Aelanu
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Hi! If any of you have trolled the BFP announcements, pregnancy tests, or pregnancy 1st trimester boards then you probably know I got my last week. I've been plastering it everywhere because I'm TOO happy! I am 5 weeks, 1 day today.
I also have bipolar disorder....severe enough to absolutely need medication otherwise I begin to go into a horrible depression and will cut myself or try to kill myself. I can't control my emotions- and living day to day is a mental roller-coaster for me.
This is where marijuana comes in. I have been smoking since being diagnosed bipolar at 17 as I learned it is the ONLY thing that helps. I have taken the proper pills for bipolar disorder before...and lost my first pregnancy because of it. In fact, I learned that the medications they had me on (and the other ones I took right before we decided to TTC) were considered some of the most dangerous meds for baby- severe mental ******ation and physical deformities are just the tip of the iceberg.
I've done research on marijuana, and I know quite a few who smoked during their pregnancy. The worst thing that has ever happened to a marijuana baby- that I've come across- is asthma. In most of those cases (and all the cases of asthma babies that I know) were of mothers who smoked ciggs and marijuana.
I have stopped ciggs completely...marijuana? Not so much. I have cut back to half of my normal intake, but I am afraid to stop. I feel bad for exposing to it, but at the same time the risk is even greater if I stop because of all my mood swings and all the stress I would be under.
I told the nurse who will be doing my ultrasound and she didn't seem to concerned...she actually agreed that it would probably be better than just letting my emotions run rampant.
Am I wrong? I mean...if I smoke, I'm POTENTIALLY harming baby...but without any medication (pills are completely off limits....ALL bipolar medication has some serious effects on fetuses) I could stress out and miscarry. I just feel so judged when people that are close to me know that I continue to smoke. I don't do it because I want to anymore (that stopped about 4 years ago), I do it because I have to...because if I don't I will try to harm myself or someone else.
What do you ladies think?
I also have bipolar disorder....severe enough to absolutely need medication otherwise I begin to go into a horrible depression and will cut myself or try to kill myself. I can't control my emotions- and living day to day is a mental roller-coaster for me.
This is where marijuana comes in. I have been smoking since being diagnosed bipolar at 17 as I learned it is the ONLY thing that helps. I have taken the proper pills for bipolar disorder before...and lost my first pregnancy because of it. In fact, I learned that the medications they had me on (and the other ones I took right before we decided to TTC) were considered some of the most dangerous meds for baby- severe mental ******ation and physical deformities are just the tip of the iceberg.
I've done research on marijuana, and I know quite a few who smoked during their pregnancy. The worst thing that has ever happened to a marijuana baby- that I've come across- is asthma. In most of those cases (and all the cases of asthma babies that I know) were of mothers who smoked ciggs and marijuana.
I have stopped ciggs completely...marijuana? Not so much. I have cut back to half of my normal intake, but I am afraid to stop. I feel bad for exposing to it, but at the same time the risk is even greater if I stop because of all my mood swings and all the stress I would be under.
I told the nurse who will be doing my ultrasound and she didn't seem to concerned...she actually agreed that it would probably be better than just letting my emotions run rampant.
Am I wrong? I mean...if I smoke, I'm POTENTIALLY harming baby...but without any medication (pills are completely off limits....ALL bipolar medication has some serious effects on fetuses) I could stress out and miscarry. I just feel so judged when people that are close to me know that I continue to smoke. I don't do it because I want to anymore (that stopped about 4 years ago), I do it because I have to...because if I don't I will try to harm myself or someone else.
What do you ladies think?