I am so sorry!! It's never easy when a baby passes away, but it you aren't expecting it, it's even harder. I went into my ultrasound, knowing I couldn't find the baby's heartbeat with my doppler. It didn't help any, though. I was devestated.
I also had a D&C, 2 days after she passed away. Since I was 12 week 4 days, the doctor was able to do testing and we learned that she had a chromosomal abnormality (strand 9).
The physical healing was easy. I felt almost guilty because I felt so good afterwards. The emotional healing is taking alot longer. I don't think I'll ever totally heal. We had so many plans for Thanksgiving and Christmas (she was due 11/21). It's very hard going throug the motions of the holidays and not having her here with us.
Sending you many healing thoughts and lots of hugs!