PAL - the worry starts again

[goddess25]

I have 2 kids and had my 3rd miscarriage a few months ago. I found out today that I am pg around 4 weeks and while I am obviously excited, I find myself very guarded this time.

my pattern has been mc/baby boy/mc/ baby girl/mc so just hoping I am following the same pattern.

I just wish I could be excited with no thought of loss. I am also worried as this time is very different, I didn't think I was pregnant, very strong test this morning. I have light cramping now and again but really not much, back pain and that is about it.

I hate having this worry again although I definitely want another child.

not really looking for advice as we are all in the same boat really...

 

[agreeksmom]

we are all in it together im exicted i got my morning sickness didnt have that with the last

 

[SIEGAL]

I know exactly how you feel. I had two miscarriages and have been TTC for over a year already. I just found out I am pregnant today and asked my husband if we should go out and celebrate and he said no as he doesn't want to let himself get excited
Poor thing. Its not just us women who feel so traumatized.

 

[goddess25]

my husband doesn't even talk about it. I told him yesterday morning that I was pregnant and he didn't say much. I know its because he assumes something is going to happen and he doesn't want to think about it. we have not really spoken about it since.

 

[goddess25]

Still freaking out.

I had an HCG level done on Monday at 5w1d - 4376, had it repeated today at 5w4d -9135. I will repeat it next week.

Having some brown bleeding and have a scan booked for a week away @ 6w4d.

How can I stop driving myself nuts?