Hi there,
I have posted in another thread but just wanted to put it out there and speak with other women who have been or are where I am right now.
I lost my little boy 1st march this year at 17+5 weeks. Sorry for TMI!
My pregnancy had been somewhat troublesome. I had some bleeding but was told it was nothing to be concerned about.
Due to a previous early miscarriage we were so anxious for that magic 12 week scan. I had seen our little baby already and saw a beautiful strong heartbeat. I was so excited and scared at the same time. I knew if all was ok with this scan we could share our fantastic news with the world. The day arrived and it went perfectly. There was our little baby I affectionately nicknamed Button on the screen moving his hands around. Then the Doppler was turned on and I heard the beautiful sound of his little heart racing. It was nothing short of amazing.
At about 14 weeks the bleeding returned and continued for 2 weeks.
We were due to have our engagement party the following weekend when I would have been 16 weeks.
The night of the party arrived and people started flowing in. What a special night it was supposed to be for us. I started to feel slightly sick so I snuck off for a little lie down. The bleeding was still very apparent. Something wasnt right. I went to the bathroom to discover massive clots giving way as I sat then something got stuck!
I was rushed to the hospital. The Dr saw me straight away, and removed a large clot. I had a quick scan and saw that my baby still had a strong heartbeat. He was hanging in there.
We had to wait 2 days for a formal ultrasound. We found out I wasn't just loosing blood but my amniotic fluid was also leaking.
The following day I was referred to a maternity hospital and told to present there ASAP.
We were told that our baby would be ok in the protective walls of my womb where I can provide him with all he needs but his poor little lungs would not develop without the fluid for him to breathe in and he wouldnt manage on his own on the outside. We were advised to begin to induce my labour but I couldn't give up on him just yet. I was also fearful at having to give birth for the first time and not be able to take my baby home.
The doctor agreed to give me a week to see if I could replenish the amniotic fluid for my little Button. I was put on strict bed rest and was to report back to them in three days to ensure I hadnt developed an infection. I was prescribed some antibiotics to keep infection at bay and told to keep watch for any signs of infection including feeling ill, developing a temp and aching. If infection was to occur, my uterus could turn septic and require a full hysterectomy.
If an infection was to develop or there was no change within a week, they wanted to induce my labour. I knew in my heart this was not an option I would not do that while my baby still had a heartbeat!
I didn't develop an infection but when I went back the following week, there was still no fluid around my baby, and they wanted to induce me. My OH was beginning to agree with the Dr as he was now also concerned for my well-being. I couldn't do it and left the hospital.
the following night I felt my baby move inside me for the first time I couldn't believe it. Later that night I felt an uncomfortable sensation in my abdomen so I went to bed to try and sleep through it. I woke at 12.30am still with the pains. I had no idea what contractions felt like so I couldn't be sure what I was feeling. Deep in my heart I guess I knew exactly what it was I just wasnt prepared to believe I was in labour.
I was then taken by ambulance to the hospital and delivered my beautiful little boy at 10.45am. He was so tiny and so perfect! How could something so perfect be taken from you? This was by far the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I wanted so badly for him to still be with us. It wasnt fair what we were going through. We had done everything right why did this have to happen to us?
I think he knew I couldnt make the decision to be induced so he made the decision for us. We decided to name him River - because our love for him will forever flow, just like a River.
I have posted in another thread but just wanted to put it out there and speak with other women who have been or are where I am right now.
I lost my little boy 1st march this year at 17+5 weeks. Sorry for TMI!
My pregnancy had been somewhat troublesome. I had some bleeding but was told it was nothing to be concerned about.
Due to a previous early miscarriage we were so anxious for that magic 12 week scan. I had seen our little baby already and saw a beautiful strong heartbeat. I was so excited and scared at the same time. I knew if all was ok with this scan we could share our fantastic news with the world. The day arrived and it went perfectly. There was our little baby I affectionately nicknamed Button on the screen moving his hands around. Then the Doppler was turned on and I heard the beautiful sound of his little heart racing. It was nothing short of amazing.
At about 14 weeks the bleeding returned and continued for 2 weeks.
We were due to have our engagement party the following weekend when I would have been 16 weeks.
The night of the party arrived and people started flowing in. What a special night it was supposed to be for us. I started to feel slightly sick so I snuck off for a little lie down. The bleeding was still very apparent. Something wasnt right. I went to the bathroom to discover massive clots giving way as I sat then something got stuck!
I was rushed to the hospital. The Dr saw me straight away, and removed a large clot. I had a quick scan and saw that my baby still had a strong heartbeat. He was hanging in there.
We had to wait 2 days for a formal ultrasound. We found out I wasn't just loosing blood but my amniotic fluid was also leaking.
The following day I was referred to a maternity hospital and told to present there ASAP.
We were told that our baby would be ok in the protective walls of my womb where I can provide him with all he needs but his poor little lungs would not develop without the fluid for him to breathe in and he wouldnt manage on his own on the outside. We were advised to begin to induce my labour but I couldn't give up on him just yet. I was also fearful at having to give birth for the first time and not be able to take my baby home.
The doctor agreed to give me a week to see if I could replenish the amniotic fluid for my little Button. I was put on strict bed rest and was to report back to them in three days to ensure I hadnt developed an infection. I was prescribed some antibiotics to keep infection at bay and told to keep watch for any signs of infection including feeling ill, developing a temp and aching. If infection was to occur, my uterus could turn septic and require a full hysterectomy.
If an infection was to develop or there was no change within a week, they wanted to induce my labour. I knew in my heart this was not an option I would not do that while my baby still had a heartbeat!
I didn't develop an infection but when I went back the following week, there was still no fluid around my baby, and they wanted to induce me. My OH was beginning to agree with the Dr as he was now also concerned for my well-being. I couldn't do it and left the hospital.
the following night I felt my baby move inside me for the first time I couldn't believe it. Later that night I felt an uncomfortable sensation in my abdomen so I went to bed to try and sleep through it. I woke at 12.30am still with the pains. I had no idea what contractions felt like so I couldn't be sure what I was feeling. Deep in my heart I guess I knew exactly what it was I just wasnt prepared to believe I was in labour.
I was then taken by ambulance to the hospital and delivered my beautiful little boy at 10.45am. He was so tiny and so perfect! How could something so perfect be taken from you? This was by far the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I wanted so badly for him to still be with us. It wasnt fair what we were going through. We had done everything right why did this have to happen to us?
I think he knew I couldnt make the decision to be induced so he made the decision for us. We decided to name him River - because our love for him will forever flow, just like a River.
