Need some buddies 1dpo, its a waiting game!

Exactly,Laus-talking about it is very helpful. It's even better when close family listens and they get where we're coming from. That's why I need to talk to hubby in person about things. Communication is very important. Glad you feel better and hope you feel better soon. Hope other than that you're having a great time. :friends: Thank you.
 
I'm glad you had that talk w/you mom Laus...I did that when I found out about the SIL being preggo. When it comes to TTC, I always put on my brave face and act like it's not that big of a deal. But I actually told my mom that all I had wanted to do, was lay with my head in her lap, bawling my eyes out while she ran her fingers through my hair (she used to do that when I was little). That's the first time I've let her in on how hard things are for me and it did feel good and it did make me feel a little better.

How are you feeling today Heather?

So, I would just like to say I feel really really bad for my poor DH. You always hear about how clomid turns woman all hormonal crazy. I never had that before. Just mainly the hot flashes. Well, this morning, apparently some flip switched. Litterly EVERYTHING that came out of my husband's mouth made me want to slap him across the face. I was trying to control it b/c I knew it was irrational, but I couldn't help it. Before that, on my way home from getting groceries, I cried, basically the whole way home b/c all I was thinking about was "Oh poor me! I'm never going to me a mama!" Then when I got home, I was bitchy, then my dad calls and when I get off the phone with him I almost start crying (he's 49 and has to have a heart cath and possably stints put in on Tuesday). I'm nervous about the surgery, but not THAT nervous. Geesh...I'm feeling a little more level headed now, but I hope I'm done with all that. I don't like being a mean/weepy wifey.
 
Hey girls cheers. I think just getting all of the emotions out sometimes really helps. Its like i'm weighted down and then all of a sudden all that is bearing down on me is lifted and i can breathe again, think clearly again and have renewed faith in believing that it can actually happen.

Rachel, i think that when i go back to see the fs on 29th Nov she will prob put me on clomid so i will be joining you on that roller coaster huni.

Ok girls well its officially game on now. I got my period today so cd1. I have my softcups, pre-seed, cbfm and all the other bits and bobs ready to go. I'm gonna go into this month like a fricken charging bull :haha:
 
Hey girls! So, I finally got my for real pos OPK this morning and it was major pos. I was kind of shocked, the one I took yesterday barely had a line. We BD last night and that was the first time since Thursday, so DH should have had a ton of good swimmers in there. YES YES YES!!! I've also heard that it's best to bd the day before a pos OPK. We're going to do it tonight and tomorrow too. I'm so excited!!! I know I'm just setting myself up for dissappointment, but I can't help it!
 
no no no rachel dont think like that huni its such a positive. Oh and wooooooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooo you got your pos opk :dance: great stuff hun and you had perfect timing :sex: Be excited huni i'm right there with you :hugs:
 
Rachael-very happy for you! Everything seems to be falling into place and turning positive for you! I knew you'd get another positive. So glad yourbody had time to respond to the clomid. FX for you! Have fun bd!
 
Thanks girls! I had another positive today (thought I'd just check for shits and giggles). I've NEVER had two positives in a row and it was still as dark as the test line. I guess we'll bd again tonight, just to make sure. My temp is slowly rising, so I'm anxious to see what it shows tomorrow. Oh please oh please oh please let this be my month!
 
we're right there behind ya rachel and will continue cheering you on to the finish line. :hugs:

hey heather how you getting on hun?

cd3 today ladies. Told my dh he can have the car for when he goes on his placement as long as he makes the journey back when i am o'ing......... i'm not asking much am i :devil:
 
sounds good, Laura... the least he can do is come back. ;) How's everything, Rachael?

cd7 today....not sure if we're going to "try" this month or not. My mother informed me t hat her friend wants to take my mom, me and the girls and herself and her daughterand 2 grandkids to disney world...which i guess would probly take place next summer. If I get pregnant, I won't be able to fly and I'd be due in august if i was to get preggo this cycle. Why couldn't I have gotten preggo a few months ago. I don't know what to do. I know I shouldn't let it stop me, but a free disney world trip? who knows when or if they'd be able to go again. Maybe I should just stop trying and accept and love the 2 kids I have and just let go of ttc. This is hard.
 
Hey hun i think that maybe just stop the whole temping opk'ing etc... and just have regular :sex: with your dh and see what happens? Book the trip and and just work around things as they come? Sometimes we put our lives on hold ttc but for how long?

But i also understand completely the feeling of wanting to carry on. Do what feels right for you heather. Sorry its not the best advice huni :hugs:
 
I think I agree with Laura. I think you've mentioned before that you never did any of this stuff (opk's, temping, ect) when you got pregnant before right? And maybe, you just need a month or two of just do'n it b/c you WANT to, not because you feel you HAVE to. And if that doesn't work, you can go back to the other stuff. After probably a year and a half of trying, I told myself I am no longer going to live by "if I get pregnant/if I am pregnant". There were so many things I missed out on b/c of the "what if's".

So, I'm 4DPO. Nothing really too interesting. My nips have been SO sensative since O. Like, it hurts to take a shower sensative and I noticed yesterday my boobs were really sore right by my arm pits. Weird...The only other time I had such sensative boobs was when I took my trigger shot in August. I thought it was caused by the trigger shot, but now it makes me wonder if those have been the ONLY two times I've Oed. But can you have a temp shift w/out oing? Bah, there's no sense dwelling on that I suppose. I just KNOW I Oed this month and I am so excited about that. I am having urges to POAS so badly! I know I can't. It'd be a HUGE waste of money, but I'm probably going to cave and test at 8DPO. I JUST CAN'T HELP IT!!!:dohh:
 
Hey heather i hope your ok huni :hugs:

Hey rachel, that sounds really really positive and i cant wait until your 8dpo fx you get your :bfp: i soooooo want it for you hun :friends:
 
afm cd6 and nothing of interest to report. Oh, dh decided to go pub lastminute.com and left me sitting at home alone. Sooooooo annoyed with him right now!!!!!! Guess someone will be getting the silent treatment when he gets home. I really want to be the mature one but right now i'm not a very happy bunny :growlmad:
 
Hey girls just thought i would write quick post to say hubby will be away for a week again and will be taking the computer again :( I hope heather, rachel, mirolee you all have a lovely week girls and will catch up wit you all fri.

Rachel i am keeping my fx for you hun, hope when i come back on here we see massive :bfp: from ya :hugs:

Heather i hope your keeping well huni :hugs:
 
ok, sounds good rachael...excited for you to test in a few days. FX super tight!

Laura-I hope your on good terms with dh right now. Sorry I've been kind of mia for a little while. Looking forward to next friday to catch up with you.

umm, cd10 i believe... i told hubs lastnight in a text that i'm sorry but i can't come to terms to giving up and quitting trying t o have another baby. I know we probably won't be able to afford another baby and live happily with extramoneyto do stuff. But I don't care. Love is all we need and having another baby in my arms would be the most rewarding and priceless thing that money can't buy... he never replied and tonight is his lastnight of work..so if we're going to try, it will be tomorrow cd11, cd12, cd13, cd14. I have to ask him about it and see what he thinks or wants to do. Thanks for being here girls and keeping my spirits up. I hope he agrees with me and we try again.
 
hi ladies, i am back!
vacation was lots of fun, look for pics on FB. i am planning my retirement in mexico - love the heat, the sun, and the food!
the return has been... well, you know. nothing changes here: people are still annoying, work is still work. my OH is worse than before - he had a foot specialist appt and it's looking more and more like he is going to need surgery. the man is miserable. my MIL was with him all week, which is slightly annoying, and i keep finding things around the house from her - like she hung up some fall decorations, or she bought some weirdo food that we dont eat, so now what to do with that? - you know, annoying MIL things. i just pick things up and look at him with raised question eyebrow like "wtf is this?" and then set it down and walk away. it could be worse though, so i'm trying to let the small stuff go. as for my cycle, i am 12dpo. i have had a little streaking since 10dpo. i was really excited for one day, cause my temp dipped and i had a little streak (yay! implantation dip and spotting!) but then a couple more days of spotting and today it looks like my temp is going down.... so we'll see what the next 3 days hold, but i'm pretty pissed/depressed/ and f-ing angry at the world and at my fertile bitches (i mean friends). *sigh*. will keep you all posted. very glad to be back!
PS> heather, re: to continue ttc or not, my 2 cents: i was thinking that over and over and over - still do! for ex: we are planning a family reunion in june of 2013 in VA. if i were to get preggers now (fat chance), i couldnt fly either. but meh, i was like, "it's worth not going". and last month i thought the same thing, only (obv) nothing happened. i will think it next month also. and my mom/sister want to plan our vacation for next fall to Spain, and i'm like, "oh, maybe i cant fly" in my mind, but who knows really? i just think that it will all work out how it is supposed to... so i agree with the other girls - maybe dont do opks this month but still temp, and have sex every other day, and see where it takes you. whatever you decide will be right FOR YOU! :)
 
hi again! i was wondering if anyone was on here today, and just looked and saw that mama and i posted at times close together. heather, we're with you all the way; keep us posted with your husbands response. GL to you! i hope you try again also!
 
ok, i need to vent!! before dh left for work, i was trying to talk to him (i'm kind of scared to) and he ended up making me cry. Men think so differently than us womenand keep in mind I'm the one that carries the baby in my belly and gets to feel the movement and all theother wonderful things being pregnant brings... but it makes me soo aggravated that he can't be on the same level as me and realize how actually happy another baby would be. I just mentioned how my youngest is just about 4and my kids before you know it will be grown out of the baby stage. And he had the urge to say, and then after the next baby you would want another, and another...Grrr I wanted to smack him on the face. All he said was..."Don't you like it how it is now" (with 2 kids, only and having what little money we do have extra)...I didn't get to tell him, I don't care what it costs to have another baby, I don't care if we're broke...I just want another baby in my arms to have and hold and help me forget my little boy i lost thatI should have with me here today. Thats part of what made me cry, remembering my boy...well we skipped last 4 days he had off not having sex, so i know he will want to these 4 days off. We usually only do it once, but to get the bad sperms out, we should tomorrow night and go from there. I guess i'm skipping out on everything...temping, opking....just if it happens, it happens.

Mirolee-glad you had a good time hun. I bet that was so sickening to know you're mil has been there and actually had the nerve to change stuff in your house, etc. I would've gotten rid of it, sorry. I definately would've gave the dh a raised eyebrow too, like wtf? At least she is gone now, right? Hope your temp goes back up and everything turns out positive for you.
 
women are from venus, men are from mars. they can never truly understand. my ex said something to me once as we struggled with diagnosis and infertility - along the lines of "dont you like it how it is now? you and me and the dog?" - and there was no way, impossibly just not gonna happen no way, for me to ever put into words that feeling of empty arms. still have that feeling, still waiting, but completely understand how you feel heather. many :hugs::hugs::hugs:
 
yes, i like it how it is now...but the what if's....what if my baby boy had survived...we would have 3 children right now....just because my little boy is gone, doesn't mean i have to stop to trying. Yes it also means I don't have to keep trying to have a 3rd baby but I want to....i feel so empty and my heart just is longing for one more baby, a boy preferably, but whatever god gives me, is meant to be. cd11 tomorrow....so usually get smiley cd13 or cd14 and will most likely have sex 2 of these days anyways, so no matter what i guess we will have a chance of conceiving whether dh likes it or not.
 

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