My husband and I had an accidental pregnancy in 2011. We did want it. However, it ended in miscarriage. I've always had irregular periods growing up and would go a year sometimes without one. My GP was an idiot and never took it as a concern. In 2017 I lost my 2nd and was immediately diagnosed with PCOS. Just a month later we discovered I was pregnant and miscarrying again. September of last year, I kept getting negative tests but I knew something was up. I found out right at 12 weeks that I was miscarrying. Except this doctor didn't prepare me. I went into preterm labor in a gym bathroom and held my baby in my palm. And last weekend I knew I was pregnant but was confirmed with 2 of 6 positive tests. Yesterday I miscarried (began the process). Clomid and metformin did not help. And I've had no treatment since. We cannot afford a RE due to past medical bills draining us. But we can care for a child. Just not fertility treatments and a baby. Adoption may not be possible due to my history. I've been hospitalized 6 times in 10 years for suicidal thoughts. 3 were after a stroke at 27. I think we're out of options other than just keep trying and hoping. I've been told maybe I have a clotting disorder by a prenatal nurse but no doctor has ever checked. I'm feeling pretty hopeless. 5 losses. No treatment. And I'm turning 29 next month. I know my chances greatly decrease when I hit 32. Just looking for support.