Over 35 ttc#2 for over a year

[captainj1]

hi girls!

Good to hear everyone's news. Hinky i hope all the jiggy has had the right impact...!

I had my teach-in today for my meds. I am expecting AF to arrive on Thursday. I had really gone for it in March around O time hoping and praying for a last minute natural BFP but did a HPT this morning before my appointment and it was a BFN.....so here we go...

So i have all my meds waiting and my sheet of doses - i'm on the antagonist protocol so am doing jabs of 300iu of Gonal-F from CD2 and will be adding 2 more jabs on CD7 (0.25mg of Cetrotide and 75iu of Luveris). Should finish stimming (get me, can you tell I've been on the assisted conception boards?!) on around CD12-14 then do my trigger for ER (egg retrieval). So probably ER on around 24 April and hoping for a day-5 blasto transfer of 2 blastos, which if it works could result in a singleton or twins, a risk we are willing to take.

I have to go to London for ER and egg transfer as they might need to do assisted hatching if my egg shells are thick and they can't do assisted hatching up here. Bit of a pain as DH will have to come to ER too as he will need to do his stuff, so we will need to find someone to mind DS overnight as ER is very early in the morning. I'll probably have to go down on my own for egg transfer even though it says not to travel home on your own....ah well.

Wish me luck! will let you know when AF starts and I'm all systems go. Not looking forward to the injections and kind of sad that we weren't able to do it naturally, but also excited and apprehensive for the next few weeks. We will know by around 10th May if it has worked or not so at least it is a short cycle...x

 

[starlight2801]

Popping out of my hiding (lurking) place to wish you all the luck in the world Captain x

Looking forward to your updates on how things are progressing and hopeful for at least one sticky bean for you.

Take care x

 

[captainj1]

Thanks girls! AF arrived today so I will start with the gonal-f on Monday.... X

 

[hinkybinky]

Hi everyone. I've been taking a bit of a break from here after a particularly disappointing BFN this month. Don't know why it hit me so hard but I find some months it's just harder to cope than others. I'm trying to take the pressure off myself a bit, as I seem to have accidentally redefined my entire life as a quest for a baby, and have forgotten about all the other things that could make me happy in the meantime. Bah. Am trying to reframe my thoughts so that I am living for today a little bit more instead of wishing most of the month away.

Just popping on to find out how you're doing Captain. Are you still on schedule for your ER? Hope your injections have been going ok and that the ER procedure is not too bad.

Thinking of you xxx

 

[captainj1]

hi hinky, lovely to hear from you. I'm sorry you had a BFN - i know how you feel as I was really hoping we would get there naturally in March and finally accepting that the IVF would be going ahead was a sad moment for me and DH.

That said, I'm now getting towards the end of the process, i'm doing 3 jabs a day at the moment and everything is looking good in terms of the number and size of follicles. I have another scan tomorrow and they will hopefully confirm ER for Friday and then ET hopefully 5 days later. I'm trying to stay positive, if it works it will be amazing! everything looked good on the scan except for a little bit of fluid in my uterus which they are going to keep an eye on and avoid putting the eggs near it on ET if it is still there, as it could prevent implantation.

The jabs have got harder as the days have gone on, the needles seem to get thicker every night

Hinky when is your appointment with the recurring miscarriage expert?

I know what you mean about trying to keep perspective. I feel so blessed to have DS and he is amazing at the moment, so much fun and so chatty and bossy (in a nice way - come and do this mummy! wanna race mummy? let's do jigsaws mummy!etc). As much as we are praying for another, I'm really glad I can give him all my attention right now.

 

[hinkybinky]

hi hinky, lovely to hear from you. I'm sorry you had a BFN - i know how you feel as I was really hoping we would get there naturally in March and finally accepting that the IVF would be going ahead was a sad moment for me and DH.

That said, I'm now getting towards the end of the process, i'm doing 3 jabs a day at the moment and everything is looking good in terms of the number and size of follicles. I have another scan tomorrow and they will hopefully confirm ER for Friday and then ET hopefully 5 days later. I'm trying to stay positive, if it works it will be amazing! everything looked good on the scan except for a little bit of fluid in my uterus which they are going to keep an eye on and avoid putting the eggs near it on ET if it is still there, as it could prevent implantation.

The jabs have got harder as the days have gone on, the needles seem to get thicker every night

Hinky when is your appointment with the recurring miscarriage expert?

I know what you mean about trying to keep perspective. I feel so blessed to have DS and he is amazing at the moment, so much fun and so chatty and bossy (in a nice way - come and do this mummy! wanna race mummy? let's do jigsaws mummy!etc). As much as we are praying for another, I'm really glad I can give him all my attention right now.

Ooh, sounds like it's all going well so far, can't wait to hear how it goes with the retrieval and transfer. Did you finally decide on transferring two if it's possible? Have everything crossed for you, :dust

My next appt is end of June - I complained about the doctor I saw, and managed to get my next appt changed so it's definitely with the specialist now instead of that awful woman! Have been told to report any pregnancy immediately.

I did manage to get hold of my blood results, although I haven't had the general fertility / thyroid ones done yet. To the untrained eye, the results I've got look ok, all within the given parameters, so I am not overly hopeful they'll be able to do very much for me, apart from close monitoring and extra scans for reassurance. At that point I suppose we'll decide whether to try and get referred to one of the clinics that do more in-depth testing and try out pioneering treatments.

In the meantime, we've gone back to ntnp, for our sanity!

Bit more for you, Captain. Best of luck xxx

 

[captainj1]

thanks hinky! second scan this morning, and all still on track, the fluid seems to have gone and their are 'loads' of large follicles so they are hopefully of getting lots of eggs on Friday. Will b giving myself my last stims tonight plus my trigger shot (so 4 injections in total - eek!) and then heading down to London tomorrow night...

x

 

[hinkybinky]

Only just seen this today, Captain... thanks for the update, hope it all went well yesterday. So, is it Wed for your transfer? Do you know what the success rate is after that? Will keep my fingers tightly crossed; it just HAS to be your turn after all the waiting

 

[captainj1]

Hi hon! Well they retrieved 16 eggs yesterday and they called today to say 14 have fertilised (on their own, we didn't need ICSI as DH's swimmers were excellent). They are going to give us daily updates from now on but the embryologist was hopeful that we will get to day 5 and be able to do a blasto transfer - we are going to transfer 2 assuming there are 2 available. Lots could fall away by then but I'm keeping everything crossed (especially legs as I'm trying to hold in my progesterone gel...!)
X

 

[hinkybinky]

Hi hon! Well they retrieved 16 eggs yesterday and they called today to say 14 have fertilised (on their own, we didn't need ICSI as DH's swimmers were excellent). They are going to give us daily updates from now on but the embryologist was hopeful that we will get to day 5 and be able to do a blasto transfer - we are going to transfer 2 assuming there are 2 available. Lots could fall away by then but I'm keeping everything crossed (especially legs as I'm trying to hold in my progesterone gel...!)
X

That's fantastic news, wow 14 fertilised! Makes you wonder why the little buggers didn't get it together in all those months

Hope the next few days go quickly for you and that all the news is good; sending lots of dividing thoughts to those little cells!!!

 

[hinkybinky]

Hi hon! Well they retrieved 16 eggs yesterday and they called today to say 14 have fertilised (on their own, we didn't need ICSI as DH's swimmers were excellent). They are going to give us daily updates from now on but the embryologist was hopeful that we will get to day 5 and be able to do a blasto transfer - we are going to transfer 2 assuming there are 2 available. Lots could fall away by then but I'm keeping everything crossed (especially legs as I'm trying to hold in my progesterone gel...!)
X

Hope it all goes well tomorrow, will be thinking of you xxx

 

[captainj1]

Hey girls....well you can read my signature. Devastated and tearful. Will check in now and again but having a break from bnb until my head gets straight. The perfect ivf cycle didnt turn out to be perfect. i have 5 frosties so will try again when im ready. Good luck to everyone.xxx

 

[starlight2801]

Hey girls....well you can read my signature. Devastated and tearful. Will check in now and again but having a break from bnb until my head gets straight. The perfect ivf cycle didnt turn out to be perfect. i have 5 frosties so will try again when im ready. Good luck to everyone.xxx

xxxx

I'm so sorry Captain. This seems so unfair. Good luck with your next try when you are ready xx