For me the past few months have been a rough journey where I have been very sick and pingponged between believing I was pregnant and believing it must just be a cyst. My boyfriend has gone from saying he was positive I was to thinking it was all in my head to thinking I was again. Point is we're not sure. When all the sickness started we took a test. I had bad morning sickness and my boobs were super sore. There was a faint positive line. We ignored it and waited another month before I got a blood test. It came out negative. After that every urine test and a second blood test came out negative. When I had the second blood test I would have been 23ish weeks, which a friend of mine said my hormone lvls would have dropped and not shown in the test. Don't know if that's true. When I went for my first ultrasound the dr. spent 10 minutes explaining why ultrasounds don't cure you and so it's pointless to get one done. He refused me one. The second attempt my obgyn felt the lump in my lower stomach, told me it was a loop of bowel, and refused me an ultrasound. The past month I have been feeling bubble sensations in my lower stomach like goldfish swimming when I didn't have gas. I contributed it to my imagination. A week ago I felt a sensation so strong behind my bellybutton like a strong tap. I was sure it was a kick. I felt it a few more times in different areas. I felt my stomach up above my bellybutton is hard and i feel a mass in there. Sometimes I feel what can only be described as squirming. Other times I feel normal except I get tired very easily. The past week I have also felt morning sickness again. I get full and can't eat all that much without getting sick. I also get this pressure low in my pelvis and it feels like I have to poop when I don't. The pain goes away after a few minutes and comes and goes throughout the day. I went to the er due to these pains. I explained to the dr how I thought I was pregnant and how my mother didn't show positive on tests until she was 7 months pregnant. He said "we're not talking about your mom". He ignored my elevated blood pressure and my swollen eyes which I had woken up with and could not explain and told me that I had a bowel obstruction without even examining me. He said it was against hospital rules to give me an ultrasound unless I could prove I was pregnant. He ignored that I had a history of cysts. He also ignored that recently my feet have been tingling and numb as well as my hands. My bf's mom who doesn't know about any of this thinks the cramping is a uti and my feet and hands are poor circulation. I have had increased white creamy discharge really bad this month, but it doesn't have an odor. Last month I thought I was showing. I went from a somewhat flat tummy to a bump under my bellybutton. It did look like I could just be gaining weight. However, this month the bump has moved up more center and I am round. It scares my boyfriend because he doesn't think it looks like normal weight gain. (I posted the pictures a few posts down). Point is I don't know what's happening to me. Last six months have been hell. Everywhere I go since I'm testing negative nobody will have anything to do with me. How can I go about getting an ultrasound without being turned away? Is this all in my head?