My baby has gone

[TashaAndBump]

to nursery!

I miss her already... I had to stop myself crying as I walked away from her! I think I must be hormonal but it feels like there is a part of me and it's not here where it should be?

I know Anna is quite old now (nearly one!) but she still feels like my baby and we have never really been apart before.

When I woke her up this morning it was like she knew I was going to take her to nursery, even though we've never been before. She didn't want to wake up, and tried her hardest to demand I (breast)feed her and kept trying to latch on as I was trying to get her dressed It was clear she did not want to get up, let alone go to nursery.

When we got there, she cried immediately I gave her some milk to try and settle her but she cried as soon as she was done My poor baby... I tried to get her interested in the toys, sang her favorite songs with the nursery 'aunties', showed her the mirrors (she usually loves mirrors) but she was screaming the place down, so in the end, and God knows why, I thought it might be an idea to leave.... I thought if I wasn't around she might not want me so much... so I left.

As I was walking away from her she was crying and I could hear her crying all the way to the car park My poor baby has never been left before, except for an hour a week for my driving lesson but that is always with her Dad and my mum... I feel guilty for throwing her in at the deep end!

I seriously feel sick I hope my baby is okay. I am going to phone the nursery at 10am to check she is okay and if not I will be picking her up. I can't leave my baby crying with people she doesn't know!

Urgghh.. I feel awful

 

[oOKayOo]

Aww how come you have decided to put her in nursery?

 

[TashaAndBump]

I'm doing an open university course and need to get started. It's only going to be for one morning a week, but I miss her like crazy.

I hope she's okay...

 

[charveyron]

Aww bless her, she probably stopped crying as soon as you were out of earshot - she's probably really enjoying herself!!! She'll be fine don't you worry!!

 

[lollylou1]

it can take a few weeks for them to settle hun
im sure she will soon be loving it but may still be upset due to it being something new and starnge
im telling u this as a nursery nurse they dont settle immediately we say 4 weeks to new parents

big hugs hun, well done on the university course, what you doing?

Lou
xxx

 

[baby.love]

My son started pre-school last year and he had never been away from me before, he cried when we left him for the 1st few days..but now he LOVES it and even wants to go at weekends..She will settle hun, its all new to her at the moment

 

[isil]

I'm sure she's okay. Poor you though

 

[TashaAndBump]

Thanks, I just phoned and they said she is stop-and-start crying... I have told them to phone me if she gets too upset and I will have to go and get her. I may go and get her early and then try and bump the time she is there up as she gets used to it. My mum has offered to take Anna out with my husband later in the week so I can get some of this coursework done, so that's good it means if I absolutely do have to go get her early then I will have an opportunity later in the week to get more done!

well done on the university course, what you doing?

I'm doing a course in health and social care. I'm aiming to get into neonatal nursing via midwifery, so this diploma should help lots in getting me onto my midwifery degree course! *fingers crossed*

Thanks all for replying trying to make me feel better. It shocked me a bit, I think... I knew for weeks she was going to start nursery today, but when I actually dropped her off and walked away from her it just felt so overwhelming.

I think it's probably good that we go through this now sooner than later. I'm sure she will love nursery eventually - my brother and nephew have both been in nursery since they were 9 months and they love it, they are also very sociable and eloquent (I think because of this) so I am sure it will do her good as well as me. I'm sure it can't be very fun for her just being with adults all the time either so I hope she calms down soon and gets to play with the other children and the toys before I go to get her.

I miss her like crazy which is very distracting so now I'm going to try and knuckle down and get some of this coursework done, to try and take my mind of her...

 

[sparkle]

That's tough for you, but she will get used to it! I'm a Reception Teacher and although the children are older we get lots of Mummies walking away in tears the first few weeks in September.
x

 

[TashaAndBump]

Oh phew! I thought they'd think I was a right weirdo walking out of the place trying not to cry! I'm feeling a bit better now... Only one and a half hours till I can go and get her, and I've managed to get a little bit done here if only a little. The OU server has just crashed so I've been shut out of their online tutorial software! and I also am having a few problems with their DVD software, not a lot of it seems to be compatible with Vista! so I am slowly working my way through the reading for now...

I am just so glad my mum has offered to take her later in the week as I seriously need more time, preferably when I don't feel so ill that it's like my brain might as well be dribbling out of my ears!

Thanks for all your kind comments I'll probably be back here in floods of tears again this time next week! :doh:

 

[smartie]

I feel for you! I will have to go through this when I go back to work in March. The nursery we have chosen do a breaking in period where you take them for an hour and you stay with them, then you take them for an hour and you leave them there, then they stay for half a day before you leave them for the full day. Did the nursery you choose not offer this?

I am told it does get easier but I'm certainly not looking forward to it!

 

[nikky0907]

I dread that day, Lola will also be starting at 10 months... It's just nearing too soon...

 

[princess_bump]

oh honey bless you x x x

 

[xarlenex]

My childminder picks Kyle up at the door, and the first day he was fairly upset. But, now he LOVES it, i'll say "Goin to nursery today?" and he gets all excited and heads towards the hall window to watch for them coming! Its great for them to socialise with other people too. I'm sure Anna and you Tasha will both get the hang of it soon!