Not a happy bunny today!

[pixielou]

Well the got me on Friday morning took the day off work as I felt like poo! So... strated back on the clomid for the 6th and last round! took it yesterday afternoon and now feel so rubbish. I realy want to stop it but not sure if hospital would freak! I spent the night in hot sweats and woke up this morning feeling and very tearful then DH said 'Your not a happy bunny today, whats wrong' and I burst into tears. I just feel miserable on things, I know i only have 4days left but they are driving me crazy. I just really hate taking tablets and next I will be trying IUI I'm soooo nervous don't know what to do?

Just feel so fed up with the whole thing, went to a bbq yesterday and loads of children running around playing, I was just mesmerized by them. Felt a bit left out being 35 and no children and most of the other mums seem to be under 25. Soz for the moan but I'm tired from it all and it all seems so so unfair. They have given me 6 months of clomid and they just don't want to investigate further to see whats really going on inside, I think this is so irresponsible of the NHS to give you tablets for everything but not get to the root of the problem. I will see my GP next week and try to get referal to Gyno. Just not sure whether this is possible as I'm under fertility clinic?

 

[maz]

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time. I know what you mean about wondering if the NHS is irresponsible just prescribing clomid. It's nearly as though they want to be seen to be doing something without actually doing anything at all...

I have pretty much given up on the NHS - we have unexplained infertility and are now very close to starting IVF privately, as the waiting list for treatment with NHS is at least 13 months, and the wait is driving us mad. Now that we are very close, the pressure seems to be off, but I know that once we get started with medications, etc the pressure will well and truly be on again.

If you have a good relationship with your GP, why not ask to be referred elsewhere if that is possible. Your GP should have a copy of everything the hospital has done so it shouldn't be too difficult for him to forward them on with a referral letter.

I hope you start feeling better soon hun.

xx

 

[pixielou]

Thanks maz! do you think it's as easy as just being refers elsewhere, would that mean that they have to transfer me to a different hospital? Cos this one is in my area?

 

[pixielou]

Oops, hope yr IVF goes well, keep me posted!

 

[Arcanegirl]

I hate how the NHS just throw tablets at you, they almost did it to me from incomplete bloodword (instead of checking properly wanted to give me clomid)
I questioned it and saw another doctor who agreed i shouldnt have been given them and from then on i got all the investigations done and the bloodwork completed.

 

[CurlySue]

I know what you mean, love, it's all so hard.

I am wondering what will come of my next appointment. My GP mentioned that I have backwards hormones. With such long cycles i think I need Clomid only to give me more of a chance. I know that I ovulate sometimes. I also know that sometimes I don't.

I would just like to have a fair shot at this and I don't think that I do have.

IUI might be the way to go for you. Only one more month for you.

Chin up.

 

[vickie83]

Hope you're soon feeling better Pixie

 

[pixielou]

Thanks ladies trying to keep positive!

 

[Helen_26]

 

[genkigemini]

Hi Honey!

I am on cd1 today so we are almost cycle buddies and this is my last round of Clomid too.

Let's be positive! We will both get our 's this month!

 

[Millnsy]

Hi Pixie

So sorry you are having such a hard time and we all sympathise! What dose are you on with Clomid? They doubled mine this month to 100mg and have already told me if I haven't OV'ed this time then they are taking me off it and we are on to IUI as well. IT certainly sounds like you haven't been monitored as closely as you should be on the Clomid, you should have been having regular scans as well to actually see if it has been working, have you been getting that?

Sorry if I'm asking stupid questions. Try and stay positive (I know how hard that can be!), at least you are in the system and something is happening, this month could be your month and you may not even need the IUI (Thats what I'm trying to tell myself any way).

Hope the week gets better...

M xxx

 

[maz]

Thanks maz! do you think it's as easy as just being refers elsewhere, would that mean that they have to transfer me to a different hospital? Cos this one is in my area?

I'm not sure - it may be worth asking. What I did before i went to my GP to ask for a referral, was to phone all the hospitals within an hour's drive of us, and ask them directly what their waiting time was and also what tests they could do. I decided to go to the hospital with the shortest waiting time, even though they would only be able to do the investigations and prescribe clomid. I then had to be referred to the regional fertility centre which is the only hospital in NI that has funding for IVF - I still feel as though this was a quicker route for us. Would it be really awkward for you to go to a different hospital?

What you might also find is that even if you stay at the same hospital you may well see someone different next time - I was at the initial hospital 3 times and saw 3 different doctors.

Hope this helps.

 

[pixielou]

Hi Honey!

I am on cd1 today so we are almost cycle buddies and this is my last round of Clomid too.

Let's be positive! We will both get our 's this month!

oohh! Thats cool, hun! We'll be cycle buddies. Hows it all going with you?
I'm having such hot flushes with this round and finding it really hard to sleep!

 

[pixielou]

Hi Pixie

So sorry you are having such a hard time and we all sympathise! What dose are you on with Clomid? They doubled mine this month to 100mg and have already told me if I haven't OV'ed this time then they are taking me off it and we are on to IUI as well. IT certainly sounds like you haven't been monitored as closely as you should be on the Clomid, you should have been having regular scans as well to actually see if it has been working, have you been getting that?

Sorry if I'm asking stupid questions. Try and stay positive (I know how hard that can be!), at least you are in the system and something is happening, this month could be your month and you may not even need the IUI (Thats what I'm trying to tell myself any way).

Hope the week gets better...

M xxx

Awww, thanks Millnsy!

Yep, they are monitoring me and I know I'm producing good sized follicles and having hcg which should release it!

I'm on 100mg!

X

 

[pixielou]

Thanks maz! do you think it's as easy as just being refers elsewhere, would that mean that they have to transfer me to a different hospital? Cos this one is in my area?

I'm not sure - it may be worth asking. What I did before i went to my GP to ask for a referral, was to phone all the hospitals within an hour's drive of us, and ask them directly what their waiting time was and also what tests they could do. I decided to go to the hospital with the shortest waiting time, even though they would only be able to do the investigations and prescribe clomid. I then had to be referred to the regional fertility centre which is the only hospital in NI that has funding for IVF - I still feel as though this was a quicker route for us. Would it be really awkward for you to go to a different hospital?

What you might also find is that even if you stay at the same hospital you may well see someone different next time - I was at the initial hospital 3 times and saw 3 different doctors.

Hope this helps.

Thanks Maz!

Just not sure, I'm quite worried that if I get transfered then I will wait etc or they won't do IUI or IVF so in that respect my hospital is good. It's just that I want further investigations done. Maybe they can refer me to a gyno outside of the clinic through NHS and still be under the same consultant?

oh it's all so confusing!

 

[maz]

It's certainly not easy is it? And the NHS doesn't exactly make it any easier - I sometimes think the lack of communication and the waiting just adds to the confusion and anxiety...

Good luck for this cycle - hopefully you won't need to worry about other tests ...