LTTTC & depression

[wonderstars]

i am on a very low dose of meds I just couldn't cope on my own and curled up in my house..

I am ok now, i mean i go to work etc etc...

i feel pretty sad most days and think about LTTC everyday, i can't stop it, its killing me...

Hugs to you sophe. I feel the same way. I have been in bed crying for much of the day, I can't even stand to look at my dh because he just doesn't understand.

I have 4 close friends. One has a baby, since I started tring I've had another give birth another get pregnant and today found out my last friend of the bunch got pregnant on their second try. I couldn't even stay fornour lunch. They understood and I apologized profusely but I couldn't sit there for 2 hours while they discussed baby things.

Ugh.

 

[NavyWife84]

i am on a very low dose of meds I just couldn't cope on my own and curled up in my house..

I am ok now, i mean i go to work etc etc...

i feel pretty sad most days and think about LTTC everyday, i can't stop it, its killing me...

Hugs to you sophe. I feel the same way. I have been in bed crying for much of the day, I can't even stand to look at my dh because he just doesn't understand.

I have 4 close friends. One has a baby, since I started tring I've had another give birth another get pregnant and today found out my last friend of the bunch got pregnant on their second try. I couldn't even stay fornour lunch. They understood and I apologized profusely but I couldn't sit there for 2 hours while they discussed baby things.

Ugh.

I know exactly how you feel! My best friend (who I actually referred to this site, so I hope she doesn't read this.) just had a m/c after only 2 months of trying. She just had af and is ready to start trying again. I feel very badly for her m/c and I really do hope she gets her bfp. However, I planned her bridal shower (at her request) less than a year ago, and I feel like I might be the one to plan her baby shower. I just know she is going to fall preggo before me and I don't know how I am going to be able to go to her baby shower, never mind help to plan it. She is my best friend and I really want to be able to share this wonderful time with her, but I am afraid it is going to be too hard. Every time I think about her getting her bfp, it makes me want to cry! I hate this LTTTC S**T. It has turned me into a horrible person.

I also had my DH in tears last night. I laid on the couch all day, crying about LTTTC and all the other stuff that is going on in our lives right now. When he got home from work, I told him I wanted him to leave me because he deserves a woman who isn't so messed up. Someone who doesn't cry all day; someone who will clean the house and cook dinner instead of being consumed by her depression; SOMEONE WHO CAN GIVE HIM A BABY!!! Yesterday was a really hard day. But I have the best DH in the world (who I still don't feel like I deserve). This morning he surprised me with breakfast in bed and helped me clean the house all day. He made me promise to never ask him to leave me again as he would never and he never wants me to leave him. I feel a lot better today, but I do wish this LTTTC journey would be over already!!!

 

[wonderstars]

Navywife. I'm amazed at how well my friends understood me having to leave the lunch. I got emails and phone calls, they were wonderful. Does your friend know you've been trying? If she does ask, perhaps let her know exactly why you can't. She may understand.


My DH has been extra sweet as well. Cooking and cleaning while I wallow in my grief. I'm better today after my bloodwork and realize things are moving forward. I'm trying to occupy myself and this forum has been great, even though I don't post often.

 

[Damita]

I am very depressed - over the last week I have cry pretty much every day - suffered with depression for over 10 years now, but I normally treat with st johns wort but can't take it while TTC, and don't want to tell my doctor because I don't want it on my record as it can effect me becoming a teacher later on.

 

[Damita]

i am on a very low dose of meds I just couldn't cope on my own and curled up in my house..

I am ok now, i mean i go to work etc etc...

i feel pretty sad most days and think about LTTC everyday, i can't stop it, its killing me...

Hugs to you sophe. I feel the same way. I have been in bed crying for much of the day, I can't even stand to look at my dh because he just doesn't understand.

I have 4 close friends. One has a baby, since I started tring I've had another give birth another get pregnant and today found out my last friend of the bunch got pregnant on their second try. I couldn't even stay fornour lunch. They understood and I apologized profusely but I couldn't sit there for 2 hours while they discussed baby things.

Ugh.

I know exactly how you feel! My best friend (who I actually referred to this site, so I hope she doesn't read this.) just had a m/c after only 2 months of trying. She just had af and is ready to start trying again. I feel very badly for her m/c and I really do hope she gets her bfp. However, I planned her bridal shower (at her request) less than a year ago, and I feel like I might be the one to plan her baby shower. I just know she is going to fall preggo before me and I don't know how I am going to be able to go to her baby shower, never mind help to plan it. She is my best friend and I really want to be able to share this wonderful time with her, but I am afraid it is going to be too hard. Every time I think about her getting her bfp, it makes me want to cry! I hate this LTTTC S**T. It has turned me into a horrible person.

I also had my DH in tears last night. I laid on the couch all day, crying about LTTTC and all the other stuff that is going on in our lives right now. When he got home from work, I told him I wanted him to leave me because he deserves a woman who isn't so messed up. Someone who doesn't cry all day; someone who will clean the house and cook dinner instead of being consumed by her depression; SOMEONE WHO CAN GIVE HIM A BABY!!! Yesterday was a really hard day. But I have the best DH in the world (who I still don't feel like I deserve). This morning he surprised me with breakfast in bed and helped me clean the house all day. He made me promise to never ask him to leave me again as he would never and he never wants me to leave him. I feel a lot better today, but I do wish this LTTTC journey would be over already!!!

You sound just like me I have just given up. I can't fight over LTTTC or the other stuff going on in my life, it's just too much

 

[wonderstars]

Damita.

I've been so down lately I've actually been happy to go work and be occupied. It's draining thinking about TTC. I really admire those who have managed to keep their wits through the long haul. I've only been TTC for 14 months.

HSG tomorrow so either I'll be more depressed or still depressed.

 

[Damita]

Hope the HSG goes well tomorrow

 

[Sophe]

Hope we all start to feel better. ((hugs)))

 

[Damita]

You too

 

[NavyWife84]

Damita.

I've been so down lately I've actually been happy to go work and be occupied. It's draining thinking about TTC. I really admire those who have managed to keep their wits through the long haul. I've only been TTC for 14 months.

HSG tomorrow so either I'll be more depressed or still depressed.

Good Luck with the HSG!!! You'll have to let us know how it goes.

 

[ami1985]

Ive been TTC for 3 years, diagnosed PCOS 6 months ago, suffered depression after my mam died 3 years ago and have been on meds since xxx

 

[wonderstars]

ami. What a difficult time you've had, I hope thing turn around for you.

Well, the HSG didn't go. My gyne couldn't get the catheter up into the uterus. It would go past the cervical opening and then no more. He says that my cervix is very high up and then my uterus probably angles away so he just keeps hitting the uterine wall.

I have to get a pelvic MRI then an HSG or Lap under anesthetic.

Isn't life grand?

How are you ladies today.

 

[NavyWife84]

Oh Geez! I am so sorry Wonderstars! Do you know when you are going to have the MRI? I'll be praying for you!

 

[Rin731]

i am on a very low dose of meds I just couldn't cope on my own and curled up in my house..

I am ok now, i mean i go to work etc etc...

i feel pretty sad most days and think about LTTC everyday, i can't stop it, its killing me...

Yup. It's like no matter how hard you try, you think about it, and it makes you sad.

 

[Rin731]

i am on a very low dose of meds I just couldn't cope on my own and curled up in my house..

I am ok now, i mean i go to work etc etc...

i feel pretty sad most days and think about LTTC everyday, i can't stop it, its killing me...

Hugs to you sophe. I feel the same way. I have been in bed crying for much of the day, I can't even stand to look at my dh because he just doesn't understand.

I have 4 close friends. One has a baby, since I started tring I've had another give birth another get pregnant and today found out my last friend of the bunch got pregnant on their second try. I couldn't even stay fornour lunch. They understood and I apologized profusely but I couldn't sit there for 2 hours while they discussed baby things.

Ugh.

I know exactly how you feel! My best friend (who I actually referred to this site, so I hope she doesn't read this.) just had a m/c after only 2 months of trying. She just had af and is ready to start trying again. I feel very badly for her m/c and I really do hope she gets her bfp. However, I planned her bridal shower (at her request) less than a year ago, and I feel like I might be the one to plan her baby shower. I just know she is going to fall preggo before me and I don't know how I am going to be able to go to her baby shower, never mind help to plan it. She is my best friend and I really want to be able to share this wonderful time with her, but I am afraid it is going to be too hard. Every time I think about her getting her bfp, it makes me want to cry! I hate this LTTTC S**T. It has turned me into a horrible person.

I also had my DH in tears last night. I laid on the couch all day, crying about LTTTC and all the other stuff that is going on in our lives right now. When he got home from work, I told him I wanted him to leave me because he deserves a woman who isn't so messed up. Someone who doesn't cry all day; someone who will clean the house and cook dinner instead of being consumed by her depression; SOMEONE WHO CAN GIVE HIM A BABY!!! Yesterday was a really hard day. But I have the best DH in the world (who I still don't feel like I deserve). This morning he surprised me with breakfast in bed and helped me clean the house all day. He made me promise to never ask him to leave me again as he would never and he never wants me to leave him. I feel a lot better today, but I do wish this LTTTC journey would be over already!!!

Sounds just like me.

 

[Missus_L]

i am on a very low dose of meds I just couldn't cope on my own and curled up in my house..

I am ok now, i mean i go to work etc etc...

i feel pretty sad most days and think about LTTC everyday, i can't stop it, its killing me...

Hugs to you sophe. I feel the same way. I have been in bed crying for much of the day, I can't even stand to look at my dh because he just doesn't understand.

I have 4 close friends. One has a baby, since I started tring I've had another give birth another get pregnant and today found out my last friend of the bunch got pregnant on their second try. I couldn't even stay fornour lunch. They understood and I apologized profusely but I couldn't sit there for 2 hours while they discussed baby things.

Ugh.

I know exactly how you feel! My best friend (who I actually referred to this site, so I hope she doesn't read this.) just had a m/c after only 2 months of trying. She just had af and is ready to start trying again. I feel very badly for her m/c and I really do hope she gets her bfp. However, I planned her bridal shower (at her request) less than a year ago, and I feel like I might be the one to plan her baby shower. I just know she is going to fall preggo before me and I don't know how I am going to be able to go to her baby shower, never mind help to plan it. She is my best friend and I really want to be able to share this wonderful time with her, but I am afraid it is going to be too hard. Every time I think about her getting her bfp, it makes me want to cry! I hate this LTTTC S**T. It has turned me into a horrible person.

I also had my DH in tears last night. I laid on the couch all day, crying about LTTTC and all the other stuff that is going on in our lives right now. When he got home from work, I told him I wanted him to leave me because he deserves a woman who isn't so messed up. Someone who doesn't cry all day; someone who will clean the house and cook dinner instead of being consumed by her depression; SOMEONE WHO CAN GIVE HIM A BABY!!! Yesterday was a really hard day. But I have the best DH in the world (who I still don't feel like I deserve). This morning he surprised me with breakfast in bed and helped me clean the house all day. He made me promise to never ask him to leave me again as he would never and he never wants me to leave him. I feel a lot better today, but I do wish this LTTTC journey would be over already!!!

Sounds just like me.

And me