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So a week ago today I was waking uo to the realisation of my baby not growing and thriving inside me but being lifeless and wanting to leave my body.
On Thursday I lost ALOT of blood. .I literally could not get off the toilet for half an hour and had to repeatedly flush to clear the blood..it was so scary and I was alone which made it so much worse
When it stopped I cleaned myself up and managed to prepare tea for my family and in laws and thought..at least its over.
How very wrong I was...after a day of bleeding but nothing major I decided to meet my two girlfriends in town to do some shopping. My best friend knows everything but my other friend didnt so I updated her incase I seemed distracted. Within two hours of telling her I was sat in the public toilets losing more blood than Thursday and requiring new tights and underwear. I chose to continue shopping as I felt okay...10 mins later I felt it starting up again, that uncomfortable warmth I told my friends who guided me back to the toilets but we had just got outside the shop (luckily) and there was this huge gush and loads of blood came out all over the floor beneath me infront a crowd of people
it didnt stop so I ended up in hospital with a suspected molar pregnancy. I was nil by mouth all day but was finally allowed breakfast at 10am Sunday as they thought the chances of molar werent zero but very slim so after lunch started me on the medication to get the baby and tissue out..as I hadn't passed anything but blood upto this point.
Three doses later and alot more blood later everyone was getting concerned so I was taken to the treatment room...I told them I felt 'unwell' the next thing I knew I was being woken up as id passed out for the first time in my life. This happened again but they couldn't wake me up.
I was rushed back to my room where my dh was sat (arranging our monopoly board game!!) So he was sent out so they could help me and save my life.
they couldnt even get me to theatre until my breathing was stabelised and the canulors were fitted but this was taking too long as my veins had "dried up". They had no option but to get the baby out manually. It was the scariest 2 hours of my life and all I wanted to do was see my hubby and baby one last time
finally i was stabilised and put on oxygen as the nurses cleaned me uo so my hubby wouldn't be scarred for life!!
thankfully it wasnt a molar pregnancy but they made no bones about how close I came to dying. ..I respected the registrars honesty which she knew.
I was discharged Monday and after staying at my in laws for one night I am now back home with my beautiful family with a whole new appreciation of life and how fortunate I am.
im sorry if this is far too much information or too 'raw' but very few people knew I was pregnant and even less know about my hospital visit so had to offload.
Does anyone find it strange that I dont want counselling or find myself overly affected by any of this. ..im actually starting on prenatals again next week with the intention of trying again around Christmas. Does this seem irresponsible??? I wont take offence to anyones responses xoxo
On Thursday I lost ALOT of blood. .I literally could not get off the toilet for half an hour and had to repeatedly flush to clear the blood..it was so scary and I was alone which made it so much worse
When it stopped I cleaned myself up and managed to prepare tea for my family and in laws and thought..at least its over.
How very wrong I was...after a day of bleeding but nothing major I decided to meet my two girlfriends in town to do some shopping. My best friend knows everything but my other friend didnt so I updated her incase I seemed distracted. Within two hours of telling her I was sat in the public toilets losing more blood than Thursday and requiring new tights and underwear. I chose to continue shopping as I felt okay...10 mins later I felt it starting up again, that uncomfortable warmth I told my friends who guided me back to the toilets but we had just got outside the shop (luckily) and there was this huge gush and loads of blood came out all over the floor beneath me infront a crowd of people
it didnt stop so I ended up in hospital with a suspected molar pregnancy. I was nil by mouth all day but was finally allowed breakfast at 10am Sunday as they thought the chances of molar werent zero but very slim so after lunch started me on the medication to get the baby and tissue out..as I hadn't passed anything but blood upto this point.
Three doses later and alot more blood later everyone was getting concerned so I was taken to the treatment room...I told them I felt 'unwell' the next thing I knew I was being woken up as id passed out for the first time in my life. This happened again but they couldn't wake me up.
I was rushed back to my room where my dh was sat (arranging our monopoly board game!!) So he was sent out so they could help me and save my life.
they couldnt even get me to theatre until my breathing was stabelised and the canulors were fitted but this was taking too long as my veins had "dried up". They had no option but to get the baby out manually. It was the scariest 2 hours of my life and all I wanted to do was see my hubby and baby one last time
finally i was stabilised and put on oxygen as the nurses cleaned me uo so my hubby wouldn't be scarred for life!!
thankfully it wasnt a molar pregnancy but they made no bones about how close I came to dying. ..I respected the registrars honesty which she knew.
I was discharged Monday and after staying at my in laws for one night I am now back home with my beautiful family with a whole new appreciation of life and how fortunate I am.
im sorry if this is far too much information or too 'raw' but very few people knew I was pregnant and even less know about my hospital visit so had to offload.
Does anyone find it strange that I dont want counselling or find myself overly affected by any of this. ..im actually starting on prenatals again next week with the intention of trying again around Christmas. Does this seem irresponsible??? I wont take offence to anyones responses xoxo