louise1302
mum to FIVE boys :)
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my first princess after 5 sons my beautiful Seren Grace was born sleeping on 11/05/2013 at 24 weeks 3 days
i got up on thursday 9th of may thinking she wasnt being as active as she had been i got the odd little poke and at first assumed her postition had changed. through the day i tried all the tricks to get her moving along with listening to her hb on the doppler
her hb was mostly around 160 but at one point around lunchtime it went down to 95. i tried to pretend id misheard or heard mine but after 5 children before i know the difference. i went to the lo and tried again and it was back to 160
i got more and more worried so called triage who asked me to nip up but not to rush as they were busy and baby was most likely just hiding
at triage they couldnt find her with a handheld doppler so they called the doc to bring a scanner. doc said sarcastically theres the hb and pointed at a realy grainy screen. i couldnt see a hb or her moving but just cried with relief
they send me home and i tried again with my home doppler as id never failed to find her from 9 weeks pregnant and nothing. for 6 hours i drove myself insane looking for her. eventually i called triage back and lied and told them i had pain. i didnt but i knew they wouldnt see me. i went back they did swabs and told me they werent checking on her again as theyd done it already and would keep me in for a proper scan in the morning to check she wasnt distressed
i was sent to the ward next to a woman being induced and constantly on the monitor and hearing her babys hb killed me this was 6am. at 12:20 they took me for the scan that was about to change my life the looked for a few mins and then the awful words " im so sorry"
Seren was born the night after via induction my labour was only an hour and she is just so perfect. my blonde perfectly formed little beauty weighed 1lb 6oz
i spent 2 pecious days in the hospital with her holding and singing to her, doing moulds of her feet and allowing the special people in my life to meet her but now im home and im torn apart
why my princess the baby giorl id longed for for so long the first girl in my family for 40 years how do i get through this
i got up on thursday 9th of may thinking she wasnt being as active as she had been i got the odd little poke and at first assumed her postition had changed. through the day i tried all the tricks to get her moving along with listening to her hb on the doppler
her hb was mostly around 160 but at one point around lunchtime it went down to 95. i tried to pretend id misheard or heard mine but after 5 children before i know the difference. i went to the lo and tried again and it was back to 160
i got more and more worried so called triage who asked me to nip up but not to rush as they were busy and baby was most likely just hiding
at triage they couldnt find her with a handheld doppler so they called the doc to bring a scanner. doc said sarcastically theres the hb and pointed at a realy grainy screen. i couldnt see a hb or her moving but just cried with relief
they send me home and i tried again with my home doppler as id never failed to find her from 9 weeks pregnant and nothing. for 6 hours i drove myself insane looking for her. eventually i called triage back and lied and told them i had pain. i didnt but i knew they wouldnt see me. i went back they did swabs and told me they werent checking on her again as theyd done it already and would keep me in for a proper scan in the morning to check she wasnt distressed
i was sent to the ward next to a woman being induced and constantly on the monitor and hearing her babys hb killed me this was 6am. at 12:20 they took me for the scan that was about to change my life the looked for a few mins and then the awful words " im so sorry"
Seren was born the night after via induction my labour was only an hour and she is just so perfect. my blonde perfectly formed little beauty weighed 1lb 6oz
i spent 2 pecious days in the hospital with her holding and singing to her, doing moulds of her feet and allowing the special people in my life to meet her but now im home and im torn apart
why my princess the baby giorl id longed for for so long the first girl in my family for 40 years how do i get through this
I was so excited I could not believe I was having a girl. My boys were 21, 19 and 12 so Ava was a big surprise. At 22 weeks there was no heartbeat. I gave birth to her in my home went to the hospital held her and we buried her on 3-11-2011. My heart still aches everyday for her ..
her post mortem is now so just waiting I'm desperate to see her again
