Mixed Up

[Nicole23]

I hope I'm putting this in the right section. I just don't know where else this post would go.

I'm feeling horrible right now. My partner and I have had 2 confirmed and 1 suspected miscarriages in the past year. I'm 8 dpo today and I woke up this morning just "knowing" that I'm pregnant... but I can't be happy about it. I'm kicking myself for even trying again because I think that this pregnancy is just going to end up the same as the others. Part of me says, "Maybe this one will be different," but then another voice tells it won't be. I'm conflicted and just want to cry.
But I should be happy, right? I don't even want to test in a few days because then I will have to admit it out loud. I haven't said anything to my partner yet, because I want to spare him the pain if it all goes the same way.
Why did I do this to myself again? The doctors seem to think that nothing is wrong and say to just keep trying, blah blah blah...

But something is wrong! It keeps happenening. And why can't I be happy about the possibility of finally being a mother? I have a cloud of doom hovering over me and I don't know how to dispel it.

Need advice please.

 

[hawalker]

i dont really no what to say, just wanted to send u some ((((hugs)))).
I am in the middle of my 2nd miscarriage, but to have them one after each other like you have must be so hard and so of course you are gonna think negative this time. All i can say is do your best to think positive, 2 confirmed miscarriages mean it could just be a coincidence and everything happens for a reason (i am clinging onto these hopes myself) and that those babies werent ready for this world. But if you are pregnant then i think your partner would be best to no beacuse he'll more than likely want to support you as much as you want to spare his hurt at the thought of another loss. Think positive hun please xxxx

 

[carrieanne]

i really know how you feel im excactly the same i mc 2weeks ago again and scared stiff that if i get pregnant it will end the same way i think anyone like us will feel the same speak to your gp about your worries and you have us xxx

 

[ninamama]

I think you are very normal to feel the way you do. Sending you lots of love and hugs..keep positive though..my friend had 3 consecutive mc and is now due next month with her first. Thats what keeps me going when I feel at my lowest! Sending you lots of love and sticky baby powder xxx

 

[superp123]

One of the girls on here recently said that her therapist told her that she should treat herself like her own best friend. For some reason the past few days that has really stuck with me and I think it applies here. Start 'talking' to yourself like your best friend would. You and your body can do this, and things will turn out fine!! You just take things one day at a time, one hour at a time and hopefully before you know it you'll be in agony in a labor room. There's no requirement to be estatic in situations like these and what you're going through is completely normal. Tell hubby so he can be your rock and then put one foot in front of the other. The joy will come when you feel comfortable, and that's different for everyone. Hun, and we're here if you need to vent a bit. Keep your eyes on the prize and believe it, and stay positive.
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[Nicole23]

Thank you all for you support. I can't tell you how much better you have made me feel. Sometimes it's healing to be able to just voice your worries. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who feels this way. I'm going to tell DP about my suspicions today and also see the doc on Tuesday. Hopefully, the excitement of a possible pregnancy will follow.

Thank you again. Hugs to all!