Hi,
I'm new to this website and found it by chance. I lost my little one yesterday at 19 weeks. I feel so broken and wish she was still in my belly kicking. I got to spend a couple of hours with her and she had a beautiful smile. I don't know anyone who has been through something similar and I don't know if I can move forward from this ever. I can't stop crying and feel so empty.
Hi, I too am new to this forum, I only joined a couple of weeks ago after a MMC at 17 weeks (14 weeks gestation) i also had MMC july 09 at 10 weeks(8 weeks gestation)
I found out on 9 jan that there was no heartbeat and gave birth to my LO on 12th Jan. This couple of weeks have been like hell. Constantly crying. To start it was disbelief that this could have happened - once you have your 12 week scan you assume all will be ok.
there are feelings of sadness, devastation,lonliness, emptiness, longing and even anger that this could have happened.
We had a funeral service on monday this week and laid the ashes to rest on tuesday (just me and OH)
I felt on Tuesday that a weight had been lifted, we had finally said goodbye to our LO, gone but never forgotten.
We are taking each day as it comes and are trying to look forward (we have to stay strong for the sake of our other 3 children)
Time is a great healer. Some days are better than others, today is a down day as I would have been 20 weeks today.
i have found by chatting to the lovely ladies on this forum it has helped a lot. Everybody here knows exactly what you are going through and exactly how you are feeling.
We are all here for you and for each other.
Although it will be difficult to understand this at the moment, but everything happens for a reason. At the moment I too am having difficulty understanding that. However I had MMC in July 09, in sept 09 i became pregnant again and had my little boy in May 10. If I hadn`t lost the one in May my lovely little boy would not be with us today, yes I would have another child, but this lovely little boy we know and love today would not exist.
My mom always used to say she felt our live were already mapped out for us and everything that happens is meant to happen.
Sometimes, like now, we can`t see that.
We are always here i you want to talk or need a shoulder to cry on.