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Im 18.. next week on Friday it will be my birthday.. when I found out i was pregnant i used a pregnancy app to give me an idea how far along I was.. the app predicted that I was about 7 weeks but in reality I was 5 weeks and 2 days when I went to get checked. I’m not going to lie I did go to Planned Parenthood but only my family doesn’t know that I was expecting. I didn’t want my visit to go through my insurance so I paid out of my own money. My plan was to continue my pregnancy but I wanted to wait after the first trimester to tell anyone. Only two people knew I was expecting, my baby’s father and my best friend. After my check up I knew this pregnancy wasn't going to last.. since monday I’ve been spotting and the spotting turned into bleeding.. Last night.. at 3 am I woke up to the most painful cramps in my life. I was sobbing because of how much in pain i was in. I knew I was bleeding but I didn’t expect it to be alot.. i felt something come out.. i went to the bathroom to change my pad and I saw him.. my baby.. he looked exactly how the app showed me how he would look like.. i didnt know what to do I woke up my boyfriend and we cried.. we decided to name our baby Alex since we didnt know if the baby was a boy or a girl.. I scheduled an appointment for Saturday to see if the miscarriage was completed.. I would write my baby letters because I just knew that I wasnt going to be able to carry my baby to full term.. regardless i still had faith.. God knows why things happen.. Im just sad that my baby had to become an angel too soon
***UPDATE***
On Saturday I went to my appointment to check if the miscarriage was complete or not.. sadly it is.. I still cry every night.. I had to get my blood drawn to see if my HCG hormone levels are going down and it is.. I miss my baby every single day.. what hurts the most is that I didn't get the chance to listen to his/her little heartbeat
***UPDATE***
On Saturday I went to my appointment to check if the miscarriage was complete or not.. sadly it is.. I still cry every night.. I had to get my blood drawn to see if my HCG hormone levels are going down and it is.. I miss my baby every single day.. what hurts the most is that I didn't get the chance to listen to his/her little heartbeat
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