am not getting answers and can't get my head around the fact that things changed within that 24 hrs at my last hospital visit. Doctors said that I had experienced contractions which led up to my waters breaking, and as it was my 1st child I wouldn't have known.
I asked the doctors whether my fibroids led to the miscarriage but they say no, but have since had an MRI scan and believe that it must have had something o do with this. I ate well, took my pregnacare, don't drink, smoke, and the week before my miscarriage all my blood test results came back perfect. Even baby was growing well so I am upset and confused.
I am now in the process of planning Baby Adrians funeral, and its so hard as my partner and my mother are not here.
I'm tired of doctors saying that "these things happen" but hard to get my head around as there must be a reason behind something(especially losing a child). I'm also put off by trying again as I am scared witless that this will happen again.
Sorry for the rant. Would love to know if something like this has happened to anyone during the 2nd Trimester, and whether you ever got true answers to the loss of your baby?
Its been 3 weeks since I miscarried, and I feel so confused. On the 4th March during the night,I remember getting a cramp like feeling but it wasn't painful just uncomfortable(like a stomach ache). I put it down to ligaments stretching, but thought to be on the safe side I would go to the hospital for a check up to see if everything was okay.
Roll around Saturday afternoon and I took myself off to the hospital. I was in there for a few hours and the registrar scanned me and the last image I saw of my baby was him looking comfortable and his little hands behind his ears. The registrar even used the instrument to check my cervix and concluded that everything looked fine. She did notice that I had a fibroid which was 7cm and said that I was to come back i a few days to get it checked out on another repeat scan. At the end she told me to go home and take a paracetomal and the pain should subside.
Fast forward in the early hours of Monday morning(2am) The pain was still very uncomfortable and I had a sudden urge to go to the toilet. All I felt was a big splash and my waters had suddenly broken. I thought that I had imagined it and the surreal thing was that the pain that I had felt automatically stopped. I hopped back into bed and suddenly felt a trickle and realised that I was bleeding. I was crying and immediately called the ambulance. As I got there a nurse came with the instrument and said that I was going to be having a miscarriage. I couldn't believe what was going on, and had never felt so lonely in all my life.
I got scanned again and the worst thing was that the baby's heart was still beating. I had a glimmer of hope thinking something could be done to save him, but they said there was nothing they could do as the placenta, cord and the membrane had come apart, and that the baby was surrounded with only a little fluid. They took me back to the ward where I had to wait for a few hours to get rescanned, and this time they said baby had died. It was then planned that I would have to go into labour(even typing this seems so unreal).
3 weeks on and I am experiencing emotions that I have never felt. I feel that I am not getting answers and can't get my head around the fact that things changed within that 24 hrs at my last hospital visit. Doctors said that I had experienced contractions which led up to my waters breaking, and as it was my 1st child I wouldn't have known.
I asked the doctors whether my fibroids led to the miscarriage but they say no, but have since had an MRI scan and believe that it must have had something o do with this. I ate well, took my pregnacare, don't drink, smoke, and the week before my miscarriage all my blood test results came back perfect. Even baby was growing well so I am upset and confused.
I am now in the process of planning Baby Adrians funeral, and its so hard as my partner and my mother are not here.
I'm tired of doctors saying that "these things happen" but hard to get my head around as there must be a reason behind something(especially losing a child). I'm also put off by trying again as I am scared witless that this will happen again.
Sorry for the rant. Would love to know if something like this has happened to anyone during the 2nd Trimester, and whether you ever got true answers to the loss of your baby?