Nervous About TTC

[JasmineFrame]

Anyone else nervous about TTC? I never thought a MC would happen to me i got pregnant with my son so easily and had a very normal pregnancy with him so my MC in August just kinda rocked my world emotionally. I thought for a few weeks i didnt even want to try again i think its just that im so nervous that im scared. I am seeing a therapist which has helped and i am emotionally ok with the loss but i think i was to get pregnant the first 12 weeks of would be so hard on me since we dont get an ultra sound until 12 weeks

 

[Rei]

I'm really nervous about TTC. I got pregnant back in february, was diagnosed with a blighted ovum in march and started hemorrhaging in april which thank goodness started while I was going to a follow up appointment so my doctor was able to take care of it asap. However, I then proceeded to bleed until june when my doctor finally did a D&C. It was the scariest, most emotional draining experience of my life.
I am so worried about the possibility of this happening again but it's not stopping me from TTC. This is the month my baby would be due T_T so I've been a little more emotional this month than most. I feel like I should be making plans for for when the baby gets here, not TTC.

 

[lilmisscaviar]

I am with you there. After three back to back losses I am so worried I may miscarry again. Both of your stories made a tear come to my eye. I think miscarriages are Mother Nature's worst jokes. She gives us a baby and then in the blink of an eye, it is gone. I've sadly had 3 back to back. My first was in September of last year, my second in February of this year and then again in July of this year.

The first one I feel was my fault. I took the MAP since we weren't planning on getting pregnant. Well I became pregnant anyway despite the MAP trying to delay my ovulation and it also thinned out my uterine lining, which my doctor believed made the embryo not implant correctly. I opted for a D&C because I didn't want to "see" everything pass. With my second I had an infection I didn't know about after getting a D&C with my first and I had to get my second D&C within a year in order to "clean" everything out. Then my third my doctor thinks it was too close to my second D&C and I didn't give my uterine lining time to build up (she never did tell me how long to wait). I went natural with the last one because I didn't want to have another surgery.

I will never forget those ultrasounds I had being told that my baby didn't have a heartbeat. It crushed my world. I guess the only thing that keeps me going is that I want that third baby that I've had in my clutches 3 times only to lose.

 

[Rei]

I'm so sorry that happened to you lilmisscavier, I think I would be crushed if I had three back to back. I remember being so excited to see my little baby for the first time on the ultrasound and being so devastated when all you see is an empty sac. It literally looks like a black hole. I can't imagine that happening three times back to back to me.
I have my fingers crossed that you have a successful pregnancy soon.

 

[MeggyBaby]

I just finished passing a chemical pregnancy and my husband didn't take the news very well he was all excited and I showed him the tests and I said don't get your hopes up I am also suffering from hypothyroidism but have normal cycles so idk if it was just a random act of nature and nervous to try again just for this to happen again idk what to do

 

[fairycat]

I am both nervous and excited. I'm not ready for another mc, I wasn't ready for the first one either. Life is so cruel sometimes. My main concern is the baby won't develop properly again. All I had was a ball of tissue, nothing resembling a baby. I'm going to be a scared wreck until I see a normal ultrasound with a heartbeat.

 

[JasmineFrame]

I will say a little prayer for you Fairycat, you can private message me if you ever wanna talk im here for you!

 

[fairycat]

Thanks Jasmine! Feel free to do so too