On the road again graduates

[Left wonderin]

Topanga great to hear from you wow your back to work already life must be hectic !!! I'm still finding my feet being a mammy ! I'm not due back to work till August , you get 26 weeks paid leave here . I know we are very lucky but when I have to go back ill be ready . I don't think I'd make a very good full time stay at home mum I need a balance of both so I'm going back working a 4 day week .

And I know EXACTLY how you feel about being jealous of pg women ! I'm even jealous of those trying to concieve. I ne'er thought I'd say this but I miss being pregnant ! I remember when I was pregnant others saying it after having their babies and thinking " they must be mad " but its a feeling that kinda just happens .... Lauren is just beautiful and what amazing eyes she has . I cannot believe Sean is 7 weeks old already the weeks just fly by . Here he is today .

 

[Left wonderin]

Oops forgt the photo lol

 

[rayraykay]

Nice to hear from you Topanga! Lauren is absolutely beautiful! Love her dark hair and eyes.

I can't believe Sean is 7 weeks! He is gorgeous by the way. So cute. Or Lauren is 10 weeks! Insanity!!!!

I have to go back to work April 22nd. I have Fridays off and get to ease back into work part time but... I am really dreading it. We will see how it goes. My husband says me staying home until Sloane is around a year isn't out of the question. Ideally I would like to find a true part time job. We will see. Here is a picture of Sloane I took over the weekend

How is everyone's monday going?

 

[RedWylder]

Cary! I am so sorry to see you go especially since my rainbow news was more than likely a part of it. Thank you so much for all your support throughout both my pregnancy and TTC. Your a wonderful person and I wish you the best. I hope you find that you are able to relax a bit over the summer and maybe your rainbow will find you then.

My birth story is nearly written. I've taken the time to write out most everything I can remember and it's probably a good thing because it's already getting fuzzy. When I delivered Piper I was so dang relieved that it was over and thought that I would never do it again...but now the bad parts are already fading and I'm left with just my little rainbow girl that made it all worth it. I've got both photos of the birth and the story and when it's done, I'll share if you'd like.

As for all of your lovely rainbows- they are so beautiful, each and everyone of them.

As for the jealousy...haven't felt it yet, but I know it's coming. I missed my belly almost as soon as it was gone. I felt so beautiful and full of life (when I wasn't in pain) while pregnant.

 

[Starry Night]

Aw, such cute babies!! Topanga, good to hear from you! Glad you are happy to be back at work.

red - I'd love to read your birth story. Even though the memories start to get fuzzy there will be moments that stick with you forever.

I was crazy doped up from the drugs with my c-section and I still remember DH approaching the bed with this little bundle in his arms saying "someone here wants to meet you". I'll never forget looking into his face for the first time. I didn't feel that instant love but I knew he was mine and that I was going to like him. He seemed neat. lol

 

[rayraykay]

ahhhh please share your story Red!!

I have almost fully forgotten the bad parts of giving birth. Right after Sloane came I was SO HAPPY to be done being pregnant and was even thinking "hmm... maybe I don't wanna do that again and my rainbow baby is enough.." Now I can't imagine not having one more and getting to experience pregnancy again. I miss being pregnant sometimes for sure! No matter how much I love having Sloane here!

 

[skyesmom]

awwww ladies! so so good to read all your news!!

Topanga, Lauren is so sweet! and so cute with her dark hair, and you and OH looks o blessed! also, you're a trooper for going back to work already! here in EU you can get a year off to spread between both partners and i can't imagine going back to work that early if i were working in a company. luckily i'm self employed so such thing as a full on maternity leave doesn't really exist TECHNICALLY, but still, the state WILL support you for the same amount of time if needed.

Left! When did 7 weeks go???? Sean is so so beautiful (lol, turned my laptop upside down to check him out!)

...and Rayray Sloane is so so cute and she grew so big!!! and still with her full head of hair like at birth!

Can't wait to read your birth story Red and see more pics! post post post!

...and Starry now you're continuing with the cooking and i can't wait to see that rainbow appear!

...and even if this tread eventually dies out, and i don't get my rainbow soon or well, if they decide to come after Starry's lil princess is here, i promise i'll update you when they're on the way!

 

[Left wonderin]

Eh no talk of the thread dying ! Updates till at least everyone's first birthday including yours Red I'm dying to read your birth story and what a beautiful girl Sloane is , she will break hearts for sure . I hear ya all about missing being pg and wanting to do it all again funny how you forget just how miserable you were at stages during the process .

 

[Topanga053]

I love all of the pictures!! So nice to see Sloane and Sean!

Left, I'm with you in that I don't think I'd make a very good SAHM. I enjoyed maternity leave more than I thought I would (I really thought I was going to be tremendously bored) and there were definitely some days I cried hysterically at the thought of going back to work. The first day of daycare was awful (I bawled my eyes out leaving her), but once I got to work, I was fine. Now it just feels great to be in a permanent routine. I always feel like a bad mom when other people ask if I'm having a hard time with the separation because they did, and I say that nope, I'm happy to be back at work! I love the balance of work (the stress, the intellectual stimulation, the sense of doing something I love that's making a difference in the world, etc) with the balance of family (coming home to DH and Lauren, snuggling in together on the weekends, etc). I really do need both in my life. I think I just struggle sometimes because even if I'm a working mom, I feel that I need to be sad about it in order to be a good mom. But I'm not. I'm really, really happy to be back at work. I just feel like I hear so few working moms talking about being happy at work, so I feel like I'm betraying Lauren somehow. Lol I need to get over that! She loves daycare, I love work, and then we have great snuggles at night!

And I'm so glad I'm not the only one who misses being pregnant! I couldn't believe it when I started feeling that way!!

Red- I can't wait to hear your birth story!!

Starry- how are things going with you??

 

[Left wonderin]

Well put Topanga , I have said long before I got pg that I would make a terrible SAHM , everyone said ah you will feel differently if you have a baby . I now have the baby and don't feel different . I know exactly how you feel about feeling you should feel bad but don't . It doesn't make us bad mums just honest ones I know a couple of people in work who are also honest about needing the balance . If I didn't have it I'd be a unhappy mummy and Sean would be an unhappy child . I think getting the balance is important and having priority right. Family comes first when needed to no question but I'm happy doing both.

 

[Starry Night]

I would be the type who would be miserable if I had to be anything but a SAHM...at least while the kiddies aren't in school yet. I am insanely jealous and want to be the one to do everything for baby and see all his (and her!) firsts.

Anyways.....this sums up how I'm feeling right now: . The pain and discomfort caused by the end of pregnancy is really starting to catch up with me. Baby has been sitting low this entire time but now she's big enough that I think she's just pinching off EVERYTHING. Yesterday, I could hardly walk due to nerve pain. I know I'm whining, but I am just miserable. She has moved slightly so I can now limp to the washroom without feeling like I am about to buckle or have to hold on to the wall. I am trying to make jokes when I can to keep things light but it is tough right now. I keep thinking "I still have a month and a half of this..."

 

[skyesmom]

oh Starry!! you're a trooper like every single lady in here!! the end of pregnancy seems to be a really rough time, and some "whining" as you say is NECESSARY i find. people need to get things off their hearts at least (until the "things" grow big and strong and impatient enough to get off your cervix and come into the world!!!).. the absolute gratitude of carrying a healthy rainbow doesn't take the physical challenges away unfortunately, otherwise you all ladies could have slept through a childbirth

but only 6 weeks left!! eeeek!!!

regarding working/SAHM mommies... i'm a workaholic. i was even more of it before i met OH and well allowed myself to have a proper relationship that demanded my time and devotion. working for 18-20h a day for aaaaages was normal. so i kinda tend to exaggerate, especially when i was single. when OH came into my life, it got better but still i just can't sit still. vacations bore me out.

...and that's why i am so so happy to become a mom eventually. i need to balance it out. and this is also the main reason why i wouldn't try the SAHM thing... not because i find it not fulfilling enough.. but for the sakes of my LO who would end up having an obsessive overwhelming perfectionist mom to cloud and hover over them like crazy! (and OH couldn't agree more!)

so as far as i'm concerned.. i'll defo allow myself some lazy time with my baby when they're finally here... but will go back to work at some point. being a freelancer it doesn't really mean a strict cut or a strict start. ahhh daydreaming!! come baby come!!!

 

[Left wonderin]

Sky you have a lovely way with words and your baby is on the way of that I'm sure

 

[Left wonderin]

I'm sorry to ask but you don't have any details on your signature sky . When was your mc ?

 

[Starry Night]

Feeling a bit better today. Baby is more active again too which also helps my mental state. It's hard to be cheerful in the face of physical pain when you're worried about the baby.

I might try making some Easter bread before the weekend. Every recipe I find makes A TON but I think you can freeze it for awhile. I've never made it before and I'm not the most domestic SAHM so hopefully it turns out! I spoiled my last dessert attempt so we'll see. lol

 

[Left wonderin]

Starry what is Easter Bread I ne'er hard of it ? I'm going to make coffee sponge cakes with fresh cream and coffee icing

 

[Starry Night]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paska_(bread)

https://2.bp.blogspot.com/_GKXvEAj1d8k/Sa7nB8umisI/AAAAAAAAYWg/fEhYXGfy7qw/s1600-h/paska+and+spring.jpg

It's been a traditional Easter treat but I've never made it before. It also makes A LOT and I'm not savvy enough to cut down the ingredients at the correct ratio. I'm trying to decide if I'm willing to have months' worth of paska in my freezer. I usually only eat it at Easter.

 

[Left wonderin]

Wow never heard of it . Is it sweet or savoury ?

 

[Starry Night]

It's sweet but just how sweet depends on the recipe and the baker, I suppose. Our neighbour gave us a small loaf the other day and she put raisins in it and it was very soft and sweet. But my MiL sent us some and it was dry and just kinda blah. I do like to make a sweetened spread (butter, sugar and vanilla) to spread on the slices. It's not healthy in ANY way.

Anyways, I decided against making it. It looks fairly easy instruction-wise but it would seem it would take all day to do between dough rising and baking the various batches. And I DON'T want to have months' worth. But mainly I'm just really tired and lazy these days. I don't even have the energy to make proper meals anymore. I'm just going to do some cupcakes with a cake mix. Good enough. lol

And I'm being such a hypochondriac. I keep scaring myself that I have a blood clot in my leg which would be serious. I have this pain in my leg and DH was rubbing it the other day and felt a small lump. However, it's been sore for weeks and weeks so if it were a clot I figure I'd be dead now. My guess it's actually a sore tendon and some pinched nerves as the pain is rather mild and comes and goes. I just like to imagine the worst.

 

[Left wonderin]

Lol near the end of my pg I had myself having symptoms of rare blood disorders , skin disorders which harm the fetus , everything including the plague lol..... The near you get to the end I think the more you worry !! Its so hard not to . Hang in their Starry nearly there