I have a doctor's appointment in 2 hours with my normal, nice man doctor. I am definitely going to talk to him about what she said. I know that what she said is probably just her opinion, but I feel sick to my stomach now, and am incredibly nervous. I can't believe she would say all that. she said that my tear would be so incredibly bad that she wants a gyno specialist to repair my pelvic floor on hand for the delivery. as if that didn't make me feel like vomiting.
i'm not a person to cry, but I've been trying to not cry all day at work, and am physically shaking with nerves and sick feelings. I hope the doctor I talk to today is more reassuring.