PND Support Thread

[carolyn_s]

Aidedhoney - how did you get on at teh Dr's hun?

xx

 

[Aidedhoney]

I got some tablets and been refered to community mental health team.

OH decided not to stay with me while i get better so going it alone.

My mum came down today and wants me to go home its a long story but mum took some council forms down so got them filled in and i will see how that goes.

Sorry if its short and to the point just feel so alone hasnt helped that Alex has been a grumpy bum today lol

 

[carolyn_s]

i broke up with Abbys 'sperm donor' when she was 3 months old. I had to stay in a homeless hostel with her and thought that things would never pick up but it has!
It took me ages to get settled but believe me it gets better!
The tablets will prob take a little while to work their magic but i hope they help you!
always here if you need to vent!!
big hugs and take care of yourself xxx

 

[Aidedhoney]

Thanks hun, i know that in the long run i will be happy again, just takes time, have also started a diary like you suggested, helps loads to write things down, so thanks for that piece of advice.

Sperm dononr haha thats what this random will be refered to as well x

 

[carolyn_s]

Im glad i could be useful

remember there is always someone buzzing around on here if things get tough xx

 

[puppycat]

Hello ladies

It is very hard for me to say this but I think I may have some PND, or something similar.

My beautiful little girl is 10 weeks old today and I have been absolutely fine until the last couple of weeks.

I really cannot be bothered to eat or drink, I have to force myself to cook for my husband - who right now I really don't like, for no apparent reason.

He works evenings so I'm home alone with the baby right now, I don't want to be but I can't muster the energy to dress her up and me to go to my mums or wherever. I keep making excuses for not going out.

DH and I are arguing constntly but I cannot stop being moody and unreasonable. I know I'm in the wrong but I don't admit it and make him feel awful regularly.

The worst part is I find myself pretending all is fine and dandy so if I did say anyhing about how low I feel nobody would believe me. I just can't stop feeling so low and crying.

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hello Puppycat,

Sorry to hear your having a rough time, my advice talk to your HV or go to the doctor, once you have made that contact it will get so much easier.
I was in the same boat and put off admiting something was wrong, finally went to the doc and am getting the help that i have been needing for a long time.

xxx

 

[AC81]

Reading through all your posts makes me feel like I'm not alone with all this. I found out a few weeks ago that I'm expecting number 2 and right now I hate myself for getting pregnant. I'm happy, but I feel like I should have let it happen. When I found out I tried to come off my medication straight away. I managed cold turkey last time, but this time (I only take 10mg of citalopram now) I am really struggling. The dizziness and sickness is unbearable. I feel so low, angry, guilty, and the rest. Right now I really hate myself. I want my pregnancy hormones to kick in like last time. I was so happy last time I was pregnant and I want to feel like that again.

I have managed to cut down to one tablet every second day, but even on that I feel like I can't cope. I want to go to see the doctor to ask if its ok to take my medication while I'm pregnant, but I'm too scared. For starters I feel guilty about taking anything and secondly my doctor warned me about getting pregnant when she knew I was not taking my pill. She didn't tell me not to get pregnant, but said it was important that I was better before having another baby. Welll I'm not better and I'm pregnant.

I have no motivation to do anything. I can't be arsed to clean the house. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself and I need a good slap! Sorry for moaning.

 

[Aidedhoney]

Big hugs AC81 cant really give advice as new to all this but didnt want to read and run. xxx

 

[lauramarie]

hey just found this thread, was diagnosed with PND a few months back, thought i was coping pretty well now im not so sure, saw HV last week who said i should go to my GP, so have appointment on monday.

bit of background, i split from my husband while pregnant, after finding out out he was cheating, it has been far from amicable, he has never met his son and we are not on speaking terms, i have found all of this very difficult to cope with, breaks my heart that i lost what i thought was my best friend

anyway i have been struggling to get to sleep, quite often awake until 3am, with everything going through my mind, and have no motivation to do anything, also getting really snappy with my family at times.

can anyone tell me if anti depressant are beneficial? i wouldn't go for councelling so that one is out

 

[Blondie2008]

Hi Lauramarie,

I dont usually post in this thread eventhough i have suffered since the birth of my daughter 7 months ago. You poor thing! It must be horrible to lose your husband at any time never mind when you are pregnant.

I didnt really wan to go on any tables but was advised to by a counsellor at my local hospital. Its the best thing i ever did. I just helped me to cope with things that much better. They wont make all of your troubles go away but they will help.

I think your very brave and a credit to your LO.

XXX

 

[lauramarie]

thanks so much blondie
i didn't want to go down tablets route, but i have tried to cope with it alone, i'll see what GP says on monday, it maybe is what i need xx

 

[carolyn_s]

hey Laura Marie - sorry to hear your having a rough time and have had to join us on here
My PND has been a lot better since my pregnancy hormone kicked in (number 2 on the way). I was similar to you and was reluctant to take any meds and declined them several times. I left it too late to go to a Dr in the first place and things got quite bad for me. After persuasion from the Dr i went on meds (citalopram 10mg) and had my dose slowly increased over a few months to 40mg. Im glad i made the decision to go on the meds because they helped me to think clearly and realise that some of the thoughts and anxeity i was having was not my fault and could be easily solved. Unfortunately, just when i had felt 'normal' for a few weeks i had to be taken off them quite suddenly (found out i was pregnant).
As i said to aidedhoney a couple of pages back i found that keeping a diary helped me more than any councelling etc. It was my way of getting everything out before i went to bed and helped me sleep.
Take care, xxx

 

[Aidedhoney]

hey just found this thread, was diagnosed with PND a few months back, thought i was coping pretty well now im not so sure, saw HV last week who said i should go to my GP, so have appointment on monday.

bit of background, i split from my husband while pregnant, after finding out out he was cheating, it has been far from amicable, he has never met his son and we are not on speaking terms, i have found all of this very difficult to cope with, breaks my heart that i lost what i thought was my best friend

anyway i have been struggling to get to sleep, quite often awake until 3am, with everything going through my mind, and have no motivation to do anything, also getting really snappy with my family at times.

can anyone tell me if anti depressant are beneficial? i wouldn't go for councelling so that one is out

My OH left the day i was told i had PND, its not easy but i am slowly getting there.
I am still waiting for my counselling to start bit wary as quite a private person.

I have only been on the tablets 2weeks and already i feel an improvement best advice i was given was by Carolyn and that is too keep a diary it really helps to write things down.

Big hugs hun xxx

 

[britt1986]

Hello ladies,

I was diagnosed with PND (PPD in the US) yesterday and was given anti-depressants.

A little history:

Depression runs in my family. I think everyone on my mom's side has had some sort of depression. Anyways, up until Bryson was born I never had any signs of being depressed, I was always happy, loved being around people, and carrying on a conversation with anyone who would listen to me. That all changed after Bryson was born!

In the beginning it was just the good ol' baby blues and I figured it would go away in time like the internet said it would. It didn't, it just got worse. Turned into anger, moodiness, and down right meaness. My husband couldn't stand to be around me because I would alway bite his head off about everything. If there was one thing out of place anywhere in the house, I was attacking him and that's just not like me. I don't want to be around people, carry on a conversation with anyone, nor am I happy. I never once wanted to hurt myself, the baby, or anyone else. I do think that if I wouldn't have gotten any help it may have come to that and it scared me to know that.

I am just proud of myself for getting help!

I just encourage others, if you think you may have symptoms of PND (PPD), please get help! IT WAS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE!!!

 

[AP]

Fuck.

I thought I was feelng better but today Alex hasnt been eating. Im so over tired its unreal, a security alarm was going off in the street all night. When I get tired, I cant cope.

OH isnt home til 10.30pm so im on my own

Today Alex has had only 3oz when she normally has 6oz bottles every three hours. I've been crying, one point I threw her bottle across the room.

I had to put her in her Moses basket and walk away, I couldnt think straight.

This is going to be a long day.

 

[carolyn_s]

Fuck.

I thought I was feelng better but today Alex hasnt been eating. Im so over tired its unreal, a security alarm was going off in the street all night. When I get tired, I cant cope.

OH isnt home til 10.30pm so im on my own

Today Alex has had only 3oz when she normally has 6oz bottles every three hours. I've been crying, one point I threw her bottle across the room.

I had to put her in her Moses basket and walk away, I couldnt think straight.

This is going to be a long day.

Is there anyone who could come and help you? Or would you OH be able to come home early from work if you rang him?
hope your day has improved xx

 

[AP]

Thanks Carolyn

the day has got progressively worse. I never realised 4 month olds can throw such tantrums. I just cant get her to feed and she is losing the rag

I put her down and had a bit of a word with myself, my make up is down my face and OH cant get home til late .

I think Alexs reflux is getting a hold of us again and I dunno what im gonna go over the weekend.

Bless her, shes sitting next to me bouncing up and down and smiling at me. How can I get this down when shes just so lovely in general?

 

[philly_bear24]

Thanks Carolyn

the day has got progressively worse. I never realised 4 month olds can throw such tantrums. I just cant get her to feed and she is losing the rag

I put her down and had a bit of a word with myself, my make up is down my face and OH cant get home til late .

I think Alexs reflux is getting a hold of us again and I dunno what im gonna go over the weekend.

Bless her, shes sitting next to me bouncing up and down and smiling at me. How can I get this down when shes just so lovely in general?

I know how you feel hun, I get like this sometimes and I just have to walk away and leave her there and then she'll be smiling at me and I wonder how I could ever get so angry. I've only been on my tablets for 2 weeks but it's already starting to get better so I'm trying to think of it as a temporary thing...

 

[AP]

After everything thats happened, you'd think i'd care more. Well, of course i care, i just cant explain!

i have to say, i need tablets. My PND was originally 'borderline' but now i know its worse.HV said i wasnt that bad at the time to need meds, just a bit of counselling.

I know otherwise now,