PND Support Thread

[Vicks]

I have been lurking around this thread for a while, but have finally plucked up the courage to post!
I was diaognosed with PND in November when Joe was 2 months old. Depression seems to be in my genes and I think it's a mixture of anxiety too, but my Dr has been fab and I'm on Citrolpram now, started on 20mg now on 40mg.
I'm due back at work in April and would like to try and get off meds once I'm in a routine, but am scared about going back to a crying, pancing reck that I was before.

Anyway, I've probably gone on enough! Hope everyone is feeling ok today and I'm glad I've found this thread. Makes me feel abit more normal to know that I'm not alone.

x

 

[Aidedhoney]

I have been lurking around this thread for a while, but have finally plucked up the courage to post!
I was diaognosed with PND in November when Joe was 2 months old. Depression seems to be in my genes and I think it's a mixture of anxiety too, but my Dr has been fab and I'm on Citrolpram now, started on 20mg now on 40mg.
I'm due back at work in April and would like to try and get off meds once I'm in a routine, but am scared about going back to a crying, pancing reck that I was before.

Anyway, I've probably gone on enough! Hope everyone is feeling ok today and I'm glad I've found this thread. Makes me feel abit more normal to know that I'm not alone.

x

Hiya

Can i ask a wee question i am on the same med as you but on 20mg, i have been on mine coming up 2weeks. Why do they increase the dose?

 

[carolyn_s]

hey vicks, you are far from alone. I thought nobody was feeling the way i was and it turned out there are lots of routes you can go for help. Are you finding the meds are helping?

Aidedhoney, me again lol. i was on Citalopram before i found out i had another bun in the oven. They steadily increased mine because i was still feeling really down and the anxiety was still too much for me. After a couple of weeks on 40mg i felt 'normal' and almost like my old self so had tadpole not come along thats where they would have kept me for a while before weaning me off. They try and keep you 'even' for 6months then start decreasing the dose

hugs to anyone else who needs them xx

 

[lauramarie]

hey ladies thanks for all the advice, a diary seem like a good idea (hadn't thought of that) i could write down all these thoughts that go through my mind during the night. like you aided im a really private person and i struggle to tell people how i feel, so i just get on with it.

you've all made me feel better about the meds to, hopefully il get an understanding doctor on monday. i had tried to convince myself that i was doing ok on my own, but this last week has definately made me see that im not, my ex seems to be on my mind every waking moment, i hate it. going out tonight, hopefully let off some steam and forget about him for a while

 

[carolyn_s]

Good on you lauramarie, glad the diary helped. Hope you have a good night tonight and let us all know how you get on at the docs xx

 

[Vicks]

Hiya

Can i ask a wee question i am on the same med as you but on 20mg, i have been on mine coming up 2weeks. Why do they increase the dose?

I was on 20mg for 28 days and then they upped it to 40. Not sure why, but to be honest I feel tones better on 40, really like normal again so I'm going to stay on these for a while. Not sure how I'll cope when I have to decrease them

 

[Vicks]

hey ladies thanks for all the advice, a diary seem like a good idea (hadn't thought of that) i could write down all these thoughts that go through my mind during the night. like you aided im a really private person and i struggle to tell people how i feel, so i just get on with it.

you've all made me feel better about the meds to, hopefully il get an understanding doctor on monday. i had tried to convince myself that i was doing ok on my own, but this last week has definately made me see that im not, my ex seems to be on my mind every waking moment, i hate it. going out tonight, hopefully let off some steam and forget about him for a while

I think a diary is a fab idea, I hadn't thought of it either.

Hope you have a good night tonight xx

 

[Aidedhoney]

hey vicks, you are far from alone. I thought nobody was feeling the way i was and it turned out there are lots of routes you can go for help. Are you finding the meds are helping?

Aidedhoney, me again lol. i was on Citalopram before i found out i had another bun in the oven. They steadily increased mine because i was still feeling really down and the anxiety was still too much for me. After a couple of weeks on 40mg i felt 'normal' and almost like my old self so had tadpole not come along thats where they would have kept me for a while before weaning me off. They try and keep you 'even' for 6months then start decreasing the dose

hugs to anyone else who needs them xx

Thanks hun, so if the doc wants to increase them i shouldnt be surprised.

Hows things with you?
Hows tadpole?
I am guessing that you still get down days if your off the meds?

 

[carolyn_s]

If you are still scoring quite high on the PND scoring questionaire then they might up your dose. To be honest now that my pregnancy hormone has kicked in im feeling a lot better. Im not getting my hopes up too much though, but at least after tadpole is born i know what signs to look out for. Things with me and chris are def over now and to be honest im feeling quite positive about being back on team single mummy i think its for the best. Ive started a pregnancy journal on here how you doin? xx

 

[Aidedhoney]

Thanks hun, will have a look at the journal.

Sorry about you and Chris xx
Do they think your PND will return after tadpole?

Me i am ok having a bit of a down day today miss Alex's dad but hey ho he had his chance to come back. I|ts quite lonely down here which isnt helping only have a couple of friends and ex's family.
Got my mum down on Tuesday shes gonna take some of the stuff i have packed up the road.
Plan on moving back in with mum once the schools break up as not fair to move nats mid term.

 

[lilysmum2]

Hi ladies, just thought I would post as I have had PND now since well basically when Lily was born. I am on sertraline anti depressants. First I was on 50mg a day and now I am on 50mg twice a day. I still feel low but thought I would introduce myself...

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hello Lilysmum2 xx

 

[lauramarie]

hey ladies, went to GP today, she was really good, has prescribed me citalopram 20mg, see how i get on. has anyone had a lot of weight gain while taking it?

 

[Aidedhoney]

nope the opposite lauramarie it has totally killed my appetite have lost over half a stone in 2wks but that could also be down to OH leaving.

Glad you got a nice doc makes all the difference xx

 

[Angielove]

hey. im 18 and had my daughter on the 24th of jan. today i got but on anti depressants for my postpartum depression

just thought i'd join this thread

 

[Vicks]

I haven't had any weight gain lauramarie and I've been on citlopram for over 2 months now. Like aidedhoney said, they actually had the opposite effect on me and made my appetite less.

Hi to angielove & lilysmum2 xx

 

[mom2pne]

Vicks Hello! & hello to all!

I'd thought I'd join. I started prozac today for my pnd. I was told it could take 2 weeks for the meds to kick in. I'm also going to see a councilor starting Monday. I hope I don't need both for long, but I'm definitely not myself since having Lennox and its not helping my children at all. I'm tired of being angry and sad all the time.

I'll introduce myself quick! My name is Simone. I'm 36 and a sahm to 5 boys. I'm married to Chad,37 for 13 years and we have been together for 18. This is the first time with pnd. So I was hoping it would go away.

 

[AP]

for Carolyn and Aidedhoney, in fact hugs for you all.

Thought I was doing alright but I realised why.

OH was off for a whole week so I had that support and could get out easier with Alex and him. He spent a lot of time with Alex so now hes gone back to work today I feel like i've had a smack in the face.

Alex has screamed for 2 hours straight, nothing would help her. She was just over tired, I could not for the love of god get her to sleep til now.

I was planning to go see family but I waited 30 mins in the cold with her for a bus and when it came it had a buggy on. The driver asked me to fold up the pram :thumb: Yes sure mate - NOT.

I went back nto the flatand just cried. I sent a text to OH to make HIM feel bad and I dont even know why.

I almost sent another text tell him Id never ever carry another child for him again, I was so angry.

My best mates mum asked how my LO was and I actually prayed noone else would ask about her because I literally felt so down thinking about it all.
I cry, I get angry, I feel bad, I throw things (but never ever in the same room as alex!!!!) but that way of letting of steam is resulting in broken things and I cry again. And I blame OH.

I know I need help. I cannot talk to a counsellor. Believe me I dunno what I can say anymore. I knew what was going on before but I dont now.

I feel lost inside and constantly tell OH I wish we never even dreamt of TTC a child - that is terrible.


I have a big question - Antidepressants - would they help me? Or am I just a bitch who needs some anger management.

Do I just go to the doc? What do I actually say??? Without sounding like social services need to intervene! lol

 

[Aidedhoney]

Hello Mum2pne, xx

 

[Aidedhoney]

SB22...................Go to the docs honey, i put off going for weeks and in the end its cost me my relationship.

Like you i was very angry, i would throw things and be mean to my OH for no good reason.
Its hard knowing what to say when you go into the docs i just sat down and was very
honest about how i felt, the anger, the tears and the anxiety.

I am on happy pills been on them nearly 3 weeks and they have made a huge difference, i am def more relaxed, i do sometimes feel myself getting angry still for example Alex has been grumpy the past few days and cos OH left i am all alone (in process of moving closer to family) and i found myself feeling angry that i had been left to cope on my own.
I have also been referred for counselling which starts next monday not sure how i feel about that as i am quite a private person.

I have also recieved fantastic support from my HV shes been coming round every week and having a wee chat which has helped when your all alone.

Big hugs hun xx