akaash.
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Sorry everybody.. I heard this website is useful if you have PND..
And ever since I have used it for support as I suffering severe PND (as I have been told)
...I don't know what bought this on, maybe me thinking and wanting the feeling to come on or maybe it was just that time of day!As I lay in bed I felt normal. It was like waking in the morning and realising what you just saw was a dream! What I had just seen and been through (the last few months) was a dream I woke up from it! I'm asking myself was that all a dream ? If it was a dream where am I where did I fall asleep and haven't woke up yet? I can't work out if what I've been through I've been having counselling but what if I didn't that was just a dream and I dont really know what IS wrong with me because Ive just woken up, I feel normal, just like me.
Im scared and want to cry it's asif I have really missed out on Akaash's and my own life literally because that was a dream. All them months I spent with him was a dream and not real!! I'm trrying to understand what this is what these feelings are. As far as I know the last time I was Tarah was 3rd August. When I smoked the weed it all started there at that point! I was high! I got scared of myself and upset I remember cryingn in Paul's arms saying what have I done! OMG what am I doing! Gosh! I can see how long ago it was now!
I want to see somebody and explain to them I've just woke up..LITERALLY! I know there going to say shes gone mad but I have just woke up and Im me again. I also know that I will dissappear again! How much more of my life will I spend like this, and then wake up?! Its so annoying I feel like I'm posessed! When will I wake up and stay up, not fall back in this dream!! I don't know if this PND because I don't know if I'm awake or dreaming!
If and when I wake up and stay up I know I won't remember much of this because now, when I just woke up I asked myself what happened, gosh it was a dream. BUT IT WASN'T I was alive but why do I feel asleep and this is a dream?!!!!
I want reassurance now! But how do I know that the reassurance I get isn't me dreaming. I feel like I'm sleeping somewhere and Im trapped in this dream. I need to return to real life because this isn't real it's a dream. Every time this happens I feel scared.
Tomorrow I don't want to go out because I'm not normal!! When I got the feeling that I just woke up I got a rush in my body from head to toe!...
And that was basically it, I know the tense is confusing it's because I added to it as I was writing.
Tarah XX
(Everybody must think Im crazy.. the amount Ive posted about PND)
And ever since I have used it for support as I suffering severe PND (as I have been told)
...I don't know what bought this on, maybe me thinking and wanting the feeling to come on or maybe it was just that time of day!As I lay in bed I felt normal. It was like waking in the morning and realising what you just saw was a dream! What I had just seen and been through (the last few months) was a dream I woke up from it! I'm asking myself was that all a dream ? If it was a dream where am I where did I fall asleep and haven't woke up yet? I can't work out if what I've been through I've been having counselling but what if I didn't that was just a dream and I dont really know what IS wrong with me because Ive just woken up, I feel normal, just like me.
Im scared and want to cry it's asif I have really missed out on Akaash's and my own life literally because that was a dream. All them months I spent with him was a dream and not real!! I'm trrying to understand what this is what these feelings are. As far as I know the last time I was Tarah was 3rd August. When I smoked the weed it all started there at that point! I was high! I got scared of myself and upset I remember cryingn in Paul's arms saying what have I done! OMG what am I doing! Gosh! I can see how long ago it was now!
I want to see somebody and explain to them I've just woke up..LITERALLY! I know there going to say shes gone mad but I have just woke up and Im me again. I also know that I will dissappear again! How much more of my life will I spend like this, and then wake up?! Its so annoying I feel like I'm posessed! When will I wake up and stay up, not fall back in this dream!! I don't know if this PND because I don't know if I'm awake or dreaming!
If and when I wake up and stay up I know I won't remember much of this because now, when I just woke up I asked myself what happened, gosh it was a dream. BUT IT WASN'T I was alive but why do I feel asleep and this is a dream?!!!!
I want reassurance now! But how do I know that the reassurance I get isn't me dreaming. I feel like I'm sleeping somewhere and Im trapped in this dream. I need to return to real life because this isn't real it's a dream. Every time this happens I feel scared.
Tomorrow I don't want to go out because I'm not normal!! When I got the feeling that I just woke up I got a rush in my body from head to toe!...
And that was basically it, I know the tense is confusing it's because I added to it as I was writing.
Tarah XX
(Everybody must think Im crazy.. the amount Ive posted about PND)
