browneyedchik
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As a mother of 2 and one on the way, ofcourse I want what's best for my kids. How do I know what medical textbook or NHS protocol is best when my gut instinct says otherwise?
I had a textbook pregnancy with my little girl, everything was perfect. My next pregnancy and delivery was completely opposite. When I deloped Obstetric cholestasis at 35 weeks and was told that I had a small risk of stillbirth if I chose to go full term, of course I wanted to ensure a 100% chance for my son. However, I was very torn. Something just didn't feel right about the whole thing and I felt like my baby was going to be ripped out of me when it wasn't ready. When neither he, nor I wanted it. Sentimental billab*t aside, even the day I went in for an induction at 37 weeks, I was ready to change my mind and spoke with the consultant. He told me they did not know that much about the condition and the induction was standard proceedure that 90% of patients with OC agreed to.
To make a long story short (too late) I gave the bureaucracy of medical practice the benefit of the doubt (as most concerned parents would) and went ahead with an induction which left me in utter agony, and almost cost my son's life. When the synthetic contractions broke my waters, since the baby wasn't ready or in position to come out, the cord prolapsed and my son's head came down on it, depriving him of oxygen. I could see his heart rate going down from 160 to 30 before I was surrounded by people wheeling me into theatre for an emergency c-section via general anesthesia (which I actively tried to refuse as I was terrified and everything was happening do fast). The next thing I knew someone was handing me this baby. I knew he was mine and was thankful he was alive, but he could have been any one's. It took over a year for me to come to terms with it. Even though logic and reason dictated that this was my baby, I could not bond, instinctively. This caused months of guilt and depression.
Now I'm pregnant with my 3rd and dreading OC as I will not go through with another induction.
I would also like to know if anyone else went full term with it. Thank you.
I had a textbook pregnancy with my little girl, everything was perfect. My next pregnancy and delivery was completely opposite. When I deloped Obstetric cholestasis at 35 weeks and was told that I had a small risk of stillbirth if I chose to go full term, of course I wanted to ensure a 100% chance for my son. However, I was very torn. Something just didn't feel right about the whole thing and I felt like my baby was going to be ripped out of me when it wasn't ready. When neither he, nor I wanted it. Sentimental billab*t aside, even the day I went in for an induction at 37 weeks, I was ready to change my mind and spoke with the consultant. He told me they did not know that much about the condition and the induction was standard proceedure that 90% of patients with OC agreed to.
To make a long story short (too late) I gave the bureaucracy of medical practice the benefit of the doubt (as most concerned parents would) and went ahead with an induction which left me in utter agony, and almost cost my son's life. When the synthetic contractions broke my waters, since the baby wasn't ready or in position to come out, the cord prolapsed and my son's head came down on it, depriving him of oxygen. I could see his heart rate going down from 160 to 30 before I was surrounded by people wheeling me into theatre for an emergency c-section via general anesthesia (which I actively tried to refuse as I was terrified and everything was happening do fast). The next thing I knew someone was handing me this baby. I knew he was mine and was thankful he was alive, but he could have been any one's. It took over a year for me to come to terms with it. Even though logic and reason dictated that this was my baby, I could not bond, instinctively. This caused months of guilt and depression.
Now I'm pregnant with my 3rd and dreading OC as I will not go through with another induction.
I would also like to know if anyone else went full term with it. Thank you.