ScorpioLoz
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I miscarried on Monday 26th August. I didn't get a scan till the following Friday so I denied the fact I'm miscarrying and held onto any last hope. Friday showed nothing to indicate a pregnancy yet my hcg was slowly rising. They prepared me for a possible miscarriage... I was distraught! I cried all day and night. I barely ate and slept when I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer. On Saturday I had visitors round to see how I was and each time I looked at their faces I burst into tears. Sunday I was ok until it was time to sleep. I cried bitterly into my pillow but eventually got to sleep.
I was grieving... Understandably.
However...!
This week I feel no grief, no remorse... Just nothing. Work gave me a weeks compassionate leave. I feel like I can talk freely about my miscarriage. I had a scan Wednesday 4th September which confirmed the miscarriage and I cried a little because it was so final but after that I was fine.
Am I over it already? Am I harbouring my feelings?
Of course I feel sad but I'm not crying anymore :-/ I have however started cuddling my other half a lot more telling him to stay there (so he doesn't move).
I was grieving... Understandably.
However...!
This week I feel no grief, no remorse... Just nothing. Work gave me a weeks compassionate leave. I feel like I can talk freely about my miscarriage. I had a scan Wednesday 4th September which confirmed the miscarriage and I cried a little because it was so final but after that I was fine.
Am I over it already? Am I harbouring my feelings?
Of course I feel sad but I'm not crying anymore :-/ I have however started cuddling my other half a lot more telling him to stay there (so he doesn't move).