Miscarried today....

[angel2010]

I hope it goes well Thursday.

 

[Emcee2012]

Thanks Angel...
i am anxious..i hope its not an ectopic pregnancy..i hope its all gone so i can finally move on..i cant move on..i dont have closure yet...
however the doctor is hopeful cause i got pregnant..so he is like you will get pregnant again..
lets hope if it happens, it doesnt end in a miscarriage..its emotionnally draining...

what bugs me is my SIL got pregnant at the same time so..I dont want to get jealous of her pregnancy...
does that make me weird???

 

[angel2010]

Well I can tell you that my sil is pregnant. Due two weeks before I would have been and I AM jealous of her pregnancy. I shouldn't be, but I feel comfortable admitting it on here. I am jealous and I am happy she lives 6 hours away so I don't have to here about it. She is my husband's brother's wife, so we have the same last name. It bugs the hell out of me that she calls the baby "Baby Freeman", because our baby could have been called that as well.

 

[sweetmommaof2]

it is understandable to feel that way... I am so sorry you have to go through that... at least the people I know are just friends and not family... I think that would be even worse... hugs to both

 

[AZBabyDust]

Sorry for your loss. Found out today I have a blighted ovum and I am just waiting to miscarry naturally. I feel for you and I am so sorry anyone has to go through this.

 

[JadeEmChar]

Sending massive hugs to all of you.

I to suffered a blighted ovum and had a d&c about 2 weeks ago

Good luck with everything and I'm sending you all babydust for the future

 

[Emcee2012]

thank you girls...it feels good to know i am not alone...

my sil lives in the same city as me (Montreal) but we rarely see them (Thank God) my bf's bro sent a massive email with a pic of the Clear blue positive pregnancy test..they are so overjoyed..i am freaking jealous..just like you Angel...

I know im not over all of this..when im writing these words im crying..but i cry in silence and in hiding..i dont want to cry in front of my bf..i just dont feel like it...

 

[MissSarah]

I experienced a similar MC. Hopeful, then bad news, then good news, then bad news, then a confirmed MC. I nearly died inside. I am so sorry you have to go through this. It will get easier but you will always carry the love and loss in your heart. Just remember that your body was telling you that something wasn't working properly. I like to think that our little angel is in heaven waiting to come back to us in a healthy body.

 

[angel2010]

We will cry together.

 

[Emcee2012]

Thats the thing MissSarah...i feel so empty inside...i dont know how to deal with all of this..i know i have to face the pain..i just dont know what to do with myself..
I wasnt intimate with my bf for almost all of November (TMI i know sorry..) i keep apologizing..he is understanding...but still..i miss the intimacy but at the same time...im afraid..Angel2010: we shall...

 

[MissSarah]

Thats the thing MissSarah...i feel so empty inside...i dont know how to deal with all of this..i know i have to face the pain..i just dont know what to do with myself..
I wasnt intimate with my bf for almost all of November (TMI i know sorry..) i keep apologizing..he is understanding...but still..i miss the intimacy but at the same time...im afraid..Angel2010: we shall...

It is hard for a man to feel what you do. My husband didn't feel what I did, don't let it make you feel less important. Don't let yourself believe that it doesn't hurt him, they grieve differently. I was so frustrated when I would cry and he seemed less effected, then I realized he was being strong for me.

You can message me if you need to talk to anyone. I know how you feel, it is unbelievably painful. I just remind myself that our baby is in heaven, waiting to join us again in a healthy body. I pray we have another chance for a full term, healthy pregnancy, and a healthy and happy baby. My MC has made me discover just how deeply I want a baby, and how happy I will be and how grateful I will be when it happens. I believe something was not developing correctly, that is why our bodies MC. It is hard, but just think that you will meet that angel again. I think the experience will make us great mothers because we will want another baby so badly that we will never have a second taken for granted.

 

[MissSarah]

P.S. you aren't supposed to know how to feel. It is something that you aren't prepared for, and it is such a painful thing. Just know that you aren't alone, and know that it isn't anything you did. Our bodies respond to what they need to. Have your doctor check you out and check your blood work and such, make sure you are taking great care of yourself. It was hard for me to share with people at first, but I realized that talking about it helped. I wanted people to know how I felt, and that it did effect me... they ask less questions then, and it is easier.

 

[Emcee2012]

Thanks Sarah!!! i went to the hospital and they took another blood test im going tomorrow to see my doctor to see whats up...
my bff cant conceive so she cant stand pregnant women..
on my side, i cant look at a pregnant woman and her smile..
im not ready...and men are different..my bf told me he is being strong for both of us..

 

[Emcee2012]

ok it wasnt an ectopic pregnancy...but i have pcos he wants to start me on clomid..but i wont start it now..i dont feel as bad anymore..but doesnt mean it wasnt painful..

 

[angel2010]

I am happy to hear it wasn't ectopic.