PND Support Thread

[Mama1985]

Hey AboutWee thanks!

Hey kmh2009 Like the others have said is there anyone else you can ring to sit with you? or ring the health centre and talk to someone?

I got frustrated with my LO today, she was crying and wasnt taking her bottle....I had to calm myself down, I told my mum (who was at the docs) and she missed her appointment and came up too me, she wont leave me alone with the baby now, and I have an appt to see the doc who might put me on some medication, but my HV doesnt want me on medication yet... I suppose that if everything sets me off that quick like the hoover I might need it...

EURGH! What is it with some people!!!! my dad keeps telling me to 'sortmyself out' and my nan keeps saying I need a kick up the bum, my OH workmate has said that I wasnt ready for a baby and that I need to pull myself out of it.....

thats just annoying, they havent been through it, they dont know how hard it is!!!!

 

[elm]

ive rang hv and left a voicemail for them to call back. they havent yet. had a phone call from mental health team and they are coming to visit me monday but that doesnt helpme today. hope hv rings bac soon.
its so hard, pulse is racing. feel soooo anxious. getting dizzy. urgh

xxx Are they based at your drs? Can you ring the main reception just to check that someone will get the message today? xxx

 

[elm]

Hey AboutWee thanks!

Hey kmh2009 Like the others have said is there anyone else you can ring to sit with you? or ring the health centre and talk to someone?

I got frustrated with my LO today, she was crying and wasnt taking her bottle....I had to calm myself down, I told my mum (who was at the docs) and she missed her appointment and came up too me, she wont leave me alone with the baby now, and I have an appt to see the doc who might put me on some medication, but my HV doesnt want me on medication yet... I suppose that if everything sets me off that quick like the hoover I might need it...

EURGH! What is it with some people!!!! my dad keeps telling me to 'sortmyself out' and my nan keeps saying I need a kick up the bum, my OH workmate has said that I wasnt ready for a baby and that I need to pull myself out of it.....

thats just annoying, they havent been through it, they dont know how hard it is!!!!

you're doing so well to get help xxx

Talk the meds through with your dr - it's up to you if you feel you need them or not and they can take a couple of weeks to start working

x

 

[snettyb]

Hi everyone and hugs to everyone who needs them!

I had been doing so well lately, no tears, feeling positive......until today. I feel rock bottom today, feelings hopeless, suicidal and that i'm not good enough for my amazing little boy. I don't know where this has come from, i can't think of a trigger. I have my intensive psychotherapy to look forward to and my psychologist called yesterday to tell me it was almost in place but i don't see how anything can help me right now. Urghhh feel shit! xx

 

[elm]

Hi everyone and hugs to everyone who needs them!

I had been doing so well lately, no tears, feeling positive......until today. I feel rock bottom today, feelings hopeless, suicidal and that i'm not good enough for my amazing little boy. I don't know where this has come from, i can't think of a trigger. I have my intensive psychotherapy to look forward to and my psychologist called yesterday to tell me it was almost in place but i don't see how anything can help me right now. Urghhh feel shit! xx

Sorry you're so down at the moment. I find it helps to remember that some of the things I think is because I'm ill. I'm positive that the psychotherapy will help you x I've found cbt so helpful and I've only just started really - I've realised things that just seem totally obvious that I've never noticed before.

x

 

[maccy]

Hiya....not sure I should be posting here or not. So forgive me if I'm in the wrong place...I don't know what I have or what I am feeling. I had my 2nd baby girl on 5 June after loosing a baby in May 08. After I delivered they hit a main blood vessle whilst stitching me up and I was in bit of a mess, couldn't even wee by myself cause of the swelling etc, hence, my physical recovery was long and painful. Anyway, my beautiful girl is now 8 weeks old but I have been really struggling with things. It didn't help having so much pain and then an infection after I had her, I am in floods of tears alot and I am finding it hard to cope, first I wanted to send her back, longing for my old life back then I'm glad that that feeling went but I am left with feelings that I am a shit mother. I love my first little girl who is 5 so much but I fear that cause I am so up and down with my emotions that we are loosing our great relationship, I seem to flip out at silly things with her and when the baby is screaming I just can't cope. I love my new daughter, bt then have feelings of guilt that I just cannot love both of them..how can I do that???? I feel like a little girl trapped in this grown ups life (I'm 29 by the way and happily married) I look like crap and I don't know who I am anymore, I used to be so confident I'd go anywhere, but now I am struggling to set foot out of the door. I have spoken to the HV well I broke down actually and she told me to just take things easy and get some help, but it's hard, no-one knows how I really feel escept my husband who is worried about me..The things is that somedays I am ok and feel fine and capeable then others I am in a heap on the floor ...I don't know what to do...are these just the baby blues...I really wanna feel myself again. Any advice ladies will really help. Thanks

 

[stephwiggy]

Hiya....not sure I should be posting here or not. So forgive me if I'm in the wrong place...I don't know what I have or what I am feeling. I had my 2nd baby girl on 5 June after loosing a baby in May 08. After I delivered they hit a main blood vessle whilst stitching me up and I was in bit of a mess, couldn't even wee by myself cause of the swelling etc, hence, my physical recovery was long and painful. Anyway, my beautiful girl is now 8 weeks old but I have been really struggling with things. It didn't help having so much pain and then an infection after I had her, I am in floods of tears alot and I am finding it hard to cope, first I wanted to send her back, longing for my old life back then I'm glad that that feeling went but I am left with feelings that I am a shit mother. I love my first little girl who is 5 so much but I fear that cause I am so up and down with my emotions that we are loosing our great relationship, I seem to flip out at silly things with her and when the baby is screaming I just can't cope. I love my new daughter, bt then have feelings of guilt that I just cannot love both of them..how can I do that???? I feel like a little girl trapped in this grown ups life (I'm 29 by the way and happily married) I look like crap and I don't know who I am anymore, I used to be so confident I'd go anywhere, but now I am struggling to set foot out of the door. I have spoken to the HV well I broke down actually and she told me to just take things easy and get some help, but it's hard, no-one knows how I really feel escept my husband who is worried about me..The things is that somedays I am ok and feel fine and capeable then others I am in a heap on the floor ...I don't know what to do...are these just the baby blues...I really wanna feel myself again. Any advice ladies will really help. Thanks

You ahve had a bad time and there is no wonder you not feeling 100%

I was in a similar situation to your self - i spoke to my doc who said i had PND whci has hard to hear but even speaking about it help - i was on anti depressant for a few months and i was my old self -

all i will say is dont expect too mcuh of your self that what i did - and looking back it was daft, just do what you can do..

 

[ALY]

Hiya everyone
Hello to all the new ones am sorry your going thro this aswell

Just to let you all no am feeling a lot better we went away for a couple of days beginning of this week am its helped me get my head round things and im feeling a lot more positive

I hope you ALL start to feel better soon

 

[moomin_troll]

ive had a bad few days been really down and now my oh is going away for a week from tomorrow and im not looking forward to being on my own with zane for so long.

i live middle of know where and my family dont really make a effort for me, im just really worried ile get worse

 

[Mama1985]

to everyone!

ARGH I really hate it when people turn around and say stuff like "oh what your feeling is completly normal!!" or "You need a kick up the bum" Or " YOu should just pull yourself out of it" LIke its that easy!!!! then it makes me feel like Im making it worse then it is and theres no need for talking to anyone... STUPID PEOPLE!!!


Sorry for the rant.

Ive been ok... .apart from this morning, I couldnt find my bra and couldnt get in touch with OH cos his phone didnt have a signal at that time so i took it out on the bed, chest or drawers and started kicking my hamper basket, all the while trying not to pull out my hair....all because of a simple stupid reason....Argh I am so not like this!!! Im a little worried that in that state I might not want to smash something up and try to hurt myself instead....like smacking the wall or kicking the wall or something....

*sigh* I just want to feel like myself again....

 

[snettyb]

Massive hugs to everyone

Alot of us are saying we want to be ourselves again, including me. I think whats important to remember that at the moment we are NOT ourselves right now but we will get better. That strong, confident person you once seen in the mirror is still there, just hiding. I hope i'm making sense here lol Some days i find myself, and others i even forget the person i once was

My OH has been on compassionate leave from work for 5 weeks (since i got suicidal) but he has to go back tomorrow and i'm terrified!! My psychologist made a crisis plan with me so if i get that way again i won't panic and just follow the plan but still i'm worried. My 7year old is off school for summer so that just makes me worry more. (long story but he a major cause of my deppression) Uuurgghhh i should really have more faith in my own abilities and i'm hoping i'm going to suprise myself and cope really well, but we'll see.

Stay strong ladies xx

 

[elm]

x

 

[ALY]

Thankyou all for your advice
am going off line for a bit so i hope you all start to feel better soon

 

[Neecee]

I'm glad I found this thread. I'm going through a bit of a bad patch at the moment

 

[pinkmummy]

I'm glad I found this thread. I'm going through a bit of a bad patch at the moment

hun it will get easier, you know where I am if you nee to chat xx

 

[Neecee]

I'm glad I found this thread. I'm going through a bit of a bad patch at the moment

hun it will get easier, you know where I am if you nee to chat xx

Thanks

 

[kmh2009]

just had a visit from a lady from the mental health team.I have to say i feel 50x worse now shes been. feel really down now. so unhappy. i wish there was a magic cure
been suffering from anxiety attacks a lot recently. Horrible!!

 

[Neecee]

I've finally decided that's it's time to address my pnd issues with my GP. I had a long talk with my mum about it. I feel better talking to her rather than my HV as mum's a HV and I don't really like the HV's in my area. We talked about counselling and other non-medicinal options, but tbh we both agreed that it's gotten so bad am I'm really not myself at all, that maybe I should at least consider medication. I feel so crap about it but I really don't see another option. I don't know how I'd be coping if OH didn't work from home. I was sat in the living room last night til about 1am just thinking about how bad I feel and this morning I was meant to go to a friends house but I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed. I didn't even get up to see to Kai when he started crying this morning - I just pulled the covers over my head and waited for hubby to get up and sort him out. I really didn't want to go down the happy pills road...

 

[elm]

Neecee xxx

If you need tablets for a bit please don't feel bad about it, you've tried without them and that's really commendable - I didn't, I went straight with the tablets and then cbt later on.

I don't think of them as 'happy pills' as I'm not happy on them but they do level me off some of the time. It's really hard knowing what they're doing because i don't know what I'd be like not on them but I know they don't make me happy!!! They're not forever though and I think they have helped.

xxx

 

[snettyb]

just had a visit from a lady from the mental health team.I have to say i feel 50x worse now shes been. feel really down now. so unhappy. i wish there was a magic cure
been suffering from anxiety attacks a lot recently. Horrible!!

Aww hun, give it time! The reason you feel worse is coz duding these sessions they drag things up out of you and its exhausting. In time i hope you see the benefits of the sessions.

I am very experienced on panic attacks. I have had ones that are so bad, my ex took me to hospital lol It took me a long time to get them under controll and only a small few slip through the net these days. I am sure you can get through this hun

Stary strong, PM me any time either on here or FB xx