Nervous about another MMC

[morgan89]

I am 7 weeks and I am impatiently waiting for my 3rd hcg results. First was 6424, second was 23347 so I don't know what to expect now. I saw the baby's heartbeat at 6 weeks 1 day (108 bpm). I just can't get over the feeling of dread waiting for the numbers. Anyone else feel this way?

 

[eva1978]

Yes, I'm with you!
I'm 5 weeks today. Had bloods taken yesterday, and the levels seem pretty high (5890 for 4w6d). So I feel slightly re-assured, but every hour of every day I think "is everything OK in there?". I won't have an ultra sound probably for another 1.5 weeks.

I'm sorry for your loss. How far along were you with your mmc? With mine I had a scan (but no bloods) at 7w2d and everything looked great. Then 2 weeks later I found out the embryo had died around the day (or day after) I had that first scan
EDIT - I see you were at the end of first trimester. Ugh, so hard... I'm so sorry

The waiting sucks but at this stage there is nothing we can really do. I'm waiting to feel sick, sore boobs... I basically have nothing like that "reassuring" me, lol.

 

[morgan89]

I got my blood results and they are 79000, which is quite a bit higher but not what I expected exactly. But so far I have had an ultrasound at 6 weeks that showed a heartbeat and my HCG is going up so I am taking that as a good sign. I do have a subchorionic haematoma but its only 2cm so I am keeping my fingers crossed that this one is sticky.

What an emotional rollercoaster!

 

[Bumblebee117]

Oh Morgan!!

It's so horrible having to worry all the time, isn't it!!? Wish we could fast forward to feeling movement!!

Feel hugged!

I saw baby yesterday but worry that the scan might have done something bad?! :/

xx

 

[morgan89]

Oh Morgan!!

It's so horrible having to worry all the time, isn't it!!? Wish we could fast forward to feeling movement!!

Feel hugged!

I saw baby yesterday but worry that the scan might have done something bad?! :/

xx

I know that feeling, I have bleeding after every ultrasound due to my haematoma. However I freak anytime I see blood, I worry what if they dislodge the clot and it brings the baby out too. My paranoia runs rampant! I swear my husband is going to cancel the internet at home so I can't google anything.

I just keep reminding myself of all the reasons its okay like my hcg keeps climbing and I saw a heartbeat soo both of those things confirm a good healthy baby. I just have such reservation since I miscarried at around 9 weeks last time.

Just have to keep my chin up and remember that there is no reason this should happen again.

 

[Bumblebee117]

Huge hug Morgan!!

I am also trying to stay positive, I think I will worry until I can feel lots of movement... So got to wait a very long time! Felt the twins at 15 weeks, but doubt a singleton will be the same. xx

 

[Spudtastic]

Yes I felt that way this pregnancy. In fact at 12 weeks I convinced myself, my husband and my midwife that I had lost the baby. The midwife fit me in for a quick appointment to see if we could hear the hb because I wanted to be prepared at the 13 week scan. I just couldn't go through that scan again to be told my baby had died.
Bit happily my midwife found a hb and I cried and she cried.

I have an anterior placenta so I didn't relax until 26 weeks when I could feel her move.

I'm sorry for your loss and I hope you can relax a bit more with this pregnancy.

 

[morgan89]

Update:

I am now 8 weeks today and things are looking up. I haven't spotted in 2 weeks and my last beta HCG was 150,000 woohoo! So as of right now I am taking it easy and looking forward to my next doctors appointment.

 

[eva1978]

Morgan89 that's wonderful! congratulations on the great results!

I have my first scan tomorrow, I'll be 6w4d. I'm quite nervous that I'll get bad news... the idea of another missed miscarriage is constantly weighing heavily on my brain. Especially today, since I've felt mostly symptom-free

When is your next appointment?

 

[morgan89]

I go tomorrow to my gp just to set me up with my ob. Hopefully I can express my worries and she will put me at ease.

 

[eva1978]

I hope your appointment goes well!
My u/s today went well (YAY!), so I'm going to contact my GP tomorrow, and see what the next steps are.