Not a happy bunny!

[pixielou]

Hi all,

just wanted to have a moan as I had a poo weekend turning into a poo Monday!

It all started with a call on Friday morning with the hospital asking me if I was there in the morning for my operation which they said was at 8:45am but my letter said 12:30pm for my lap & dye. So that appointment was messed up and has now been resheduled for 12th Dec. I was a bit apprehensive about having it done anyway as AF had not started! Then Friday night it started which really peed me off I could have had it done after all if hospital wouldn't have sent me a letter with the wrong time on it!!

Then... next door neighbour had a beautiful baby boy and yes at of course I'm happy for her but feel unhappy that we have been ttc for 18months now etc etc. Saw the baby the other day and he is soooooo gorgeous I felt sooo broody.

THEN!! I drive all the way to my office(I'm in sales and normally work from home) which is an hour away to be told that I have been made redundant! Feel like shit AND on top of that two of the other sales girls that have been made redundant are pregnant!!

I was crying not because I lost job but beacuse I feel so low about this situation! I feel so guilty also that I feel jealous of these lovely ladies and sooo happy for them at the same time. I'm so confused and feel like I can't talk to anyone at the moment as they are either to close to me and I don't want to upset them or want them to know my private life! I'm so sorry for this but feel guilty, helpless and peed off toady I know that tomorrow is another day and that I will hopefully find job etc but can't help the way I feel at the moment.

Does anyone ever feel this way?

 

[HAYS]

Aw chick, i get days like this too, so sorry to hear about your job, and finding out that other people are pregnant always upsets me, as well as me feeling happy.

So is the lap & dye still for the 12th?xx

 

[Coffee]

Oh you poor bunny! That sounds like the poo-est of all poos of a weekend and start to the week. I had one of those weeks recently, and you just want to scream at someone "how am i supposed to cope with so much SH** all at the same time??!!" but then you know you have to keep your emotions in check and pretend like you're ok, when you really aren't. Its a horrible feeling and i know how frustrating it is.
Vent on here! Friends are on here to talk to! Don't ever feel like you don't have anyone to talk to. We've all been through tough times on this journey - that's why we're all posting in this section and not the ttc section!
The only advice i have is go and hug your OH! When i'm down i always give my DH a big cuddle and remind myself life isn't as bad as i think it is, at least i still have a wonderful man at my side!
Take care

 

[Helen_26]

So sorry to hear that you have had a really crappy time hun.

 

[BigFoot1980]

sorry that your having a rough time at the moment pixielou, I hope everything in ur life gets fixed really soon.
As for the jealousy thing, i completely understand. Its a mixed emotions. I feel like that all the time. Its not that i don't want the other person to be happy, its just that I want that happiness too. So don't feel bad about that.


So Good Luck with everything that ur going through at the moment.

 

[miel]

 

[hayz1981]

Sorry you're having a tough time. That's horrible about your job. We've got the threat of redundancy at my work at the moment so every day I come in worried right now. It's such a rubbish time for people at work right now. Hope you find another job quickly.

I know totally how you feel about other girls getting pregnant. I just found out one of my friends girlfriends is pregnant. I have no idea whether they had been trying long or not, but I suspect they hadn't, and it's really upset me. I know I should just be happy for them but it's hard sometimes. I'm just so jealous - even though I tell myself I shouldn't be. Sometimes I just see people with babies in the supermarket or in town and it just reminds me of what I don't have yet.

Lots of to you. Stay strong. Wishing you lots of

xxx

 

[Millnsy]

Hi Pixilou

So sorry to hear that things are rough for you. REdundancy is a shitter when it happens but it will get better. When it happened to me it helped my kick start my career and find a better job that I much preferred in the end! I hope they've treated you will in terms of notice and if they have, just enjoy some time out over Christmas so that you can relax after the lap - I was a bit sore for a couple of weeks so you might need it. You can start again in the new year hopefully feeling more positive about everything!

Hope this isn't crass advice - things will get better -and just think, at least you can drink as much wine to drown your sorrows as you want!

M x

 

[CareBear]

I'm so sorry you're having a rubbish time, I get really upset when I hear people are pregnant, some of the TTC journals I follow have recently had pregnancy annoucements and I've just wanted to cry even though I am happy for them, so I think we all have felt the same as you at some point.

 

[Trying4ever]

Sorry to hear about your job...really bad timing.

 

[pixielou]

Aw chick, i get days like this too, so sorry to hear about your job, and finding out that other people are pregnant always upsets me, as well as me feeling happy.

So is the lap & dye still for the 12th?xx

Yep, lets hope they don't mess up date again.

 

[pixielou]

Oh you poor bunny! That sounds like the poo-est of all poos of a weekend and start to the week. I had one of those weeks recently, and you just want to scream at someone "how am i supposed to cope with so much SH** all at the same time??!!" but then you know you have to keep your emotions in check and pretend like you're ok, when you really aren't. Its a horrible feeling and i know how frustrating it is.
Vent on here! Friends are on here to talk to! Don't ever feel like you don't have anyone to talk to. We've all been through tough times on this journey - that's why we're all posting in this section and not the ttc section!
The only advice i have is go and hug your OH! When i'm down i always give my DH a big cuddle and remind myself life isn't as bad as i think it is, at least i still have a wonderful man at my side!
Take care

Thanks coffee! I will take your advice and do that. Yep OH is great!

 

[pixielou]

Sorry you're having a tough time. That's horrible about your job. We've got the threat of redundancy at my work at the moment so every day I come in worried right now. It's such a rubbish time for people at work right now. Hope you find another job quickly.

I know totally how you feel about other girls getting pregnant. I just found out one of my friends girlfriends is pregnant. I have no idea whether they had been trying long or not, but I suspect they hadn't, and it's really upset me. I know I should just be happy for them but it's hard sometimes. I'm just so jealous - even though I tell myself I shouldn't be. Sometimes I just see people with babies in the supermarket or in town and it just reminds me of what I don't have yet.

Lots of to you. Stay strong. Wishing you lots of

xxx

Cheers for that! Yep gotta stay strong!

 

[pixielou]

Hi Pixilou

So sorry to hear that things are rough for you. REdundancy is a shitter when it happens but it will get better. When it happened to me it helped my kick start my career and find a better job that I much preferred in the end! I hope they've treated you will in terms of notice and if they have, just enjoy some time out over Christmas so that you can relax after the lap - I was a bit sore for a couple of weeks so you might need it. You can start again in the new year hopefully feeling more positive about everything!

Hope this isn't crass advice - things will get better -and just think, at least you can drink as much wine to drown your sorrows as you want!

M x

Lol, yep that will be good as you say to relax and have a festive drink!

 

[pixielou]

Cheers ladies fro all your support, feel much better today as I had a bit of a cry etc about it on monday and now over it plus went to Blue Water today to do some Xmas shopping with hubby which cheered me up!
XXX