Need some buddies 1dpo, its a waiting game!

[MamaTo2Girls]

ok, just got this text from dh... "i'm still thinking bout trying again I think be nice have another one" So....maybe we will try everyday he has off. We went through this when we tried last time I got pregnant....i really wanted to try and he wasn't sure, he made me cry and i think he felt bad or it turned him on and we tried everyday and low and behold we got pregnant. Now he isn't sure, I am...making me cry again and watch i'll get pregnant this time (cycle).

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

Ok...hubs called on his break from work and made me cry again. I told him how i feel fine with just the girls and then i feel i want another. Etc..he said he would let me know in the morning with his answer. His biggest concern is money. He doesnt get paid the same amount every week its every 4 weeks it changes. He has 2 bigger pay checks in a row then the next 2 are lower. We already have a hard time getting by on the small pays. Then with a baby i need diapers.formula. medical bills.etc. ugh...decisions. am i complaining? Sorry.

 

[HWPG]

NO APOLOGIES!!! geesh, we'd all be apologizing all the time if that were the case. the whole situation is tough - ttc, taking care of a baby, raising kids, affording it - we understand. i have no reference point for cost but i still worry about it. between the emotional, physical, and financial, it's no surprise there are tears involved. it will sort itself out, heather - it seems like you and your husband have a strong relationship and good communication

 

[HWPG]

a quick post: just found out my sister is having a girl. fucking sucks. she gets one of each, i get none. she gets the first grandchild of each sex, i get fucking nothing. life sucks.

 

[HWPG]

oh, konw what would be even betterer? if i got my period today. yay.

 

[Brayr08]

I'm sorry HW!!! I totally feel ya girl! Stupid bitches anyway. ; )

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

oh mirolee...i'm so sorry. i wish i was a pregnancy fairy and could magically zap whoever to get pregnant. All you girls deserve it. Just don't ever give up! If I had no children of my own, I would surely notbe giving up and not acting like I am, going back and forth thinking about giving up ttc. I just was totally thinking about letting it go until I just saw something on fb, a pocture of a couple holding a baby in their arms that had passed away. brought back memories and makes me think, I can't give up. Well, hubby never gave me an answer....so I told him he better by this evening. Hope you have a better day Mirolee...hopefully you don't get your period today.

How are you doing/feeling Rachael?

 

[HWPG]

update on bf's ankle: torn ligaments. he'll be in this splint/cast for another 3-5 weeks (total of 6-8), then a boot for 6-8 weeks. then if he still has pain or looseness, he can have surgery (~6 month mark). it will be almost 1 year before he's back in active action. it's pretty much the worst diagnosis he could've received. so, between that and my sisters having a girl, it's been a bad day. lots of holding back tears (for us both!). lots of frustration and anger. we're both depressed. (luckily for me, i have an awesome family/sister who have all said that it just doesnt matter that Sister is having the first girl and boy in the family, that my baby will be so special and waited for when it arrives, nothing to worry about). hoping tomorrow is a better day.

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

ok so we i asked dh lastnight his decision and he said he was 51% on trying...so I came up with this... we would be having sex anyways on these 4 days he has off (not everyday)....so if it happens, it happens. We dtd lastnight after quite awhile of not, hoping there were still some good sperm in there. I snuck in some preseed before we dtd. i'm not going to opk or temp...it's killing me not to opk anyways, maybe i'll still do that and maybe just temp to confirm O and quit. I did not use softcup, we did however do it soggy like we got pregnant last time. Right when we were done I got on my back and went to sleep. I didn't lay upside down for an hr like I have before when trying to get pregnant even though thats what i did when i got regnant all my other times. We will probly skip bd tonight. Tomorrow night I will use preseed again, do it doggy and i'll go upside down that time for awhile. Hoping it works, but if it doesn't I am getting a lot better with not getting so upset. THank you all foryour support. It means a lot and if you girls weren't in my life...I'd be a wreck.

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

Mirolee-your family/sister is right. It doesnt' matter who has the first sex...it's a baby made from you and your dh. The special part is it's from you not anyone else!

 

[HWPG]

thanks for all the kind words. so very very depressed here. constantly blinking back tears (people must think i'm about to lose it at any moment (which i am)).
i like your plan heather, and i really hope it works!

 

[HWPG]

sitting at work, thinking, driving myself nuts. what it? why not? how come? it's pretty much the worst day i've had in a loooong time. and if i dont get pregnant by the time my sister's baby shower rolls around, i dont know if i can go - all the pretty clothes, the girly stuff, the baby things - i just dont think i can handle it. how do i tell her? or my mom? will they understand? i just dont know. please point me to the closest hole to crawl into for a couple weeks.

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

, these kinds of days suck but please remember...Happiness comes when we stop complaining about the troubles we have and say thanks to GOD for the toubles we don't have. (say a death sickened illness, like cancer or foreclosure on our homes or no home whatsoever from a fire or flood, etc) Please don't let all the negativity in your life ruin the person you truly are known for. You're kind, sweet, friendly, caring and when you don't let things bother you, you are so happy and really blesssed with what you do in life. I bet Mexico you were having a blast...and loving it. Congrats for you and everything you have done and haven't done...YET! Chin up.

 

[HWPG]

period is starting. awesomeness. too sad to even be sad. i'll quit posting for a while til i get my spark back.

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

sorry, i tried to help you feel better. Looking forward to hearing from you soon.

cd12 tonight...think hubs may be in the mood to do it again, maybe we will get 4 days of bding in. I already told him, if it's meant to be, it will happen....we've tried before lots of days in a row and nothing...so it won't really be any different. It's all up to God. I'll update tomorrow and let you know if anything happens/happened tonight. Hows your temps, Rachael? when are you testing? I miss Laura

 

[Brayr08]

Um, yes, hi, reservations for Pity, party of 2? (get it...pity party...)So, Mirolee, I'm right there with you girl. I haven't started my period yet (thankfully, since I'm only 8DPO), but I'm just feeling out. I have been so excited about this cycle and last night and this morning I guess reality has finally hit. I won't get pregnant. Most likely ever. It's just not going to happen. Everyone else is going to get to have their little families and I get to be the bitter old lady that never had any kids and everyone feels sorry for. I keep thinking about how awful next week is going to be when I start my period and then have to go to Thanksgiving. It's going to be so awkward and I sware if anyone says one f***ing word to me or in my hearing range about SIL being preggers, I'm leaving. I don't care if I have to walk home, I'm gone. I can't deal with it. I know that's selfish, but I really don't care. HOW IS THAT THEY GET TO GET PREGNANT ON ACCIDENT AND DH AND I HAVE TO TRY SO HARD AND WE GET NOTHING?! Even when everything is perfect (ie: over 90 million good sperm and 2-3 eggs with them actually PLACING the sperm next to the freaking egg/s) we can't get pregnant. I just think to myself, how can I go through another month of this...I can't give up, but it's just so hard, and tiring. I hate it...

Heather, I'm glad you guys decided not to give up.

Sorry I haven't been on as much lately guys. I usually get on a lot at work, but I've been training someone for the last week and a half and that makes it basically impossable to do anything like this.

 

[Brayr08]

Oh and my temps look the best they ever have, but that could just be b/c of the clomid. I havn't started spotting yet either, which is good. I'm still not super hopefull. I tested the last two days (I know, way early) and they have been BFN. I wasn't expecting much else. I'll probably waste more money and keep testing though.

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

don't give up either Rachael...I really think if you don't get a bfn, I'd be surprised actually (cuz I had hopes/a good feeling aboiut this cycle for you as well. You should really consider giving ivf or iui another shot. I really think it's your best option. I just think it was bad luck t didn't happen that time. It's almost a new year, so you will have vacation time to use or whatever so, really think about it. It will happen, it will.

going to use an opk today. I'm not temping though. we dtd again lastnight...kinda surprised. 2 more nights, maybe? that would be nice, but we will see.

SUPER big to you gals. If everything is good Rach....you seriously have just had bad luck. Your luck will turn around soon. Hopefully even though you think you're out, you're not. Keep taking the clomid, do an iui, if you seriously want a baby so bad, do whatever it takes! I would try ivf personally!

 

[Brayr08]

Thanks Heather. We'll probably do IUI's for a while yet and in January I think we're going to do the injections again. They're more expensive, but I respond really well to them. IVF is just so expensive and it takes months of preparing before you even actually get to do it and that's not even garunteed. Our FS gave us a price sheet once for it, and it will cost us between $5-7,000.00. Would a baby be worth that? They'd be worth every penny, but honestly, I don't have that kind of money just laying around. I'd unfortunetly have to put it on my medical credit card (how I paid for my boobs in 6 months). Bummer...My temps have been staying steady at 98.34 for the past 4 days. So I guess if I see an increase I'll get my hopes up and if they got down, I'll know AF is on her way.

Mirolee, I hope you're feeling better.

Heather, I'm glad you and DH are do'n it like crazy. I hope it works for you. You deserve another little one.

 

[MamaTo2Girls]

thanks, Rachael. also, your temps have to go down some at some point, they can't keep going up up up...as long as it's above coverline, it's what matters. So, how many dpo are you today? 9? when are you expecting af, or how long is your lp? I pray you get your bfp before your family gathering for thanksgiving. I know that will be rough. Your strong and sensitive, so if it bothers you, take a break... leave the room or whatever you need or want. Being emotional helps relieve what you're feeling and actually makes you feel better. FX SUPER tight for you. Good luck, hun.